I’ve got my fingers tangled closed You’ve got your eyes kept down below (Are you ready right here and now? [x2]) Outside the thoughts you’ve kept in secret Labeled as your last chance and Your response kept me broken until I’ve wished you so damn well You’ve walked out of this party gone quietus Words make clear The feelings I’d like to hear (Are you ready right here and now? [x2]) I’m gonna leave you now, so lead me (I’m still so damn sure) I’m just tracking every word you tell I’m gonna leave you now, so lead me (I’m still so damn sure) Inside you’re hell…into your hell So fuck our morals, let’s go to bed So fuck our morals, let’s go to bed May answers to questions I should pose Be brought down to Earth and kept real close (Are you ready right here and now? [x2]) I could prove more substantial to your life Play a favorite as your final high (Are you ready right here and now? [x2]) I’m gonna leave you now, so lead me (I’m still so damn sure) I’m just tracking every word you tell I’m gonna leave you now, so lead me (I’m still so damn sure) Inside you’re hell…into your hell So fuck our morals, let’s go to bed So fuck our morals, let’s go to bed Are you ready right here and now? (Well, what’ll you do?) Are you still ready right now? Did abuse ever feel so right?! Did abuse ever feel so right?! (Just relax, I’ll make you smile) (Just relax, I’ll make you smile) Did abuse ever feel so right?! Did abuse ever feel so right?! (Just relax, I’ll make you smile) (Just relax, I’ll make you smile) Did abuse ever feel so right?! (My abuse!) Did abuse ever feel so right?! (My abuse!) (Just relax, I’ll make you smile) (Just relax, I’ll make you smile…) (Are you ready right here and now?) (Are you ready right here and now?) So fuck it all, I’ll meet you in my bed I’ll kiss you back though it wasn’t really love I’ll call me used and hope that you will too… Are you ready right here and now? (So fuck it all, I’ll meet you back inside) Are you ready right here and now I’ll kiss you back though it wasn’t really love I’ll call me used and hope that you will too… Are you ready right here and now? (So fuck it all, I’ll meet you back inside) Are you ready right here and now I’ll kiss you back though it wasn’t really love I’ll call me used and hope that you will too… Are you ready right here and now? (Are you ready for me right here in town? [x2]) You will too… I’ll kiss you back though it wasn’t really love I’ll call me used and hope that you will too… Are you ready right here and now? (Are you ready for me right here in town? [x2]) You will too… I’ll kiss you back though it wasn’t really love I’ll call me used and hope that you will too… Are you ready right here and now? (Are you ready for me right here in town? [x2]) You will too… I’ll kiss you back though it wasn’t really love I’ll call me used and hope that you will too… Are you ready right here and now? (Are you ready for me right here in town? [x2]) You will too… I’ll make you love me (Get out of bed as she leans to kiss!) Make you love me (Get out of bed as she leans to kiss!) You love me (Get out of bed as she leans to kiss!) You love me (Get out of bed as she leans to kiss!) You… (Get out of bed! Get out of bed!) (Get out of bed!) (Get out of bed!) (Get out of bed!) (Get out of bed!)

I just recently got both of AFI's new songs!!! YAY!!! Anyway, here is one I made. Hey, this is my lookin' eye Hey, this is my lookin' eye Should I stay in light To say goodbye...away Welcome typical tragedy My hook of self redemption in The voice Heaven shall grace us Hearing the clash and the call The murder of sight and the heavens shall fall Tonight Hey, this is my lookin' eye Hey, this is my lookin' eye Should I stay in light To say goodbye...away Feelings of his cries won't die And the leaves crunch under the ghost's last night Should I make him break Take my last breath The shouts that tried to hide The way they left me the way they had always died With the murder gunshot and the heavens will call "He's mine" Hey, this is my lookin' eye Hey, this is my lookin' eye Should I stay in light To say goodbye...to me! The constant act of thinking about the inevitable Is being a rabbit just stopping in the road Press the gas once you see the figure in the way Make it physical and rought like you set it up I could scream but is it you that's listening?! I'm wrapped in the pain that I have stepped up! Wreak the havoc that sinks in between our lives! I'm staring in between the oncoming headlights! Hey, this is my lookin' eye Hey, this is my lookin' eye Should I stay in light To say goodbye...to me... Hey, this is my lookin' eye Hey, this is my lookin' eye Should I stay in light To say goodbye...to me...

