i hate life, i ahte this shitty thing called existance. i hate the oxygen coming into my lungs, i hate the carbon dioxide coming out of my lungs, because that was once a part of me, and now, everyone else has to become intoxicated by my filth. i hate the blood flowing in my veins. i hate jesus, i hate god, i hate satan, i hate any form of superiority because i feel that we should all be equal. i hate mirrors, i hate reflections of any source. i am DIRTY, i want to be PRETTY. i hate computers. i hate the way people judge others before they get to now them. i hate it when people change themselves to be like other people. i hate feeling, i hate it when my heartbeat keeps me awake at night. i hate the feeling i get in my stomach after i've eaten. i hate the idea of that there is one almighty figure that controls EVERYTHING! i hate the idea of fate, i hate the idea of not being able to control your life. i hate it when i cant sleep. i hate guilt. i hate depression. i hate this shithole era of my life. i hate the thought of suicide. i hatenot having money for pot. i hate my eyes when they flicker. i hate tedious pop music. i hate it when people judge me by the way i look. i hate not being able to be the perfect daughter people want me to be. i hate being awake all the time. i hate the fact that i am different. i hate not being pretty. i hate being fat. i hate it that i am not happy anymore. i hate it that i try to be happy, but cannot manage ut. i hate having to act happy every FUCKING DAY OF MY LIFE to keep people from asking questions and making conclusions about me. i hate the feeling you get just before you need to cry - the feeling i have right now. i hate not being able to express myself in words. i hate it when i smoke too fast for the cigarette paper. i hate being dizzy when i dont want to be. i hate being stoned when i dont feel like being stoned anymore. i hate not being smart. i hate the feeling of bad circulation to my hands. i hate blood. i hate being gorssed out by my own scars that were self inflicted. i hate the feeling of being VIOLATED! i hate being inspected on EVERY FUCKN MOVE I MAKE! i hate being talked about. i hate judgemental people. i hate arrogance, i hate lies. i hate war, i hate fighting. i hate the hatred of people just coz they are different. i hate it when people hate people coz they are not like them. i hate it when people try and change the people who arent like them into something they can NEVER be. i hate being hurt. i hate having to see the word HATE carved into my skin every time i look at my arm. I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO BE BOTHERED TYPING ANYMORE! FUCK!