Alot has happened since i last posted in my SITdiary. So... -River of the Eclipse, my band, has managed to make a myspace(www.myspace.com/riveroftheelcipse) and we are making an all original set of songs. We plan on making our first live gig around end of january, end of february...I dont haven't decided just yet. -Love related...I use to like my friend Megan as I stated somewhere on here. However, I see now that it was just a crush I had and I think we will be better off as friends. However...I have a girlfriend now. I go out with this girl sara now. Some of you might not know her but I do and thats all that matters isn't it? well I think I might have found a girl that I will like for a longer time...I hope I dont offend her or make her unhappy or anything, because I wouldn't want that to happen...anyways, We just started going out today, December 3rd, 2005. -I also just came back from Sara's party. It was me, Sara, Meredith, Cody, Sharon, Katie, Danny, Beth, and Sam there. At first my mom wasn't gonna let me go but then sara called and asked if I was coming...then I said that I needed a ride there and a ride back. Danny volunteered to pick me up and take me back home afterwards, which was cool of him. We go there and the party happened. I will not go any farther into details because we all swore not to repeat anything that happened in that party. It was nothing bad, just dont want other people to know because they aren't cool. -I am somehow managing to somewhat keep my grades up...amazing... -Me and Jen are friends now and there is no awkwardness between us. I am over her and she actually talks to me more often now. Which is good. So yea... -I have yet to fully become wiccan but it can wait for a while until I get a job and help pay for the equipment for my band and also other stuff that I may need to spend money on or something in the future... -I was supposed to get an Xbox 360 as my birthday and my christmas present combined but I never got it...should be getting it soon though. -Going to visit my grandparents in north carolina in december for christmas. Gonna be down there a few days. gonna have to sit in the car though for eight or nine hours though, which sucks alot... -A couple of weeks or so ago...me and my brother and two of our friends started to take stuff form hot topic. they cost too much. we just started grabbing cds and a couple of shirts, occasionally wristbands and collars...bryan even managed a pair of tripp pants. It's been prosperous everytime we go there... anyways, I will probably post another entry in a couple of weeks...or months...whenever...

I just got back from the football game...middletown won 61 to 0 against umm...i forget...but anyways, thats not the issue at hand...or is it? i dont know nor do i give a flying fuck. Let me just say, hanging out with freshman is fun. I was hanging out with megan, buddy, and these two other chicks who are megan's friends...we had fun, well we walked around being crazy and acting stupid and shit...there was not alot of people like there normally is...but it was still fun...afterwords we went to the park right next to the stadium and we swung on the swing set and tried driving the fake cars and i lit my hair on fire and it kinda stunk then after the smeel went away the four of them like sat down and crossed their legs and i layed down the middle on their legs it was kind of weird, then one of them threw grass on me and the others put grasse on me...and soon i was covered in grass, megan shoved grass down the back of my shirt, and buddy took a peice of grass and picked my nose with it....it was weird, and its weird because we were hanging out with some 7th graders for a bit and they all said they had gotten high before and they were little little kids, like half my size, and we were just staring at them and then we told them drugs are bad, you shouldnt do them...anyways, they didnt really listen to us...but oh well, stupid kids...and megan was acting all weird...oh well...anyways, tommorow me and bryan have band practice with our band...and sunday we go to our mom's house. and when i come to school on monday, my hair will be completely straight *gasp* ok its not that important but people will definately be able to tell the difference between me and bryan and if they cant, there stupid and should see at all...so yea, im just gonna go....bye

i finally got my internet at my dad's house, me and bryan are happy now...we just have to get our xbox live account recovered and we can play on live again with all our friends. That will be cool. We also have to walk to school tommorow and back. but it doesnt matter cause we have a dunkin donuts in front of our house! how cool is that? you know its the best thing in the world...well, next to peanut butter....and sex if you're a pervert...but eh, everyone's a pervert inside...

