Hi, haven't wrote in a while but it seems like everyone that I know is behind a little on this thing. I don't know what to do anymore..... Last night me Wes and my friend lea went camping at this place that Wes knew... ( said it was safe )( we wouldn't get caught )well... we didn't get caught but someone found us this morning and we all got drunk u know and we were passed out in my tent. It was cool for the most part. Lea fell asleep first and then me and then Wes... What really pissed me off was.... I let one of my friends borrow my tent ( fits 5 ) and its had holes all over it, fucking one of the main poles ( theirs two main poles ) it broke u know the ones that are metal and the string is connecting them yeah someone fucking popped the string! So my tent was all fuck up. but we put all the little sticks together that we could get the big stick ( had no string ) then we were missing one so we replaced it with a stick a branch and it stayed. The guy who owns the place said he was going deer hunting and to get out before his wife got there at 6 in the morning! So I was still a little buzzed cuz it was late when we went to bed. not to mention it was a fucking steep ass hill we had to walk with all our stuff to get to the car... fun and so Wes dropped lea off and me and Wes went to my house he is still sleeping its fuckin almost 3 o'clock in the afternoon. I woke up at 12 and got up and took the tent out of the car and the blankets, and everything else. We fuckin left one of the main poles for the tent and I’m so lucky cuz it was the one that wasn't broken! So I got a little pole for the top cover and I can't put that on cuz it has to many holes and a bunch of little poles that equal one big pole but not attached! Brand fucking new!!!!!!! I’m pissed and I’m confused about something’s with Wes and I mean I really don't know what to do. I love him to death u know but he makes some mistakes that just shouldn't even happened. But I’m over it I’m just jealous a little I think of my friend lea to. I mean I guess that’s why they say you shouldn't bring a friend along with ur bf but idk I kind of think lea and Wes would do better then me and Wes they get along and shit I’m just scared I guess I know neither one would do anything and I know Wes loves me and shit and lea is like my best friend. I’ve had it done thought with my best friend since pre-k and I’ve only lived here for not even 2 years yet. I’m just freaking out! I hope.... I'm going to freaked out, about what my dad will say when he finds out about my tent! I got it for my birthday like 2 years ago its only been used like 10 times so its still pretty new it still looking brand new except for the burned holes in it but their like cigarette burns. It makes me want to beat the fuck out of this girl but she’s lucky she doesn't even go to the same school and I don't talk to her. I might just fucking go to her house!!!! anyways I got up took a shower Wes is still in bed its 3:30 now and he will be eating here about the time he wakes up I bet which it like 2 hours from now. That is probably the most thing I hate about Wes is he sleeps to much and he does things and he just falls asleep. he’s been better with it thought like such far as waking up on time to pick me up for school but when he is asleep I try not to wake him up cuz he is the biggest asswhole on earth when he wakes up I put ice in his pants before cuz he said he was going to do something with me and I was at his house and he fell asleep he ended up waking up and we went on a raft to the lake it was pretty kewl. But I almost went home when I put that ice in his pants cuz I bout left I was so upset. Its times like that u wish you knew actually the perfect path to go! And I’m in this dilemma right now and I just don't know anymore! But I probably just wrote a book so I will write again soon! And let yaw now what I did to solve some of this problems. *always & forever*