ohhh shit no way! i havent been here in like 9213809218 years its crizazy. yeah guys so lemme give u the update: schoolis pretty good. im closer to my mom than ever. friends are wonderful. and yes i still love danny.<3 as much as id love to tell my life story i cant. luv u guys and come be my friend on myspace. LOVE YOU KIDS. and i love danny oh so much.

My Birthday is tomorrow. Happy Birthday Danny!!! and I moved to xanga so if u wanna talk there its xnOonelikeamberx laterzz me__xO

OMFG MY BIRTHDAY IS SO CLOSE. thats all i gotta say and Happy Birthday Rachel, Nick, Anahja and Kt T me_xx I Love Danny

I haven't updated in a while...but just to fill u in Nick's Birthday-10 days Rachel's Birthday-8 days Kt T's Birthday-11 days MY BIRTHDAY-12 DAYZ!!!!!! alright im out i love you danny<3

wut's goin on?! I haven't updated this shit in like forever. So school started on Monday...damn getting up at 5:30 every day to be at skool by 7:45 sux major ass. Rude awakening from what summer was like! Field Hockey's gettin pretty intense with the running and all we do about a mile a day just to get warmed up and then drills and sprints and all. kinda sux but i love it. i went over stephanie friday night and we called brian and he was like being super retarded. then we called chelsea and we were acting really obnoxious so she probably thought we were on something. and today we called joey and we all went to the mall. we were supposed to go see undiscovered but instead we just walked around, shopped and had some coffee. when we got back we played guitar for a lil bit. some cinderella and guns`n`roses and W.A.S.P and some other 80's stuff. pretty fun. im tired thos cuz friggin jason called me at 7:30 in the damn morning and woke up us. what a dick. hah alright well im out. leave comments.. oh yeah, yesterday was a month for danny && i :) I Love You Danny x3 me__xO

Field Hockey is making me like die. I have shin splints and they suck major ass. It hurts to walk and run..but im good. I really miss Danny and he's only been gone for like 1 day which sucks cuz theres alot more left...well im gunna go im tired and my last day of tryouts is tomorrow. me__xO I Love Danny

ugh...Danny's leaving tomorrow for Mississippi until Monday and i wont get to talk to him until then..im gunna miss him so much and no one has any idea...well um i dont really feel good. im sore from tryouts. upset cuz danny's leaving. stressed cuz skools starting. and ugh not my day...im gunna go cuz i dont like talking about not being with him it makes me feel..well without him lol. alright pz me__xO I Love You So Much Danny

My Dad is soo gay. I was supposed to go over there today to go shopping and whatever, but my Dad's home from Iraq for like a visit or wutever and now that he's back i gotta wait until tomorrow. He's such a liar! Anyways my cuz and I hung out and we kinda had drama, but it all cooled down a lil bit later. So I packed and i hope he doesnt decide to change his mind again... cuz i will be pissed!! I gotta get in shape for Field Hockey cuz tryouts are gunna be a killer. Ugh too much on my plate this month. Well im gunna go finish packing, call stephanie and then go to bed. They're coming to get me at 12 n then gotta go to my sister's cheerleading stuff. Ugh. Havent talked to Danny. So not really in a good mood anyway. Later me__xO I Love Danny

Im really happy cuz i talked to Danny last night. I never really got to apologize to him about the last time we went out. I kinda broke up with him for no reason and he didn't really deserve it. So i told him that I was sorry and he accepted it. He's a good bf. :o) im gunna go. babe if you read this i love you. me__xO I Love You Danny

we had this awesome storm last nite..but it kinda sucked when all the power went out cuz it got really really hott in here and everything. Im still with Danny and lovin every minute of it. Sorry i havent updated in a while but my moms been really wierd lately. Can't wait until until i get out of here cuz she's like keeping me away from him n all. but whatever. My dad's home from Iraq until the 18th so im gunna go over there with him and my sister and my stepmom and go shopping and what not with them. Pretty cool i guess. Is it bad if i like my stepmom more than I like my dad?? well i dont really care cuz i do :o) Anyways im gunna get outta here. Talk to ya later leave lots of love 4 me. me__xO I Love You Soo Much Danny