Our five day weekend is almost over...my sapce bar isbeing retarded...keeps sticking...anyways, i rented Ultimate Spiderman for the PS2 today and it is really cool, you can play as venomand eatpeople, draining theirlife for health...plus some of the marvel characters likethe human torch and wolverine make appearences in the game...its fun and i really like how they did the cut scenes like comic strips. anyways, nothing new has happened to me besides getting a myspace acount and whatever...here it is: www.myspace.com/nocturneofraven/ just go there and your well...there....anyways...i'll talk to you guys whenever i can...so see ya

we have a five day weekend. lets see... wednesday=seeing corpse bride thursday=river of the eclipse band practice friday=stay night over friend's house saturday=watch little brother sunday=go back to my dad's house remember kids, dont cut across, cut straight down...lol...j/k bye

The football game was a couple of hours ago, and i went. It was better than last week's football game. more people that i know and stuff. In the beginning i hung out with a couple of people, just messing around and such, then i saw megan and started hanging out with her. i actually had fun at an event where there is tons of people. once i got into it, i was yelling at people and acting all crazy and shit. i actually had fun doing something else besides video games and such. the only thing i dont like about megan is that she smokes, but i think i can overlook that fact since i seem to have more fun with her than anyone else. i really like her alot and i hope we can become even better friends, possibly more. anyways, i scared a bunch of little girls a couple of times and they screamed. me and megan just started laughing. i threw an empty water bottle at some kid and ran down the edge of the stadium with megan and me yelling. that was fun too. lets see, i walked home, left at like 10:15 and got home at 11...tiring walk though. and now im on the computer and it's 1:10am. i might get ready to go to bed though....not sure...nothing new besides the football game has happened in my life, besides i have a couple of new friends and i managed to get my homework done this week for school, yay for me! *cough* anyways, im just gonna stop now...post more for ya later!

I'm sitting at home, bored...no one to talk too, nothing to do....so i figured i'd write another fucking entry in my fucking diary which no one fucking looks at it or just doesnt comment on anything...anyways...had first japanese club meeting...that was chaotic...people wont shut up when they're supposed too...fucking idiots....alan was there, which means megan will never go there if alan's there because of what he did to her...she was yelling at him this morning when i got to school. so i just left her alone to yelling at him...hopefully she gets that sorted out. Kaleida at kahunaville last night was awesome. they're really good. though you couldnt hear their vocals all that well on some parts so it kinda detracted form the experience...but oh well. I really like megan but she has a boyfriend and she's got issues with alan right now, so i dont think she would want to go out with me right now...so i guess i'll wait, though i suck at waiting....pain in my ass....anyways, i'll just go get fucked by the world now...oh yea, my mom said she might consider letting me and bryan get a peircing...though she said no lip peircing....oh well, wasnt planning on it really...see ya

ha horny...anyways....i wanna ask this chick megan out and jen gave her my number but she hasnt called even though she had asked jen for it...and sadly i dont have her number...i just got back from the grange a couple of hours ago. i went with jen, bekky, my roomate blake, his friend nicole, and bekky's sister and friend. we saw nardo there and alot of other people from our school. i dont even know why i paid 14$ to get in, i was hardly listening to the bands. it was very very hot inside the grange. bekky's sister pretty much made me give her a piggy back ride and i couldnt lift my arms for a couple of seconds because of her weight, although she isnt fat but shes just tall...she is hot, but she's preppy....so yea...anyways, i had fun...everybody had fun...well except for those that didnt go but im sure other people had fun. anyways, i think im falling in love with megan, im constantly thinking about her....this sucks....wanna know why? that means if anything, i'll end up fucking that relationship up...like i did with jen's and mine...hopefully i dont though...im actually kinda glad jen broke up with me...thats weird, oh well....cant wait to see megan, although i only see her during lunch, before health and after school and possibly before school...so i'll just talk to you later....penis

captains log, day 225. there seems to be no intelligent life on this planet...ahhh mayday mayday we're falling down to earth ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! *BOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!!* it seems that anyone that isnt a metalhead or emo and some skaters seem to be overly obsessed with themselves. everybody today...well yesterday since its 12:35am right now...were thinking they were right. this girl in social studies wouldnt shut up until she was victorious and she keeps calling everybody dumb and she says, and i quote, "im like the smartest person in this class..." then on my bus to my mom's house which leads to the legends, almost all of them are lazy and expect to be waited on just because they have been raised in a big house with enough money to get whatever, they think that other people will give them what they want which leads to conflict which leads to fighting which leads to pain, pain to suffering, then possibly death. there is much to fear from the dark side...but dont worry, we have cookies! anyways...bye

