i feel like shit.. i will be a faded memory soon..but maybe that is not such a bad thing... this is the last fucking diary i am going to get! i cant not get one but then i cant have one either because i have shitty so called friends that think that they can use sitdiary to make me feel like shit..but it works and i cant really help it because after awhile you loose it and you cave in the stress and pressure of it all. i am moving in a little less than two months and i couldnt be happier. some may say that i am running away from my problems i guess you could say that because i am running away to a better life with people who wont call me a snot or a stuckup bitch or whatever the hell they call me. i dont really know anymore.but its ok as i sit here and cry i know that some people care...but that number is soo small i wont have a sweet sixteen party or a going away party because there wont be anybody to invite that is soo sad. when school started i made a list of people to invite and what not but that list has been totally cut in half and in half adn in half one more time.. that is really sad.. i have no life.i babysit and make money thats about all i do! but i went adn got myself a digital camera today..choices choices.. so i got into a small snit with a person at the bowling ally on sunday night and i wrote about it..a person says that i had no right to do that and another person is thankful i did that and another person (who is full of shit) says that i brought it on myself adn that i made him make me mad..but she wasnt there so she cant say fucking anything! i am soo sick of that shit.. i am never going to go to the commons again or that fucking music area..except for the last day of school maybe but i dont even fucking know i dislike some people with a passion....