Here's a stotry for you folks... I would appreciate some comments, for they would really help.. 01: The Letter The violent whispers make this night quiver in fear The ages wonder about the choices that we made in the right of mind Flowers bloom to shed the tears that the ink couldn't in this letter The gods made absent by the scarlet of the dimming light To take the place: the mechanic, the prophet, and the sharpshooter Should they be buried right before or right after we say to them goodnight? If we should follow this last command then why were they born? Take your own! Sacrifice! Take quickly the three lives Kept alive to be the cure of the disease that plagues Ursula Take quickly the three lives We'll be better off with their doom The guns we hid in the cupboard above their heads Locked in the secret solitude to hide what we didn't want to use A messenger of the Crown of the dark plague us during this to look towards their beds Is the truth among those who didn't have anything to feel abuse We are just the dealers of the most sincere and deadly conversations The demons knock on the door every night, begging for the right to get through The emotions left on the doorstep crying out for the mother and father to do what's right Should they be buried right before or right after we say to them goodnight? If we should follow this last command then why were they born? Take your own! Sacrifice! Take quickly the three lives Kept alive to be the cure of the disease that plagues Ursula Take quickly the three lives We'll be better off with their doom The crows wait to pick the eyes of those who don't demand the sacrifice For the plague will never touch the skies The citizens wait on, just to see the death to pick the cure from their bodies To cut their throats and boil their blood, to keep alive, they'll drink it up Wait... I love them too... Dear Zander, Forgo, and Justine: I write this letter in my head to kill you all as you sleep in bed Dear Husband: Load. Ready. Aim. Through their lives we aren't the same even though this is my right But it doesn't make their destruction any more right. The messenger masked coroner rides the preparing moonlight like a ghost who has never seen the grave. So why don't you take your own instead of asking this of me? For the protection for even those who didn't believe... So take your own sacrifice! Take these bullets meant for ours! Kept alive to be the cure of the disease that plagues Ursula Take these bullets meant for ours! Die now messenger! Die now messenger... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ 02: Relative Murderer I: The First Casualties The streets can't hide the body count of the knife that's slicing in Can you this stream of blood? The killer stalks the waiting prey to make the family inanimate Did you say farewell...to all...who fall The truth will come hand in hand to awareness of their fate Did you say that you will fight? In the parent's last stand The house burned down to the eyes of the children who love their parents This hired hand took away The lives that they held so precious in their hungry arms can you say farewell? The gunshots rang And the angels sang The tunes that were not remedies The sky is black heavy like lead it pierces the hearts of those who are not dead So children, follow the rising red sun to your new home The hungry wolf now seeks the sheep to seek the end again Having murder on heart The fog lifts up to cure the blind and for the children to find safety Sleep in the under city Did you say farewell...to all...who fall A bloody shirt is wiped in ash to camouflage in the air How will he have us fair? Drink the poison of the water don't get sick but wish that it were pure It won't hurt like his smile In the parent's last stand The house burned down to the eyes of the children who love their parents This hired hand took away The lives that they held so precious in their hungry arms can you say farewell? The gunshots rang And the angels sang The tunes that were not remedies The sky is black heavy like lead it pierces the hearts of those who are not dead So children, follow the rising red sun to your new home Send letter the fate of the lovers Children still alive, it's not over... In the parent's last stand The house burned down to the eyes of the children who love their parents This hired hand took away The lives that they held so precious in their hungry arms can you say farewell? The gunshots rang And the angels sang The tunes that were not remedies The sky is black heavy like lead it pierces the hearts of those who are not dead So children, follow the rising red sun to your new home

