ppl r so lame.. but guess wut its SNOWING out side :) im so happy about that one. i think im going up to HV over x mass break if not this weekend. the winter is going to b long so ill b up there alot.we got sent home from school today...it was pointless. a who whoppin 20 mins but i still got home at the same time. im jobless at the moment.but im getting this one at a kennel. ill know tomarrow if not by today. k well im out loveyeaall **kay**

yea well im jsut going to say acouple of things...not too much.since i cant go out for awhile life is boring.i havent seen radny for almost 2 weeks.wtf.its so werid but im starting to get use to not seeing him.idk i guess u cant say im double thinking out relationship.i havent talked to him for alomsot 2 days.this isnt like us.we went from talking....talking and seeing eachother everyday...maybe not seeing eachother for a day..from not seeing eacohther for 2 weeks..n now we arnt seeing eacother plus talking to eacother..wtf.like i know/i pretty sure he he loves me.like its not the love part.when me and him r togeather ...i cant explain it.u would understand it if u saw us togeather.plus i dont really talk to steph like i use too.im thinking its cuz i dont got my damn cell phone.schools ok i guess.im pretty sure im not getting my lisence.im so tired of this shit.math is lame as fuck n i have a hard as teacher and that class is going to b a bitch to get higher than a D...well im going to bed..to sleep this emo ness out

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last night was the first football game.even tho it didnt even really count.julia and shannon went in and me sam and briana stayed out and waited for steph.she wasnt suppose to come and then she turned out coming :) we went in for about 2 fucking min and they poseponded it...WTF i payed to get in and they basicaly cancled the damn thing.we went to wendys and eat and we made it there just in time.it was pourning down rain and we sat there and laughed at all the ppl that r wet.ben came and picked us up and we went to WALMART!!he is a very angry guy.we had "rules" in the truck...didnt really follow them.we had to losten to the radio and not talk or talk....um...thats a hard question ..TALK..lol.we almost had a fender bender but we didnt.we got to walmart and ned was already pissed cuz from the car ride...get over it...its a friday night...in a car with chicks we r going to talk and b loud.w/e.well ben like alked away from us when we got into walmart.cool of him.well we walked around didnt really do much.steoph met a friend hes probely abvout 4...she played marco polo wit him..aww we fucked arond alot.shannons name got called over the the walmart system..hehe steph was running around wit a broom.then shannon and julia were yelling my #..HALLAR...lol..steph got picked up at W.M tho we left and went to giant egale to see nick.there were some hotties working there.ben walked away and i think he was looking at magazines.me and sam walked over to talk to the hotties and then shannon adn julia came and it went down hill...HAHAHA.i walked away and was stadning there and they left ...ben jsut sorda walked out wit out telling us...WTF he was pissing me off...the kids were like by ladies..i was like by call me ...and i helled my number...they werent going to know it since i said it fast...it was jsut funny.ben "yelled" at me and was like so kalin u give your number to random gy...um...it wasnt like they were going to remember it...and then julia yelled out the window to one of the guy..not sure what she said...but it was funny..came home and yea. i took pics from last night..look my info..but not alot tho..like 6...ttyl _anthonys in the hostpital- :( i feel so bad but i cant do this to mark again. idk what i want...but then again who know whats going on wit anthony `kay`

idk ...hey to everyone...i dont know what to put...lol but i got out of gym today and i didnt have to swim fuck yea dude

idk ...hey to everyone...i dont know what to put...lol

well last night theres so much to tell but im not.ill sum it up...went to da club wit steph,krissy,sean and aaron.seans friends came and talked to him and right when i say him DAMN did i want him.and i did...hehee.me and him danced the whole night togeather...we exchanged numbers :) this guy was in the corner thowing up and i think he had alchole poisioning and anthony went and helped him and got ppl since his dads a paramedic...so he new what to do and shit.after that we danced and then there was a fight right next to us.crazy. i kid got knocked out on the first punch but he didnt even start it this kid jsut came up and started say shit to him and his friend. turns out that anthony knows ulysess so hes coming to stay wit him this weekend i think...and hes going to come to the football game and then sat we going to da club...not sure yet.OMG hes so hott and i love it.whe we wwere saying our good byes he siad that he will call me today and he did :) i love when a guy will say that they will do something and they do.hes going to call me tonight so we can talk about stuff... i wonder what u r thinking right now??about this who thing...hmm...pondering. well thats about it that i feel like telling sooo yea have a good night ~kay~

well im so pissed right now i dont even know how i am typing this... so ill sum it up mark and me adn finalyl talking he told me how he felt about the whole thing that i did....i will say i deserve some of it but then again he did bring it appon his self...he said something that i cant get out of my head....if u do like some one even if u arnt togeahter with them u shouldnt even do anything with a guy...like wtf was i even thinking. i new i liked him and here i go...i guess its over so i can do w/e the fuck i want...and in the back of my head i was saying i shouldnt do this and i still go and do it.i know its wrong of me to say this but i should have jsut lied to mark and say that i didnt even hang out with a guy.but that would b me being a hipocrite cuz i was telling him how if we have anything he better not cheat...wtf did i say... me and steph r talking and she said i should move on and 4 get him...true..im freaking out on something that i know isnt going to b my "husband" so yea..fuck him yea im going to think about him and get pissed off at my self for shit...but ill move on... :(

