Well the latest on me and my ex he says he still loves me see's us together in the future but the issue is im going into the U.S Coast Guard and I dont know where I'll be at.... so yea and he told me that we might get back together but not to soon , adn im graduating in a week and then leaving afterwards for the service.....

Wow what a week soo far.... me and my ex are still not together.. :( we still say I love you and talk and ahng out but just lately he hates giveing me a ride home and stuff so I asked him on the phone the other day if he really does Love me and he said " yes but you want me to act like your b/f and I'm not going to " so I said "no I dont want you to I want you to show that you love me every now and then " I mean I love this boy sooo much but now im starting to think that I should kinda play hard to get or somthing ?? i dont know I went to his house about a week ago with 2 of our friends and we all hung out I was sick and he was being a sweetheart and giving me stuff for my cold then we kinda ... :got it on: then took a bath together he was reallly sweet that night and now its kinda wierd... i have to say I love you first then he says it ... Its just I dont know what to do

Wow what a week so far two times this week I got crashed with some friends.... all the guys friends i have and my really good friend jess think I should dump my b/f along with some other ppl. I made the mistake of telling my friend L. about how my b/f hit me and left bruies on my arm and they all think that I should leave him and I cant its not that easy.I have been with him for 2 yrs and i feel like if i leave him then I wont find anyone eles who loves me. I think big L likes me and he is a really sweet guy like today he asked if he could came eat lunch with me and jess I said hell yea thats kool I mean my own B/f doesn't even come to the school to eat with me...... i try to ask myself some questions about the whole thing on who is better i mean i love my baby and its been 2 yrs.......... help !!!

Im starting to really like this diary thing cuz I can have fun and say whatever the fucks on my mind :) so here it goes I'm a really bad g/f i got so messed up last night its not even funny i told my b/f i was with my friend jess ..... and I was so dont get me wrong i didnt lie but i didnt tell him where we were going cuz i didnt kno so yea we hung out with some guy friends we go to school with so yea..... I really like my new pictures :) lol

Hey ppl whats upp well I got a new picture if you didnt see :) hahaha well i like it its freakin crazy tell me what you think

I can't wait till the 24th of March :) I'm going with my Boy Friend to PROM who graduated last year! After Prom we plan on going to a hotel and getting crunk :) Me and my girlfriends are getting the room but the only issues I have with that is my B/f doesn't want to stay in the room with me its going to be a group of us in it and he doesn't want to .... I made sure to let him know that "ITS MY PROM" if he crashes my prom i will be sooo fucking pissed so yea I dont know what I should tell him about him not wanting to go with me to the hotel.... My friend tara said "just tell him ok well I'll be drinking and theres going to other guys there" I have a feeling that he will show up just to see whats going on but yea any who...... We will go out to eat then to the dance stay till 12 then he can take my ass to my hotel room and get fucked up and even if my man dont go my friend Jess has this guy going who likes me and is kinda cutie ... But I REALLy love my baby and want him to go

Wow What a week so far... Im soo lost on what I want to do after High school.... But yea I meet this guy and we hang out every weekend when we can ... He lives in Pace and he is a really sweet guy he is SOOOO funny the other weekend he got us some "Stuff" and we got crunk then drove to the beach and walked @ then sat in the car and we both got sick and had to get his cuz to come get usso yea it was a crazy night ... Prom is SOoo close I can't wait I'm getting a hotel room and yup its like a group of us sooo yea I already got my dress its red and black with roses... Its on the 24th of this month.. :)

Wow, what a Valentines Day my b/f showed up to get me after school with a dozen roses a big Teddy Bear and a REALLy sweet card then he took me to eat at "Ruby Tuesdays" then to the Beach.... we sat there and talked and held eachother and kissed an that was my Valentines Day!!! :) I love It

Well its that special Day ...:) i feel bad for ppl who dont have any one to love ... that sucks well my b/f got me Flowers and candy and is taking me out to dinner and a nice walk on the beach and he said he has somthing for me but he wants it to be a " shh shh " thing till later

Hey wow its almost that SPECIAL day :) I can't wait to see what my b/f is doing for me I hope its nice and special and WOW I really love him ! ok well I hope every has a good Valentines Day!!

hey whats going on well I no long time no write .... Im working on it well my b/f and I are going go :) I saw him last night when I had to go babysit... I asked him what his plans for Valentines day were and yea he said " I'll have to see " :0

