OMG...i freakin made plans with people to go to the carnival and my mom screwed it all up.just like always. i swear that's what she's sooo good at.sara and i were supposed to go there and hang out since we're never going to see each other again. so Tuesday was soo our day.but thanks to my mom..idk anymore. and then on top of that i got stuck at my grandmothers whom i must say im not too fond of.. GOD the feeling of this place makes my stomach hurt. and i really feel like shit when im around here. im gunna flip if i dont get to chill with sara on tuesday. oh yeah i was supposed to hang-out with my cuz this week since she doesnt have to work and i was gunna hang wit josephine. but no. moms too gay to actually let me have a damn life. omg i swear me and sara have a connection its so cool cuz we feel shitty at the same times. i love it!!! leave lovin cuz i definitly need it. "Bottom Of The Bottle" Been scared and lonely I've asked myself is something wrong with you My girlfriend told me I need some time alone to deal with issues But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand Why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle You always call me And ask me how I make it through the day I'm always fallin' I guess it's just god's way of making me pay But something makes me carry on It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle When I, I wonder why I try And I, I wonder why I bother And I, I wonder why I cry Why I, I go through all this trouble I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle I do it for the drugs I do it just to feel alive I do it for the love That I get from the bottom of a bottle me__xO