So0o0o...what a weekend it has been i really didnt do much but it seemed like a lot at the time i guess!! lol well Friday~~i hungout and justin came over till he had to go to work!! then went home at 1030 b/c i had to work the next morning!! sooo saturday i work from 10 to 4 that was interesting....hehe yeah... then hungout with justin kelsey clarke mostly clarke and i hungout....it was like old times we went on a mini road trip at 2 oclock in the morning yeah that was kinda scary b/c i could not stay in the lines....hehe yeah i know not goood...but all together i would say this weekend was pretty okay...could have been better!!! much love~~~

SORRY GUYS FOR NOT UPDATING!!! so i thought i would update and tell yall whats been going on!!! well i have a new boyfriend and hes awesome hes name is Justin!!! lol really not doing anything latly but just hanging out with justin,jessie,and chris!! tonight i might go up to pockets but i hate that place i might not go!! dont know what else to say!! sooo peace out~

well i havent written in here in a long time...been kinda busy with things....so yeah im bday was pretty good...and xmas is on the way...dont know what i want so dont ask....i have everything i've ever wanted ....great friends....some lost along the way...but made better ones... SO0o0o0o KRISTI is comming home yay.... soooo happy its going to be a big ass party the whole time....yay... soo if u want to party hit me up on my cell it will be great... boy status....ben no longer together ever....ewww anyways...there r better boys now and a lot of them...yay soo cute...but anyways thats all im going to say for now.... LAURA I UPDATED FOR U!! UR THE BEST EVER!!! if u want to hangout call me~ Much love~

okay....so yeah its day two.... so clarke and i have put it off....its going to be from this sunday...to my bday.... so then i will start over... BLAH BLAH....BENS COMMING HOME!!!!

feeling good just got off work.... for anyone that doesnt know i have a bet w/clarke...till my bday which is the 13th yay...and we cant do any drug till then...and today is day one i will keep u up dated.... much love... ohh yeah im talking to ben again...

so its been a while....what a freakin night!!!!! hehe im soo HAPPY and ur prolly saying how??? hehe NO DRUGS GUYS THANKS his name is cody....hes really CUTE and really nice and has a kick ass body!!! omg hes great...well thats all u can know now if u want more call me!! lol much love~

FUCK EVERYTHING....BASKETBALL WAS THE ONLY THING GOING FOR ME AND COACH MAC HAD TO FUCK THAT ALL UP.... WELL I GUESS IM REALLY NOT GOING TO COLLEGE ANYMORE... THERE WAS A FUCKING SCHOOL THAT WANTED A TAPE OF ME PLAYING BUT THERE NOT GOING TO GET THAT R THEY!!! ROLLING TONIGHT JOIN...$15

man what a weekend...the best ever...helll yeah...i would definatly tell u about it...BUT I DONT REM. SHIT!!! what a night!!! rolling is fun!!! hehe call me if u want to hangout!! Peace out~

wow havnt writen in here in a long time so i thought i would write in here!! so0o0 yeah havent really been doing much just hanging around here and there and working!!! so0o0 this weekend im going to the fair yay!!! im really happy that its here!!! so0o yeah im going to try something new this weekend....hehe dont try to talk me out of it im going to do it anyways...so0o0o i guess yea i dont have much more to say!! ohh yeah and i really want to go to the haunted house so i might go there to!! PeAcE oUt~

SO0O0O...THIS is for everyone that left me!!! THANKS....ASSHOLES.... okay sooo first my boyfriend leaves me then kristi leaves me...then i start to hangout w/nattydee and everything is going great...then she leaves me...what the fuck!! i feel like im out of the circle! kristi used to keep me in but now she is gone and no one talks to me!! well some of yall do...but it seems like when u call its just b/c u had nothing else to do....so0o0 i give up.... im going to do my own thing...if u want to hangout u can call if not.... then im going to do the things i do now...and theres no one here to stop me...I DONT CARE ANYMORE PEACE out~

PUT ME ON UR BUDDY LIST I CANT READ ANY OF YALL ENTRYS........PLEASE!!!!!

^^^ haha anyways so i have a very busy weekend...lol saturday i was in the hospital all day...then sunday i went to the kick ass concert went crowd surfing and had a great fucking time...it was sooo freakin great...then we all went to waffle house and ate...and there i go again opening my mouth...wont do it again...sry guys...lol it was like another cancouns insident...that guy was really starting to freak me out..lol then i just went to work the other days...come out and see me...at subway on the beach...i usually work 4-8 so0o come see me...call me before u go to make sure im there... peace out~

so0o0o im just sittin here whating for this storm...here we go again!!! !!!!!YES BEN AND I R BACK TOGETHER!!!!!!!!! okay got that off my back! i was just sittin here thinking...and im lonly..TIA u left me...lol jp dennis was fun...i still have the bed in there from when u stayed...lol yeah its not going to be the same...lol i miss the little shit dog that would piss on my floor..haha anyways....stay safe so0o0 ben and his family bought a house...yay for them...but the sad thing is that its all the way in p-cola...i mean we went from living right next to each to living over the bridge...to all the way in p-cola...this sucks ass...but i dont really want to make it a big deal b/c this means a lot to him to finally own a house...and now that i have a job...or still have one after this storm...i will never see him...this sucks...hes not going to my school anymore so i wont see him there...i dont know!!! so0o0 lastnight hungout w/STEPH...lol that shit lasted forever....like 16hits...lol that shit was awesome..lol we had another moment...yes!!! PEACE~

