i slit my thumb open w/ scissors on accident and it bled all over the place and i was veryyyy happy...i did a dance and i took a picture and got blood allll over my camera. i would upload it on here but i dont want to give my identity away because im a sneeky guy like that. I now have a bandaid but i want to take it off and pick at it..i think i will get stinking drunk and cut again because i just love blood and this is really bad for me because im all emo and stuff...i dont want to get in trouble again because my parents almost always find out when i do something bad. Having sex w/ random guys is fun. I want J wicked bad. i have random zoloft pills and i want to take them and see what happeneds. I will also get some cocaine and mushroom. I am a horrible person yes i know. I was so good for such a long time. Its only natural that everything come crashing down on top of me. I SMOKED POT THIS WEEKEND. it was great. i had a horrible headache afterwards tho..cuz i havent smoked for a couple of months. god i just want to fuck T also. And D. Not really. But i want to start talking to him again. I miss him kinda.... god i just weant to do as much bodily harm to myslef as possible without anyone knowing. GOD I WANT TO CUT!