HAHAHA Orgasmic, now thats funny, im not really orgasmic i just thought i'd put it there. Well today was pretty fun. from lunch on, bryan held up a sign that said 'my other penis is a vagina' and showed everyone by walking around with it in the air. that was funny. I finally talked to a friend i had not talkin to for about 3 or 4 years which was really cool. she goes to glassgow and apparently is in the band their...so when we play against glassgow, i will go to that game so i can see her. that will be cool. anyways im starting to get over jen. I've been bugging her to help me with this one chick named Megan, who's last name will be a mystery to you people. She is a freshman but she is a hot freshman, like most of them this year. But she doesnt seem to be one of those obnoxious people who want you to listen to them...well she does when she says hi, then if you dont say hi back she'll yell a bit, but it can be fun. i met her at my friend's b-day party and at the time they were going out, but they broke up. so anyways...if jen will stop pretty much ignoring me and being busy all the time, she might be able to help me. Home life...is slightly different. my mom moved in with her friend a couple of weeks ago and we finally got into the house this week. we have their basement, how cool is that? well not that cool, but im sure you dont care. apparently her friends live in the rich development, the legends. So our mom doesnt have to pay rent and she can get out of debt and get back on her feet in like two months. thats gonna be cool, have our own house that we can live in until we move out...which will be like two years or less...possibly more. anyways, they have three kids. a boy and two girls. the boy's name is blake and he's thirteen, he's pretty cool, he plays the guitar and he likes rock so thats good and he skateboards alot, which is good, but i dont really care much about it. then theirs a two year old girl named bree and a nine year old girl named brittany. all three of them are lazy as hell and they dont pick up after themselves. me bryan and our mom are almost always cleaning up after them. the kids on the bus we have to ride are spoiled, lazy, loud and they like rap and what not, well most of them anyways.this one black freshman likes to take our cell phones and call any random person on our contact list. it bugs the shit out of me. He comes over just to bug us to play halo even though we dont want to. anyways, my dads still living with his mom until his house is built, so nothing new there. i dont know if im missing anything though....any questions or concerns...or if you just want to comment, just uhh.....comment....talk to you fuckers later, bye.

actually it started on tuesday but i havent had a computer to type this on...it was ok, slightly boring and slow. we have advisory periods this year...i have no idea why we have them, but we do. here is my schedule: adv 1-Art 3 2-Algebra 2 w/stats 3-anatomy and physilogy 4-Japanese 1 5-Health 6-Social studies 7-English lunch c so far, japanese is my favorite subject. normally it would be art, but now i hate my art teacher ms riblett. i havent found out when japanese club starts but i will soon. i have S.S. and english with jen which is cool, and i have japanese with allie, kristina, and this kid named ken, along with ALOT of freshman. the freshman are really short, with the exceptional tall people. anyways, a couple more weeks of living with my dad's mom and then we can walk to school...which is good. and our mom is supposed to have our computer fixed by the time we go to her week on sunday. then i wouldnt have to use my friends computers. well im gonna go and play halo with my friends. see ya later

school starts tommorow. my mom is going to move in with her friend in the legends. we get their basement and we can share their internet connection. I just hope my mom gets our computer fixed before we come back to her. She has been putting it off for like 4 weeks. it annoys the hell out of me but i try to use my friends computer form time to time to check my mail and update stuff. right now im at my friend kalle's house. yesterday, me and my brother were racing on our dad's mom's riding mowers. i grassed him, lol. i also went to Jen's B-day on saturday. it was fun, i got wet and got other people wet with water balloons. Bekky glomped me several hundred times because this other girl kept saying i was lonely. IM NOT LONELY! i always look like this! anyways...the problem i have with moving into our mom's friend's house is that they have a son thats a freshman this year in high school and he dresses like a wigger, but the good thing is he is quiet and doesn't act like your typical black dude and/or wigger. freshman are small this year, they get smaller as the years go by...its weird. but oh well, hopefully this year would be better than last year. Oh and i might be joining Bryan's Band if Lucas wants me to be their Bassist, im gonna try real hard this year to learn as much as i can. im not gonna be lazy this year, i'm even trying to get a job...well in november im gonna try because gamestop is hiring. my friend suggested going there for a job because they need people for when the xbox 360 comes out. plus he happens to work there and he doesnt want to be alone for when its released, lol. anyways, i'll talk to you fuckers later.

