It feels like it has been years since i wrote in here, since i cared enough to write in here. From now on im going to make the effort. Im going to try so hard to keep my feelings and thoughts wrapped up in a neat bundle tucked away in a box. Hopefully that saves me and Haddad before my moody bitchiness makes me loose him. I quit my job. I need to find another so badly, I dont have enough money to buy cigarettes.