wuts goin on? well i went to emma's house today. her and i talked to danny and he asked me out:) im so happy. he's such a hottie. im watching real world it's kind of sad that Danny's( on real world) mom died. well im gunna go back to watching it. i might not be able to update next week. im out. She says she's no good with words but I’m worse Barely stuttered out A joke of a romantic stuck to my tongue And weighed down with words too overdramatic Tonight it's "it cant get much worse" Vs. "no one should ever feel like.." I’m two quarters and a heart down And I don’t want to forget how your voice sounds These words are all I have so I write them I need them just to get by We will own your thoughts We'll own the songs stuck in your head We'll leave you kicking and screaming so you can thank us in the end Dance, Dance We're falling apart to half time Dance, Dance And these are the lives you love to lead Dance this is the way they'd look If they knew how misery loved me (I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me, crawling into bed with me) You always fold just before you're found out Drink up its last call Last resort But only the first mistake and I... I’m two quarters and a heart down And I don’t want to forget how your voice sounds These words are all i have so I write them I need them just to get by Why don't you show me a little bit of spine You've been saving for his mattress (with love) Dance, Dance We're falling apart to half time Dance, Dance And these are the lives you love to lead Dance this is the way they'd look If they knew how misery loved me Why don't you show me a little bit of spine You've been saving for his mattress (with love) I only want sympathy in the form of you crawling into bed with me Dance, Dance Dance, Dance Dance, Dance Dance, Dance me__xO I Love You Danny

YEAHHHHH. omg im soo hyper from the icing on roberta's cake...i love her! Anyways you guys she's spending the nite and then chillin tomorrow dont really feel like writing so comment. I tear my heart open I sew myself shut My weakness is That I care too much My scars remind me That the past is real I tear my heart open Just to feel Drunk and I'm feeling down and I just wanna be alone I'm pissed cause you came around Why don't you just go home Cause you channel all your pain and I can't help you fix yourself Your making me insane All I can say is I tear my heart open I sew myself shut My weakness is That I care too much Our scars remind us That the past is real I tear my heart Open just to feel I tried to help you once Against my own advice I saw you going down But you never realized That your drowning in the water So I offered you my hand Compassions in my nature Tonight is our last stand I tear my heart open I sew myself shut My weakness is That I care too much Our scars remind us That the past is real I tear my heart Open just to feel I'm drunk and I'm feeling down and I just wanna be alone You shouldn't ever came around Why don't you just go home? Cause your drowning in the water and I tried to grab your hand and I left my heart open but you didn't understand but you didn't understand You fix yourself I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life I can't help you fix yourself But at least I can say I tried I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life I tear my heart open I sew myself shut My weakness is that I care too much Our scars remind us That the past is real I tear my heart Open just to feel me__xO

Wuts goin on??? Jason's here he's my uncle so its all good. Tomorrow bert's comin over so..she's spendin the nite for her bday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROBERTA. HAPPY 17TH BABE!! Jason, Tiffany and I went to the fair last nite it was off tha chains. I got another hat airbrushed and got whiplash on my neck all in the same nite. crazyy. Tiffany got a hat and I got one and Jason got a shirt. They were hott. We got readii and then it rained..i was HOTT! lol OMG I LOVE THIS AUSTIN KID I MEAN REALLIE. lol him and i tried to pull an all nighter on wednesday or thursday or something and we did until 4 when we both were knocked out on da phone. and then we tried again the next nite and i fell asleep and he called me a whOre and hung up n then txted me and i woke back up. and told him i wasnt sleep :) and then he called me back and we talked until i fell asleep again nd then that slut (austin) called me at some damn 10:30 like i was actually up or something...must be crazy. gottta love him.anyway im out leave lovin... me__xO

today was sorta laid back...kinda boring. my cuz roberta came over today at like 4:30 and we hung out until like 9:30. im goin to the fair tomorrow night with jason and tiffany, but until then really no excitement what so ever. ill tell ya bout it later. Oh yeah and Austin is THEE sexiest guy i've ever met.lol gotta love him. Come Mr. DJ song pon de replay Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up All the gyal pon the dancefloor wantin some more what Come Mr. DJ won't you turn the music up Verse 1: It goes 1 by 1 even 2 by 2 Everybody on the floor let me show you how we do Lets go dip it low then you bring it up slow Wind it up 1 time wind it back once more Pre-Hook: Run, Run, Run, Run Everybody move run Lemme see you move and Rock it til the grooves done Shake it til the moon becomes the sun (Sun) Everybody in the club give me a run (Run) If you ready to move say it (Yeah Yeah) One time for your mind say it (Yeah Yeah) Well i'm ready for ya Come let me show ya You want to groove im'a show you how to move Come come me__xO

don`t you just love it when you go somewhere and see the people that you haven't seen in like forever all over again. and they look soo different and soo much hotter than the did before. Sara, Lizzie, and I saw this kid named Nolan with whom Sara is in love with. and i saw this guy who i havent seen in about 2 years tonite at te carnival. and we clicked as soon as we saw each other. too bad i forgot his name. lol. he's so hott. im kinda upset cuz danny (my x) wasn't there cuz we were gunna hang out but oh well. it's alright. i saw kayla there. aw i love her. kay if you read this i love ya. and we got on this one ride and there was puke on the side of the car thingy and two guys put their arms in it...kinda nasty they were like "ew WTF dude NASTYY!!" and they left. i felt kinda sorry for em. sux. well ive had enough for the day. leave me lovin. me__xO