OKay.... so0o i have this lil bump in the road!!! i really dont know what to do!! i have must of my friends saying dont do...and some of them saying do whatever u feel... i really dont know what to do!! yea if u didnt guess its about ben!! i was in love w/him...then he hurt me...now we r talking and i really care about him alot but i really dont know what to do!! if u have any ideas im ready to listen i really need help...but i think im just going to be friends...and then see what happens...but i dont know???? well ben is really sick right now...i mean really sick and i feel really hopeless b/c i want to be there for him...but i dont feel right...i think im going to make him some cookies and bring him some!! maybe a lil card that says get better...or something like that...i care for him a lot i just really dont want to get hurt again... hes mom called me today and told me everything that he has to go through i feel really bad hes going to be out of school for a long time... well if u have any ideas leave some....i will stop talking about it all now!! so0o0 tom. i have to go for an intervue(SP) at subway! yeah then i have my basketball thing at 730 @ pjc!! yeah...lol ANYONE WANT TO HANGOUT JUST CALL ME IM NEVER BUSY FOR FRIENDS...HEHE PEACE OUT~

so0o0 today was okay dont really rem. any of it!! thats just what i wanted to do!!! so0o0 i got all my stuff out of his locker!!THANK YOU TIA FOR LETTING ME USE UR LOCKER!! im really happy that u were here for me today...it really ment a lot!! well hes telling everyone that he doesnt hate me...im going to give it a few weeks then maybe start talking to him...im not really sure...i cant just lose him all together i will just be his friend...i dont think i will ever get back w/him... well im going to go start working out at PJC with the coach of the men bball team...hes one of my friends i work w/him at jubs. when it was open....i talked to him this weekend at bushwacker fest...and he said he wanted to ball...so0o im gettin ready for the season if anyone whats to ball just call me b/c im going to have a lot of free time on my hands...so i will be playin a lot of basketball!!!

FEELING-tired,sick,and all the other words that can explain what im feeling!! so0o i havent written in here in a long time!! maybe b/c everything was the same and everything was going great!! BUT NOW IM SINGLE AND I CAN GET WITH ANYONE I WANT!! i really didnt think that if someone loved ur w/all there heart that they could sink sooo freakin low and pull off something like that!! i mean to even fuck another girl that really fucked up!! but u fucked up not me!! i wish u could just know how bad u really did u missing out on a great person...that did everything for u!! i loved u sooo much!! but now all i can see is a fucking gay ass guy that only wants to FUCK...so go a head fuck.....i really hope that he figures out what he is really missing...b/c if he just wanted for me which wasnt going to be long that it would have been the best!! b/c it would have ment something and it just wasnt a 1night thing...well peace w/that!! BUT...there is one more thing....theres this boy that i have been talking to about ben and he was there for me the other night and sat there and listened to me cry for and hour!! that really ment a lot to me!! and i hung out w/him last night he made me laugh...hes a great guy and i think im going to get to know him... ohh yeah and that 311 ticket i got for ben...yeah im giving it to matt!! yay!! peace out~

So0o0 yeah school started!! its okay my class r pretty kool!! I have class w/most of my friends which is awesome! Today i hungout all day w/my baby boy!! i love him to death!! not much to say! ohh yeah i hate math and kat wont let me cheat off her!! im sad!! i hope she will help me!! PEACE out~

so0o0 yeah today i went shopping with the only pay check i got and now its all freaking gone!! i really need a job... then after kelsey me and ben got done shoppin we went to pockets and played pool bens dad played it was so0o freakin fun...lol ben beat his dad twice hes getting better!! lol yeah so0o0 its like we go there all the time it kinda gets old but playin pool is so0o0 much fun and im getting really better...i think i can beat u TIA...lol school starts on monday and that just sucks!! ben is in my first class..yay i love him!! STEPH!! LOL I SLEPT AT HIS HOUSE...HEHEHE peace out~

so0o...i slept like all freakin day!! then i hung out w/natalie....yeah funn we went out to eat and drove around....hehe we got hit on by a 9year old and his dad...lol then i went to pockets saw ben got in another fight!! wtf this has been happening to much! if someone would just talk to me it would be great....i need help i really dont know what to do anymore...i miss the person i would go to the park and have lil talks w/!! this is my life!! Peace out~ call if u want to talk!!!

I LOVE BEN!!