i dont know where i am in my life. i am so stressed out, i am so lonely, i am so heart broken, but at the same time im happy, im excited and things couldnt be better. my head and my heart are in two different places at the moment. my head tells me to stay with haddad and be happy for what i have with him, my heart tells me to be with mike taylor, every song i hear reminds me of him, that make me want to cry and bleed with the hurt that my heart is feeling right now. i need to be with him so badly. i feel like im nothing without him, and that feeling gets stronger every single day.i wish he would hurry up and come live in australia so i can be the only girl in his life, and so he can be my boy. we were made for each other. we just have to get to each other first