my stomach is churning. i hate the feeling in my stomach when i've eaten. it feels strange. my stomach doesn't seem to like me much at all at the moment. my hand are cold and numb, i like numbness. bring me the numbness i desire. because i dont want to feel like this anymore. i wish i could express myself more, but i dont know whether i can. i cant think, and i'm sick of having to hear everyday about how pathetically imperfect i am. although YOU might not be able to see it, or feel it, I DO!