So life has been good and bad. there has been much happiness and much sorrow during the past few days. Mainly because of some things on my mind that I just want to push out because they're too horrible to think of. Maybe I was meant for such torture; to have and to love, but to never really care. Kind of sad, really. One day, I'll find the meaning in it all, but for now all that was ever me is not me and all that is going to be me just seems too far away... WHY AM I SO IMPERFECT??!?!?!?!?!?! New Poem: The rosebush is burning They thrust their hands in but no one's flaming And it's haunting me It's so hard to breathe Ash comes from flawless ones I fear them as I hear them calling me My soul makes the fire scorn I fear them as I feel them taking me And my soul As the angels mourn Take me to heaven my sins are calling me Tracing the steps turned blck Knowing that I've never gone to climb them Shadows of glory Taking my pain again Tracing the steps turned black Dreaming of my own forgotten heaven They're calling it Eden I've been blessed But no one's saving It's hard to believe When it's so hard to see Perfection in broken souls I fear them as I hear them calling me For my soul, the fires burn I fear them as I feel them shunning me From the sky As the angels turn! Take me to heaven my sins are calling me Tracing the steps turned blck Knowing that I've never gone to climb them Shadows of glory Taking my pain again Tracing the steps turned black Dreaming of my own forgotten heaven

Let’s drink to the curse of your kiss In the beginning my elderly memory sits With every wish just another dehydrated drop Settling down so your prayers will stop Who was this thought breathing all alone? I never thought that it needed a home But now I hear them, they seem so familiar Who’s this little dream you used to know? Who’s to say That I didn’t give all of me That I didn’t show sincerity Lying on my back Cut by blades of grass And oh, no Who’s this little dream you used to know? By the moonlight we shall forever dance This slow song never really gave me a chance With every step leering towards your touch I bring back the mantis of love to cut And like the ancient sacrifice of chance A mirror is preserved as jewels of glass And my way has been tattered by stones Is this my home? I hope you will stay Is this my home? Am I this little dream you used to know? The clouds of tornadoes will begin Like a book with an unwritten end Caught within the fray of having to die Like a lost little bird that needs to fly And throughout this acidic page I’m just a lost little boy caught in the rain Who’s this little dream you used to know? I never thought that it needed a home Who’s to say That I didn’t give all of me That I didn’t show sincerity Lying on my back Cut by blades of grass And oh, no Who’s this little dream you used to know?

Sorry, I haven't posted.But you don't care do you?! HA! We were keeping it soft Velvet words to the touch The stars revolve around us The clicking sound Clocks bringing balance to us Alarms are sleeping to let us— Escape to our place of nice things Burned to the ground (I won’t let them die this way) I’ll let you find out all of my secrets If you let me find out everything Driving down. Crashing. That’s all I ever wanted. Say you’re happy (I could say the say the same thing) Is life really all just butterflies and forest fires? (I could be the same thing) Who’s that in you mirror I could’ve swore that everything’s the same Shaving time with someone so sweet and delicate The emotions left inside your breath Will you have to go so soon after the moon? (Who...is....a nervous....wreck) Revolve all the roses and all the ink Stained on my floor I could’ve swore that you did that on purpose I’m burned by the best in you I thought I could’ve brought the best in you But it wasn’t me in those pictures and bracelets Say you’re happy (I could say the say the same thing) Is life really all just butterflies and forest fires? (I could be the same thing) Want it to be all that you weren’t Want it to be all that you weren’t Want it to be all that you weren’t Kept in your skin until you decided to go Scared of what you couldn’t have You brought me here, should’ve known I could’ve done things I should have Left you out in my room instead of the rain To hell with all that you’ve ever said To hell with all that you’ve ever said inside Lost in the rain outside your window I could’ve gone out alone But I’m lost inside your eyes The eyes inside my head Tell not to forget that you’re still hear I won’t believe anything else I’m lost inside my mind I’d rather be alone without you in my bed To hell with all that you’ve ever said I’ve lost more than you could ever find Think that you could find the time I can’t go on writing so long about something so porcelain Remainders in my head about your hands on my skin Say you can’t feel that about— Say you’re happy Say you’re happy Say you’re happy (I could say the say the same thing) Is life really all just butterflies and forest fires? (I could be the same thing) I’ve burned it down and created something beautiful You did the opposite

