I feel very mixed today. Like for one I am kinda sad because I think my friend is mad at me for making the soccer team and she made the practice team. Ever since she has been making insults at people (which I hate to admit but its funny). I have been feeling a bit depressed because i got at 27% in science which will be hard to bring it up. I feel like I am going through the same process that happened to me back then. I mean I start out doing good but later in the year I start to fail miserably and I don't know why. And my semi-friends, Brian is being an ass hole to me but I think its just cause he has a crush on me (he admitted it so, yeah). Ever since I switched schools I feel miserable even when I should be happy. I think its because I have lost all of my friends that were nice to me and cared and well at my new school I don't know who to trust. I'm sure someone on sitdiary has had this happen. And I can't just suck it up because after awhile it gets so old and tiring. With all this mixed feelings I feel like buying a metal base ball bat and bashing someones head into the concrete. And now instead of enjoying my teen-hood I am to busy rebelling against many things. I want to go out there and sew the school board, I want to bash peoples faces, I want someone to help me. I haven't seen my therapist in over a month which is bad because i have to get my feelings out and tell someone. ~Anyway~ Me and my friends have been making a group and we plan on selling items at the anime convention, which we are very excited about. and... theres nothing else to say. Later!