my dad made me go to the beach house with him again...made me get some sunburn and all that...but before hand he made me get my hair cut back a bit so now my bangs dont cover my eyes anymore...that sucks....but im not gonna cry about it...it will grow back. anyways, my friend bekky's party is on saturday and hopefully i will have some fun there because once i get back the next day i'll have to go to my dad's mom's house until our new house in middletown crossing is built. and his mom is a complete bitch! but my mom cant afford to live in the house we have in porter square so at the end of the month we have to be out and somewhere else...leaving all our really good friends behind...son of a bitch...but i guess i cant change anything, we'll probably end up living with our aunt, uncle, and little cousin...which most likely we will have to sleep on the couches, but i dont care, but our dad has a problem with it...he's such an idiot...thinks everything has to be done to his liking...bastard. you know, i cant wait for school, summer is getting boring...well, so far im taking art 3 and japanese 1 along with the other neccesary classes...no honors or ap classes as always, i can do honors english, but i just dont want to...bryan's taking honors though, he doesnt want to be with the stupid people who dont know how to read. lol, i dont either but i'll deal with them if i have to. anyways, see ya later

i went to the carnival in town yesterday by the church...i didnt really want to go, i was forced to go in a way...my mom thought of it as a family together moment...it was boring...well, me and bryan had two funnel cakes and mostly hung out with a couple of our friends. then we got home around 10 o clock and then our friend came over our house to stay the night. well, right now its 4:53 am and i just got done playing my friend's Nintendo 64. yes thats right...an old N64 with The Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. i know some of you dont care but its a really great game, and i cant wait for the new zelda game to come out in november...but anyways....im just gonna stay up till my friend gets off and then i'll have no one to talk to...plus im not tired...but anyways, i'll talk to you people later, bye

Jen's boyfriend broke up with her...im both happy and mad about him doing that....happy because she's not with him anymore, sad because she was sad for awhile....now she's happy again which is good....though it might be the medicine she has to take for her...i dont know...but im not gonna go running back to her right away just because she's single now...geez...you think im so obsessed...if she wants me back then i'll ask her out...if not, then i wont...but yea...my brother and my friend finally beat Doom 3 last night...that final boss is huge...and if he hits you, you get an overkill....so yea...he was pretty easy though...but anyways....i went to bed at like 7:15 am this morning...and woke up at like 12:15pm not bad for staying up late...if you consider it late...i was mostly just online talking to my friends online and such...but this summer is pretty good...had more time to spend with my friends and such...my dad's moving to a new and bigger house...we are moving to middletown crossing. its gonna be better cause i wont have to share a room with my brother...and we will be getting verizon DSL, which is really cool. Now we just need to buy some computer parts for our computer to make it run better so we can play games on it...well, we'll figure that out later...in the mean time...see ya

Everyone stops what they are doing to me. if they stop calling me names, lying to me, and just leaving me the fuck alone with what i want to do with my summer and school year...

i am not in a band, and everyone did not quit except me...i was never really part of that band because it wasnt a band...just something that we wereplanning on starting but never got around to it...and personaly i dont care...second of all...whoever is posting in my diary under anonymous is fucking gay...geez....and just because i still want jen doesnt mean i am constantly calling her asking her to go back out with me...im not that pathetic...i have friends and i sure as hell dont need any metalheads as my friends in order to be one....if thats what any of you think....geez....so FUCK OFF! and in unrelated news, i passed school and driver's ed so im happy

STOP FUCKING POSTING IN MY DIARY WITH STUPID GAY ASS COMENTS! STOP BEING PUSSIES AND ACTUALLY TELL ME WHO YOU ARE! THAT WAY I CAN COME AND BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF YOU! FUCK OFF AND MIND YOUR OWN BUISNESS!

my friends at my mom's development got me hooked on this MMORPG called Rose online...you download it onto your computer from the website and its for free...its cool, you get a character and you equip items and fight creatures...anyways...its cool and i am going to play it some more...gotta get my level up more

I HATE THATS STUPID PEICE OF SHIT RYAN!!! GOD!!! I HOPE HE BURNS!!! there...im glad i got that out of me...now if only Jen would break up with him and go back out with me...what? im not plotting against him...i'll give her time....SHUT UP! you stupid cock-fuck-whore! GEEZ!