A plague of violence. A singing silence. Lies a rose that catches all light. Pick the repentence. "I'm out of breath..." A petal seen in only dreams. "I breathe in twilight..." As I'm blowing through you, Dismembered, Forever I Lay across the crux. A style of life. A feeling of flight. As I'm calling you Remember... A plague of violence. A pain of moments. A ringing solace. A comfort choking too tight... Darkness solus. "Bring on the death." Sojourn in all my dreams... "I see in white lights..." As I'm flowing to you, Infernal, Forever I Lay across your cross. A style of lies. A cover of night now. As I'm falling to you Remember... An angel of silence... If only for one night... If only I had cried... We could have this night together... If only for one night. If only I were right. Looking up to heaven... Fallen... My wings are burning through you Dismembered... Forever I Blame this cause upon A style of life A figure of "might have"s As I'm hiding in the stairs Remember... An angel of violence...

It seems like my header pic is getting more attention than I am. I hope everyone reads this, because it is from the heart. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I don’t think I’ve accomplished anything. My tears leave my eyes like so many sweat drops in Hell… BUT I HAVEN’T ACCOMPLISHED ANYTHING! When I see into Fate’s eyes, I only realize that WE HAVE NO FUTURE! That I can’t see into what I desire. So I’m sitting alone in the corner filled with the poetic buzzwords: Solitude Darkness Emptiness Sadness Suicide… BUT I AM NOT F*CKING CRINGING! The mirror seems only to reflect that I am some dysfunctional care bear; meant only to bring pain onto those I love. Meant only to drive the pen straight through the hearts of those who have touched me and rip out any compassion! I see the filth of humanity dripping over our souls and for some Godd*mn reason I LOVE IT! I jump for joy at the bleakness… And my wrists are always bleeding. Not because I want to die, but because the pain makes me feel real! The pain reminds me that this is not some twisted nightmare wrapped around the coils of my mind, sucking the impulse of hope. It seems to be screaming in my ear, “YOU ARE ALIVE! YOU ARE REAL!” And that causes me true pain… But the mirrors seems to reflect that I lost something beautiful… That everyone has lost something beautiful. AND IT MAKES US F*CKING UGLY INSIDE! And like the coarse sand that irritated my eyes, it fell through my fingers! I had something BEAUTIFUL and it fell through my fingers! So I am the only left who believes that a person breathes in death when they are born. The only one who believes that once a baby is free from the womb, it hears the coldest sound of insects singing… AND IT LAUGHS! It laughs because it’s alive for those few moments. It chortles and looks into it’s mothers eyes of beauty that tells the child it will not last forever and the baby KNOWS of its mortality! It knows and it cries… I cry… Not because the birth was painful to the mother, but because it breathed in life and death came with it. It had lost something beautiful…I lost something beautiful… So the child grows up and he writes. Not because he wants attention, not because he believes what he writes, but because he sees his true reflection in the metal of the pen tip. AND HE WRITES LIKE THERE IS A F*CKING ESCAPE! He writes frantically! He writes to find the dead-end that he knows exists! The dead-end he created when he breathed life! And he burrows into the wall and it bleeds! The read covers him from Head To Toe But the kid continues to burrow, just to know that there is no other side! He is screaming inside… He is screaming to no end because he knows no matter what he does, the wall is always there and that no matter what he thinks he has, HE LOST SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL! Then the air is filled with the smoke of his own self-worth…the kid is dying from the inside out. He doesn’t stop it… he doesn’t run. He just screams inside. AND HE DOESN’T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING! He doesn’t care that the wall was never there or that the red was only a dream, because inside, the mirror is screaming: “YOU LOST SOMETHING BEAUTIFUL!” Because inside, the mirror is showing nothing and leaking black… And it poisons the kid… His veins runs black and his eyes blur out and he SCREAMS HIS EMOTIONS! He screams until the wall shatter and disappears! He screams when he sees the black hole behind it! HE SCREAMS AND HE CRIES… I cry… And the mirror and laughs and shows nothing… the kid is sucked in and consumed… just to die to get something beautiful… “He had something beautiful all along,” says the mirror…and the kid shatters into a million shards… …Something beautiful…

