i want a dildo collection

i had sex friday muhahahaa

i love kissing girls...like...random ones i wanna see gerard and bert do it...that would be totally hawt...or frankie and quinn....that would totally make me cream my pants

i slit my thumb open w/ scissors on accident and it bled all over the place and i was veryyyy happy...i did a dance and i took a picture and got blood allll over my camera. i would upload it on here but i dont want to give my identity away because im a sneeky guy like that. I now have a bandaid but i want to take it off and pick at it..i think i will get stinking drunk and cut again because i just love blood and this is really bad for me because im all emo and stuff...i dont want to get in trouble again because my parents almost always find out when i do something bad. Having sex w/ random guys is fun. I want J wicked bad. i have random zoloft pills and i want to take them and see what happeneds. I will also get some cocaine and mushroom. I am a horrible person yes i know. I was so good for such a long time. Its only natural that everything come crashing down on top of me. I SMOKED POT THIS WEEKEND. it was great. i had a horrible headache afterwards tho..cuz i havent smoked for a couple of months. god i just want to fuck T also. And D. Not really. But i want to start talking to him again. I miss him kinda.... god i just weant to do as much bodily harm to myslef as possible without anyone knowing. GOD I WANT TO CUT!

FINALLY!

my jaw hurts really bad...and not for the reason you are thinking about..perverts

NEVER!!! no matter how mad or sad or pissed off you are...rip your hangnail half an inch down your finger just cuz you want to...it hurts...and actually bleeds too..alot oh well i just made a really cool cd for my friends whos moving away and hehehehe it is the shit and shes going to love it...i would put the playlist up but i dont remember the songs and im on a different computer so i cant get it foxtrot uniform charlie kilo was on it tho..and i was going to put the "i must be emo" song but i changed my mind google "the emo song" to hear it...you must..i insist i fucking laugh my head off every time excuses to use for work when your playing hookie "I'm too drunk to drive to work." "I accidentally flushed my keys down the toilet." "I had to help deliver a baby on my way to work." "I accidentally drove through the automatic garage door before it opened." "My boyfriend's snake got loose and I'm afraid to leave the bedroom until he gets home." "I'm too fat to get into my work pants." "God didn't wake me." "I cut my fingernails too short, they're bleeding and I have to go to the doctor." "The ghosts in my house kept me up all night." "I forgot I was getting married today." "My cow bit me." "My son accidentally fell asleep next to wet cement in our backyard. His foot fell in and we can't get it out." "I was watching a guy fixing a septic pump, fell in the hole and hurt myself." "I was walking my dog and slipped on a toad in my driveway and hurt my back." "My house lock jammed, and I'm locked in."

i had a wicked weird dream and if i wrote it down and you guys read it you would never comment me again and i would be sad cuz i live on comments so anyways my dad let us get limewire and now all i do is sit on the computer and download songs...which is illigal yes i know but i wouldn't buy them in the first place cuz i dont have any money so either way the bands wouldnt get the money...just this way i get to listen to their music :) hehe so now i am happy FOXTROT UNIFORM CHARLIE KILO me ahhhh i have a going away party to go to this thursday and nothing is sadder than a going away party except for a wake i suppose but still...ill miss reba... she is living proof that anyone who lived anywhere even a little exciting before they moved to binghamton will eventually move back HOORAY FOR HICKSVILL USA! stupid woodchucks at wallmart...they probably scared her away

i totally gave up on dan i am never going to talk to him again no matter what. Sure ill walk by him and make him mad but i will never go to his house or have him over ever...im done with this shit im at work right now and all im doing is waiting...so im folding these paper things to pass the time...and now im going to eat my soup so ill be back on monday? maybe.. -the ninja aka the stupid bitch from new york who doesn't have any friends!!!!!! *gasp*

thats right i went outside today and pogo-ed i think i have spring fever I HATE WINTER!!!!! anywhoo my sister was on the computer when i got home which was 3:30 by the way because i had to finish writing a research paper at school and she wouldnt let me get on and she almost made me cry because i wanted to talk on MSN and i was very mad because my sister is a fag so i went outside and pogo-ed it was fun and im here at work all sweaty and i cant stay on because my mom is gonna be poking her head in here every 5 mins so ill write more tomorrowwwww RUN AWAY!!!!! on a pogo stick don't dish out what you can't take kids

so this is my diary filled with memories about my adventures of being a ninja ^hey look, i rhyme...kinda i am tooooo random..i need to tone it down a little (ps: im really not a ninja but dont tell anybody) EDIT: i met a new friend named steve..he is hawt and i want to make a porno with him that is all