OMG...im soo freaking happy i might be going home. If mom duznt screw this one over this is how its gunna go down lol... *go home *tomorrow go to sara's *carnival *spend da nite *hangout the next day too bad my mom's probably gunna screw everything up like she always does. guys wish me luck with goin home cuz i miss everyone and this place gives me a sick feeling. alright hotties im out!! leave me lots of luvin. City's breaking down on a camel’s back. They just have to go 'cos they don't hold back So all you fill the streets it’s appealing to see You wont get out the county, 'cos you're bad and free You've got a new horizon it's ephermal style. A melancholy town where we never smile. And all I wanna hear is the message beep. My dreams, they've got to kiss, because I dont get sleep, no.. Windmill, Windmill for the land. Learn forever hand in hand Take it all in on your stride It is sticking, falling down Love forever love is free Let’s turn forever you and me Windmill, windmill for the land Is everybody in? Laughing gas these hazmats, fast cats, Lining them up-a like ass cracks, Ladies, homies, at the track its my chocolate attack. Shit, I'm stepping in the heart of this here Care bear bumping in the heart of this here watch me as I gravitate ha ha ha ha ha Yo, we gonna go ghost town, this motown, with yo sound you're in the place you gonna bite the dust Cant fight with us With yo sound you kill the INC. so dont stop, get it, get it until you're cheddar header watch the way i navigate ha ha ha ha ha me___xO

OMG...i freakin made plans with people to go to the carnival and my mom screwed it all up.just like always. i swear that's what she's sooo good at.sara and i were supposed to go there and hang out since we're never going to see each other again. so Tuesday was soo our day.but thanks to my mom..idk anymore. and then on top of that i got stuck at my grandmothers whom i must say im not too fond of.. GOD the feeling of this place makes my stomach hurt. and i really feel like shit when im around here. im gunna flip if i dont get to chill with sara on tuesday. oh yeah i was supposed to hang-out with my cuz this week since she doesnt have to work and i was gunna hang wit josephine. but no. moms too gay to actually let me have a damn life. omg i swear me and sara have a connection its so cool cuz we feel shitty at the same times. i love it!!! leave lovin cuz i definitly need it. "Bottom Of The Bottle" Been scared and lonely I've asked myself is something wrong with you My girlfriend told me I need some time alone to deal with issues But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand Why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle You always call me And ask me how I make it through the day I'm always fallin' I guess it's just god's way of making me pay But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle When I, I wonder why I try And I, I wonder why I bother And I, I wonder why I cry Why I, I go through all this trouble I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle me__xO

Man..you gotta love those days where you kick back, wear sweatpants, be lazy, watch movies, n chill. cuz i do.This has been like thee worst weekend in my history of weekends..nothing to do at all.i hope tomorrow's better cuz this boredom shit..sooo not used to it.damn..summers almost over. well here's to the nites with ma gurls where it seemed like nothing else mattered in the world but our friendship..luv yall. leave comments~ me___xO

ugh! i had to freaking clean today.wtf.The carnival is next week and Harrington Fair is this week.My mom said she was gunna fucking take us shopping and now she's not...idk. wutever. im out. leave lots`o`comments 4 *mwah*. I took her out It was a friday night I wore cologne to get the feeling right We started making out And she took off my pants But then I turned on the TV And that's about the time she walked away from me Nobody likes you when you're 23 And I'm still more amused by TV shows What the hell is A.D.D? My friends say I should act my age Whats my age again? whats my age again? me___xO

today was sooo boring omg nothing to do at all. I can't freakin wait until field hockey starts. seasons gunna be awesome. still tryin to figure out the situation with my x nd all. idk if i like him or not. u guys got any help im dyin for it. I've got another confession to make I'm your fool Everyone's got their chains to break Holdin' you Were you born to resist or be abused? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you? Are you gone and onto someone new? I needed somewhere to hang my head Without your noose You gave me something that I didn't have But had no use I was too weak to give in Too strong to lose My heart is under arrest again But I break loose My head is giving me life or death But I can't choose I swear I'll never give in I refuse ^^I love that song!! me__xO