The flowers turned to gray By Me Wilting so delicately Sang, “I can remember when they found me.” A cringe in the feeling Of those words That brought the death to me They were supplied by you…. A mute, dead morning, Flew by… Alone as it found me… Said, “I couldn’t miss it…for you…dear…” A flower of crushing Of those souls That came to life in me They were destroyed by you… As I tried to find The darkness in the gray I left before When I looked inside To find The darkness in your eyes I felt the cold But you said, “One last time…” A chilling cold mourning By you Dead as the eternal sleep Sang, “I can remember when they found me…” A flower of haunting Of those ghosts Of avid mystery It was hidden by you... Hidden by you...

Story First!!!: Anyway, me and my friend got invited to see Constantine...(Holy Shit that was a great movie!)...SO anyway, the people who we were going with happened to be our two friends, (we actually have more than two, but only two were there! I'm not lonely, GOD!), who happened to be girls. SO anyay me and my friend get there like 30 minutes late, considering the movie started at 4:20 and we got there at nearl (that is right, I'me leaving it as NEARL.... and that I'm as I'me...spelling correctly is for losers!, J/K! I'm just lazy...) 4:40...but time is relative right? RIGHT?! So anyway, after the movie, (which we snuck into like pirates....me and my friend anyway, the girls were already there), I noticed that they were insanely, nicely dressed. (By this time the rabid monkeys called common sense had sprung and attacked my individuality, but my sXe-ness provailed like the evil antelope it is...but now I'm leaving on a tangent...). It was odd and by the time the girls left, I felt like I hadn't done them justice or something... I don't believe I gavce any compliments. Was I supposed to? Gah!? Humanity and its mysteries!? GAH?! So anyway.....................................................periods are fun!........................................................... Apparently, my other friend says they are not....so take this!!!..................................................... I win!!! So for the bad poetry.....well I post no bad poetry...sorry if I dissappointed you people...so what was I supposed to do anyway? I think they hate me...hmmm..... Oh, yeah, I must say something... Dangerously Dark SUCKS!!!!! GOD!!! DON'T TRY TO GROUP TOGETHER IN BAND FORM EVER AGAIN!!! Also I <3 DD's Makes no sense... Think about it!

GOT TO HATE THE HYPOCRITES, THE PREJUDICE AND THE STUPID!!!! GAH!!! Gah, what the fuck is up with people. All I see is thew slimy, unnatural views of everybody selse and it stinks! It stinks like so many seawage pipes running through the minds of humanity. I hate the people. I hate the people. I hate the people. The people who hate mu8sic even though they have never listened to it. The people who are easily trained by the ones that they obsess over! The people who are constantly striking down the music of others when their own "talents" aren't getting them anywhere in life! Gah! Destroy the human traits! Gah!!! I'm listening to some guy who thinks that he actually thinks that he is someone important in the eyes of the general populace! He acts like I should damn well worshiop him. Well, fuck him! The guy standing next to me (Dimitri) says fuck him too! God! I hate the arrogant, I hate the ignorant. I hate the non-buttered popcorn! God, what is the use?! What the fuck is the point of it all?! Where will all of this life get you when you are dead in the ground. We all rot and we are nnever better than those we claim to be better than! I sometimes wonder as I witness the countless ways humanity has proven itself that it is not worthwhile, why the hell people stab other people back! Why the hell other people choose sides because they THINK that the other loves them, when that person only knowingly cares about himself. I hate those people that think that they know me just because they read this shit, just because they hang around and try to listen to what I say. What I say never fucking matter, what I mean does. It doesn't matter if you don't think it matters. You do not controll me god damn it! STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM MY DAMN SANITY!!!