Well I can't wait till after school today I have to go over to my sisters and babysit but I also get to get "tipsy" YAY with some friends and my b/f is coming and were going to get him f*ed up :) haha hehehe well then on Frinight I get to get really tipsy hells yea its going to be fun cuz of what a really bad weekend I have had ..... It sucks

Well On the 1st my Boy friend turns 20th wow... he seems sooo old im only 18 about to turn 19 on March 20th " the first day of Spring" soo yea well I dont have much to say but .. if ya want to see a pic of my ugly ass... go to yahoo its on my profile hyper_crazy_chic17@yahoo.com

Wow what a weekend on Friday I hung out with my b/f and friend jamie chilled at Starbucks..."Played pool" then Sat morning went to the Base with afjrotc. did there new pt course thing then that night I had to babysit had chris and jamie over we all saw "Fight Plan" ... it was really good then Jamie left it was just Chris and I ..... yea so then Sunday morning went shopping with my sister that night saw "Big Mammas House 2" It was funny!! I saw it with Mike and Chris but yea ~~~ I LOVE CHRIS ~~~

Hey wow so much happened last night or should I say after school yesterday... well anyways I got home @ 4 and my mom called me from work @ 6 and started yelling at me saying that "I'm lieing about night school and that Im hanging out with chris and Im not going to night school ..." WTF I mean I don't have to go to night school but I want to so that I can get my GPA up and bring up a grade in math.... but I told her "yea I'm going to night school Till 6:30 every Mon+Wed and she asked "doesn't chris still go to night school"? I said yes and she said thats why you want to go!! I was like umm No why would I go to school more then I already do? and cause first of all were in different rooms he takes Eng and I do Math and You can't talk in there!! This Wednesday me and chris left night school at 4:30 "Thats when everyone leaves, but you can stay till 6:30 if u want" w/jamie and Mike to go bowling well there was a wait so we all just went home ... well Chris's mom went to Ruby Tuesdaythat night "my sister works there" and his mom told my sis. all of this shit about me and how shes mad that we talk again.. then she told my sister that we all went bowling Wed-night and my sister got mad cuz I told her I can't baby-sit anymore on Mon-Wed cuz of Night school and thats the truth well then My sis told my mom and thats why my mom called bitchin at me... I dont kno what to do We "chris and I " really love eachother but I told him that he needs to talk to he's mom I mean I'm nothing but nice to her when I see her... I cryed all last night and I even told chris and even thinks its wrong what his mom did at MY SISTERS work! OMg Im soo lost ..........

Well let's see my "guy" said he doesn't want me to go into the NAVY he wants me to wait here for him to go into the NAVY and do his thing and when he gets done he'll come back and we'll get married but I dont want to fuck up my life plans!! and I don't know what to do about it I love him more then anything and I do want to be with him but I want to make a life for myself just to be safe ... more on this later

Hey well last night I was talking to a Navy recruiter and I took the pre test for Asvab and Got a 35 and females must get a 50 to get in but right now their letting females who make a 35 go in.... so I talked to him for about 4 hrs and looks like I'm going in but today after school I'm going up there and I have to take a "Piss test" to see if its still in my system and the 3 Navy guys were kool about it cuz I told them how and what happend ..... soo yea " any ideas how to get it out FAST" plz tell me !! I also gave Blood yesterday and damn it hurt " it was my 1st time "

I guess it's true about the saying "Live one day at a time" maybe I should start.... I come to relize somthing about the 3 guys that I like such as 2 of them I know I could do better....." Im sry if I sound like a Bitch I don't mean to" and The last guy I'm in love with and also loves me and cares for me just as much ... I dated this guy for about 2 yrs but as of right now we are not dating but we do everything like we would do if we were dating. But the issues is he is leaving soon into the Navy And I'm worry that I won't get to see him again and that he'll move on and forget about me :(I really care 4 him,+ love him more an more each day But I feel like I should move on so i wont get hurt when he leaves and i might not see him again . Sooooo LOST !!

Im alone right now cuz jarred is not talking to me in 5th what a dork omg it time for the truth to come out about how I feel about Jarred... he is sooo sweet and kind and soo funny I love him ... But he has a gurl and thats not good ... no but the truth is that jarred is nothing more then a friend a good friend .... got yea j-man :)

I really didn't want to go to school today I wish I could have just stayed home ... but we have a "Pep Rally" today for our winter sports and I'm presenting the colors .. so yea then later on after school I'm hanging out with some old friends and were going to get ::crunk:: so this should be fun I hope .. ''My man'' or what ever you want to call him doesn't know if he wants to hang out today or not so yea .... OMG I sooooo want to get my tongue pierced this w/e oh well more on that later....