Listening to: Godspeed - Anberlin
I`m happy. I finally fixed my speakers on my computer. It took me forever to figure it out. I am excited for today. I`m supposed to be going shopping with Samm and Andrew in Champaign. They`re going to look for prom stuff because they`re going together and they invited me. Things got moved back though, so, I`m not so sure what`s going on anymore. Things might fall through too, but that`s fine. I`ll still see them tomorrow anyway. It feels kind of good to be up this early not doing anything. Just have some time to myself. I haven`t had that in forever. I`ve been so busy with school, friends, spring break, Michael, musical, and countless other things. I sometimes forget that I even exist. If that makes any sense.
I talked to Michael last night. Things feel a bit better now. I understand where he`s coming from and he understands me. Now I don`t have to worry about what`s wrong. I kind of know now. I`m glad I do, no matter how much it kind of hurts to know. We got off the phone at around 1 last night because he wanted to call and talk to Tommy. I feel better knowing that he did that instead of just going off and thinking to himself.
No more talk of that. What`s on my mind right now is my acting class tomorrow. It`s my first day. I`m so nervous. I wasn`t so nervous before. That was just because I didn`t know what we had to do. Andrew, Samm, and Shelby started telling me some of the things that we do last night. One of the first things we do is have a "personal private moment" or something like that. We have to just be ourselves but intimate. It`s confusing. I don`t even understand it yet. Andrew and Shelby told me not to worry about failing my first time though. Generally, people do. Except Samm. I don`t know what she did, but it must`ve been good. If I`m thinking correctly on what kind of thing it is, I already have an idea of what I`m going to do. I`m planning on writing "Dear You" letters in front of the class. I`ll print out pictures of who I`ll be writing about. I`ll burn a CD using songs that remind me of that person or something that we did together. I`ll listen to the songs while I write the letters. I`m just not sure if I have to actually say aloud what I`m writing as I write it or what. I`m not sure if I even have to go tomorrow. I just realized, I`m not even sure where the class is held at. I`ll call Shelby later and ask.
My hair feels extra conditionery today. I used a little too much because when I put some in my hand, extra came out of the bottle. Oh, well.
I just realized that it`s 20 days until my birthday. I need to get a lot of driving in. Maybe I can do some tonight, or even tomorrow. Sunday too maybe.
I need to hang out with Michael and Tommy and meet Michelle. A double date sounds pretty sweet.
62 days until summer. I am so stoked. I`ve missed it so much. Even if I don`t get my licsense sometime close to my birthday, I can always get it before or in the beginning of summer. I just don`t know if I can cover 14 hours in 20 days.
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