Oh my fucking god... I am starting to wonder if there is something fucking wrong with me. I am starting not to care about anyone anymore and it feels like I am floating away. Floating away into some dark abyss that society has painted black for me using its hypocrisy... But for the while, I am still sane. Sane enouh to know that everyone is a fucking asshole anyway and that somehow, humanity thinks it is fit to serve itself. I hope that somehow it starts to deteriate under the pressure. Well fuck it all... Well thank god for these lyrics. This is all for you mother fuckers who think they have control of me. "I don't mind being ogled, ridiculed Made to feel miniscule If you consider the source, it's kinda pitiful The only thing you really know about me is... ...that's all you'll ever know" Well back into some really deep stuff, I am making a drama with me in it, taking place in online chat. Nephilim is me. I hope to have a small following after this so comment or something Episode #1 HornyBabe666: Hi, A/S/L? Nephilim: I can see where the hell this is going... HornyBabe666: Wanna cyber? Nephilim: What the fuck? Why would I do something so damn degrading... I'm not fucking to text... HornyBabe666: Too bad. Wanna chat. Nephilim: You really wanna be my friend? HornyBabe666: Sure Nephilim: Then go jump off a fucking cliff, because I don't wanna be your friend. HornyBabe666: Stop being such an asshole/ Nephilim: I'm an asshole because I won't fuck with you using text? Or is it because I don't like to talk to people like you? HornyBabe666: You couldn't get pussy if you tried. Nephilim: And if you are so inept tht you have to have sex online, you couldn't get brains or a life if you tried. So end them both right now and go away... *clicks ignore* [in POETRY chatroom] Nephilim: Everything has a meaning, whethere we want them to or not.| Ever and Ever... Random Person: Nice poem Nephilim: It ws a piece of shit... Nephilim: was^ Animeman: I want ramen Random Person changed nick to cOoL_gUy cOoL_gUy: We all want ramen... ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Well, you can see my views on some stuff. Act like you know me, why don't you? Everyone else acts like it. No one knows who the hell I am...

It's starting to feel like I can't breathe And it's starting to be like I don't sleep And stayin' away is like trying to breahte through plastic sheets It seems like you're better off gone Hope that I better have said it all I'm feeling empty I'm feeling stupid Reach an understanding and heave a sigh It's better if you never had said it all I'm starting to catch all that's burning through the air Feelin' as if it was never there I'm saying, not thinking, that you don't care at all And I'm running up the ink and down the wall It seems like you better had said it all It seems like you're better off gone (Why don't you go?) Hope that I'm better off saying it all I'm feeling empty I'm feeling stupid Reach a a point where you can't be It'll be better once we scream it all Fuck it... Fuck it all... I'm so damned..I'm so damned confused

Wandering through the fake pastels of blue and gray, I met you on the edge of something disastrous, Something unforgivable And you caught me while I fell into the vortex of darkness... where only I sleep... where only I dream... And you lay beside me like so many other nightmares of forgotten lore, As I dreamt the dreams of giants and hearts. And as you whispered the thoughts that bats always scream... (Of hunger and friendship... Of bleeding down and into love), I caught the ice in your breath, And the fire in your veins. I hungered for what you could give me... If we only tried... But we were only faking You were only faking I was playing games Spurting out things that make us happy A string of words like... Rate and Comment!

