wow...i havent been on this since january...so much has happened..so many relationships have ended and begun, so many people have come and gone..it's amazing what can happen in almost a year..you figure a year isnt a very long time but it changes lives. i'm single now..for the first time in almost a year. im holding up great though.. im even enthralled with a new fabulous girl who makes me weak in the knees just from a hug. *sigh* it feels great, a new crush, a new beginning, its so refreshing. the holidays are here and i thought it was going to be lonely, but we'll see about that. if there was a santa, of all the years i've been alive i think this year was the one where i might actually have deserved presents. i was proud of myself this year..i actually invested my time, and life into another person who i truly loved and recieved back exactly what i expected..absolutely nothing. the first time i've ever been daring enough to love someone more than myself. it's over now, but it wasn't my fault..people change..it's sad..but hey life goes on. And this new girl! oh my..she puts quite a smile on my face..and the best part is, she doesn't even know it.