well, that's it. i moved for good. if feels weird, looking back on my old house, with memories scattered all over the walls and on counters and tucked in corners. it's like the house really isn't empty but i get that every time i've moved. but this time i moved in with my mom's fiance and his two kids. they're not bad actually. i guess i got lucky this is the last entry i'll be writing. i dunno the computer really isn't a big part of my life anymore <<3333

okay so sitD is broken and wont let me edit my entrys so ill just make another one O_o gah when im older and my little girl asks me who my first love was i dont wanna have to pull out an old photo album. i wanna be able to point across the room & say he's sitting right over there SUMMER 06 ¯ ¯ ¯ ¯¦ ¦_ _ _ _ Take chances. Be young. Go crazy. b e c a u s e w e ' r e n o t g o n n a l i v e f o r e v e r WE'RE NOT PERFECT..WE LAUGH WAY TOO HARD. WE'RE WAY TOO IMMATURE. WE'RE WAY TOO LOUD. & WE MAKE COMPLETE FOOLS OF OURSELVES. BUT WE DO IT TOGETHER. so its okay. =] all she really wants is someone who will sit with her under the stars && not want anything more but to look into her eyes && say you're the only one i`ve been waiting for Hug Harder. Laugh Louder. SmiLe Bigger. &imthetypeofgirl who will burst out laughing in dead silence because of something that happened yesterday.

she says she doesn't care but then the look in here eyes they tell a completely different story. ♥

well this summer im going to NC and NY and the West coast :] yes im excited and i have red hair lol i'll post more later [including pictures!]

so last night i went to the movies with sarah and ashton and kaity and dara, nick, danny, anthony and jc were there. i wanted to talk to jc about what happened and everything and if it meant anything to him, cause it sure as hell meant a lot to me. and pretty much he said it didn't. so last night, my first day being 15, i got my heart broken. i cried myself to sleep. but today i feel a lot better. stronger, ready to go out there again, ready to move on. i guess that it was a goodbye kiss. i guess thats it for us. okay, i'm actually okay with that. actually im not, but time will fix it, weather it takes another 4 years or 4 days, god only knows, but it will be okay. i know it will. i trust him

i got exactly what i wanted :] and it wasn't anything that could've been bought i got to hang out with my best friends and i had the best time ever

spring break is amazing! lol i've done so much! and i got the WORST sunburn of my entire life lol it hurts really bad :] its super lol tuesday im going to siesta key with people then off to FSU then on friday morning im flying up to Pennsylvania for a party thingie &♥;

its when the hard times come the hearts begin to break the real tears shed and you feel like dying -thats when you realize who your best friends are

lolololololololololol i hate fake people :]

back to square one. oh joy.

he could have me in a heartbeat & he knows it.

distracted & faded

why do i suck at life? p.s - michael hates me & i don't care p.s.s - && jamie, patricia, andrea and all you guys that i love so much, put me on your freidns list so i can comment chu!

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Life is about being yourself & finding someone who loves every bit of it :] yay for happy people lately i've been extremely happy, i've moved in with my dad so thats good, my mom, eh, well i see her every so often. michael and i are going good, hes so sweet :] but yah i know its not 2000 words or anything but hey, its my life lataaaaaaaa

so whats going on in my life uhhh me and megan apparently aren't friends anymore but im becoming better friends with sarah and yay!! lol that makes me super happy. and laura is being gay by liking my ex, mike, but thats okay becuase im over him and maybe he will cheat on her and she will learn that cheating is bad. or vice-versa.:-P but yah i like a kid named michael but it isn't the same michael lol :) errrr yah i havent been on in a while and im leaving to go to a hockey game soon so ill catch up with you guys later!!

its like heaven without the long term. today is my sister's b-day party. she's turning 11! lol im so happy for her :) && i got a haircut!! i still can't decide if i like it or not

lost love is still love. someone asked me, " if you could change one physical thing about your self what would it be?" instinctivly i answered 'to be skinnier' come to think of it, i've always wanted that, i don't know why. i mean im not fat, and im not skinny, im athletic. and i don't know, it bothers me that i wan't that even though i don't. Am I making any sence at all? the same person asked me "if you could change one emotional thing about yourself what would it be?" this time i thought about it and i really wish i was stronger, mentally. i wish i could be a stronger person, able to carry more problems, help more people. Not break down everytime something horrible happened. but thats just me. what about you. PEOPLE WHO COMMENT ON MY DIARY (COUGH*JAMIE AND AMBIA) NEED TO ADD ME ON THEIR FRIENDS LIST SO I CAN ACTUALLY COMMENT BACK =(

tehehe, we wern't really picking our nose.. =) yah me in a shopping cart lol

its kinda hard to get me mad but i know someone who can do it in 3 words. i love you. when carolyn says that to me i just blow. i don't know why i hate her, i think its becuase shes a controling bitch who doesnt deserve anyone in her life. even her botfriend and his two kids. she pretends to care when deep down i know she doesn't, and she doesn't even keep it down there. i heard her talking to scot that i was too much trouble and she wanted me to not live with her. she said im infecting jenna. honestly im not a bad kid. i rarely get in trouble and i only have an attitude or diesrespect twords her. if you ask any of my friends (except lolo) or any of my teachers, they will all say im a good kid. but they don't know half of it. it just pisses me off. then sometimes she'll just walk in here like shes doing now and pretends like shes looking for something but shes actually reading my emails and journal entries. so i only write them when shes not here. how sad is that? i can only trust her when shes not here. i don't trust her and i don't love her. thats the problem we have.