Okay I am in the process of making a song...should I continue or just give up? Comments and Advice needed!!! Swallow your pride Go back a couple steps Dig into what's inside (I'm not what I say I am)---screaming There's nothing left I'm trying to die instead I know it won't survive (We know that we've decieved)---screaming ~Bridge~ And the stars cry out Singing songs that we resent We're so cold and empty Fill us up with what are are about (I may never repent)---*screaming* Just forget...

okay, Here is the deal. I have to submit to my school's literary magazine and I have no idea what to choose! So people of the world, do me a favor and pick the top five poems from my online collection, your help is needed! "Summer was Always closer to Winter" I have seen the flowers wilt Such a beautiful sight for sore eyes I'm breathing what has been killed Suffering is nothing more than a bad surprise I see the light at the end of the tunnel I hear the ghost beckoning with their cries I feel the strain of slowly fading And hiding within all their lies You're holding down I'm holding me down We're pulling us down Sing a lullaby of a genocide And we all fall down In the ground.

Thank you to all the people that helped me live through another year. I promise I'll be good to you. Fuck you to all the people who helped me die last year. I promise that I'll be hateful to you. Thanks to all the people who reviewed and rated, hopefully not holding back their feelings. Thank you to all the people who scream when they sing. Thank you to all the people who cry in their sleep. Thank you to all the people who thought they felt alone. Thank you to all the dark and dreary. Thanks to all those who have lost hope. I know now that I am not alone... Ask me for everything and I will give you nothing less than all of me. Rate and Review if you please...or just leave comments. "This is for you." The air is gone from my sigh Some colors blurr from my eyes And I'm fallin' with every step Can barely utter from my lip[s Each breaths destroyed before it's missed I'm trapped in Lucidity... Where noone is as they seem I've died, I've Dreamt Death isn't creeping in, it's crept Go back to the gray and black The sun always taunts a challenge Too bright for me too see From the gray it has crept I gasp and rip it out of me. MAY ALWAYS WISH FOR THE END! Clarity is the door we close Hope is the pill we overdose Darkness was so much depth I wish that I could live again Before I fall so much in-death

Trapped in the substance I'm caught inbetween the black and white Reason is nothing... It's going nowhere fast I've got to be something I'm not Wash it out like water colors I'm just the silver when you mix them all And I'm playing fake to everyone I'm only lying to myslef Hide my flaws with a masquera sheet Taking cover in the deepest shade of black And screaming in a thin stream of ink And I feel like I'm alone And I know that I'm alone. Being friends with the mirror. Tell me the truth. Take it away. I'm just playing fake for everyone. I'm just playing me.

"Concentrate on what you..."- Me I think I seee the light in the cave So much brighter than what the world gave Maybe it's the slightest hope of a second chance An end to the end, the end of the romance I've cheated away from life She doesn't care, she brought the knife It's made of a thousand broken mirror shards It's reflecting a thousand broken picture shards I've given up, So much so... Death is only one way to keep up I'm buried and gone in the blink of an eye I'm forgotten and gone as it passes me by I'm lost and won't be found Too strong on the inside Too much of an appearance to show outside I just want this masquerade to die Our faces are so beautiful when we cry Just too hopeless to all that matters Just too hopeless to save all that matters Succeeding in getting nowhere Floating along, too hopeless to care I've given up, So much so... Death is only one way to keep up I'm buried and gone in the blink of an eye I'm forgotten and gone as it passes me by I'm lost and won't be found

~*This silence is more than a specter*~ Down with the masses and up with my pain Contorted, magnified, and burned away I'm more than you and I'm less than me So why do you blind me whenever I see? Ashes to ashes, dust to posion The pen runs of the blackest ink The heart is the deepest well I'm being twisted into nothing, and to nothing I'll tell Away with light, along comes the stain I've figured out a way to make you pay And to nothing for nothing, you'll never see Everyone is being put together, I'm just undone My inner demons call and away I sink I've got a million more stories to tell It's just a warning: I'm the worst kind of rebel Down with the ashes and dust to pain...