well today is my fisrt day off this whole week and im not doing anything...my family is not going to go anywhere...have u looked at gas lately???WOW.its crazy.not too muhc i have been doing..working and talking to ppl every night. i called bloom up and we talk for about 30 min every night..and mark called me last night and we talked for about 1 hr.and then i caled steoph up and she was in mars for a litle to get stuff but we didnt talk cuz she didnt get any servius....but as of right thing thing r going rally good with me and mark... :) we start school on tuesday gosh...but guess is going to have to get started sooner or later...well no o want it to start that mean i get my lisence soon..fuck yea...im out going to take shower ~K~

nothin really to much to say.i didnt do much today.i got up went to work and came home. yes very exciting wasnt that.i was suppose to go to da club tonight but that didnt work out.i went out wit my brothers..went to the laundry mate and then went to marshells.didnt get anything.well i took back this jacket thing and i jsut got store credit.oh yea i saw rachel banks there...we talked for a little then i left. tomarrow i think im going to cabelas wit my dad and my old bro jason and jared...cuz i dont have anything to do here so y would i stay home and sit on my ass.idk i think i might b working for shannon.steph might take it since she wants more hrs so ill give it to her if she can take it(ill know in the morning)~~im sry shannon~~ vb looks like its going to happen:) so im happy about that..maybe what i wanted to happen for college just might still happen. oh yea my mom called me today and shes coming down in the next month..AND..im getting a digital camra from my rents and fam..finally new pics..everyone has old onces..we neeed to upp date the pics ~K~

well well...ppl already know stuff so i dont even know y im saying it.well i wored for shannon 2 this week...i needed the hrs so i didnt reall care.i went out with mark tonight..NOTHIN happened..dont u worrie. well kuhn and julia were like "y is she doing that"and i guess other stuff...like i can do what ever what fuck i want i dont need u guy telling me what i can and can not do...but i know u guys r lookingout for me and thanks but idk i jsut want u to think like idk bad but well idk what i think about it...dont get mad for me putting this in it...well anyways hm..i dont think im doing anyhting for my birthday...well im out school starting up idk im sum what excited im out ~K~

well i went to michegan monday with ym bro adn sister in law.the ride up there was so damn long.my mom looks good considering what all happened.richard my moms husband lost sooo muich weight from the cancer.hte cancer isnt growing and it isnt getting any small.i forget what thats called.yea he wared dipers now and he some what wets the bed.i feel so bad for my mom.my mom stays home all the time and takes care of him..she really never goes out...the onyl time is to go to work.richard hasnt workingin a year and so the money there is getting tight.richard marrie my mom so that when he dies my mom wotn have to worrie about money...i guess has money in the bank for my mom.my mom feels so stressed and on top of that all my mom has other health problems.it sucks that i only saw her for about a day..maybe 2.i wish i jsut stayed there.my mom seemed so happy at times.we stayeed at her house the whole time.i swam in the pool the whole time adn layed out...i got a tan now..FINALY.i have been white all summer and now im finaly getting something.i havent really done anything...i want to try to go up to michegan next week since i dont have vb..ill c i dont think my dad will let me tho :( but next summer ill b there when ever i want since ill b driving by then... loveyea KAY

i came home from hidden valley and i went white water rafting with my dad and bro.it was fun i fell out of the damn boat..HAHA and then i tried jumping in and i some what missed the boat...yea i landed on a big fat rock when i fell out.me and my bro came home on friday since we both had to work.i started at 130 till close with shannon.we got called in.shannon said that my bro wasnt that bad anymore so thats good. yesterday since my rents were coming home till late(they didnt even come home last night)but i took the car and went and picked up shannon and then we went to the mall.we got alot of shit.then we just came bac to my house and then my bro drove us to work.i was fucking great at driving.yea u are probly thinking what happened if u got pulled over...too bad i wasnt going to b getting pulled over...if u think about it i would b getting my lisence in 15 dayts any ways so its not like i was only driving for 3 months. me and shannon went and visited kuhn and amiee was there..we were there for about 8 min or so then we jsut walked over to work. OMG..work.i was in a lazy mood and ppl pissed me off.i was freaking out and the ppl heard me...i dont care but they deserved it.then i was dropping everything.we hooked the camras up so we saw what our boss was watching.shannon threw bread at me and it landed in water and i picked it up and threw it at her and she nailed me and ewww my shirt looked like some one threw up on it.then shannon poored water in my mouth ..so i threw water at her..and cassie was there jsut looking at us like we are lazy shits who make messes at us..it was funny.we got out before 9 so thats good. going to work tonight again.i might b hanging out with shannon,sean and barbin..but i got to talk to shannon...im out ttyl....yea my moms doing a little better..she hasn really talked to me about what has happened to her :( loveyeaall KAY

this shits lame as fuck i would like to say....

YEA SO I HAD EVERYTHING TYPED IN ABOUT WORK LAST NIGHT AND IT DELETED SUDDENLY...SO IM NOT GOING TO TPYE THE FUCKING THIS OVER...WHO CARES ILL TELL U LATER ABOUT IT WHEN I SEE U BITCHES... loveyea ~~kay~~

well happy 4th of july ppl.today is going to suck.well maybe not but i think it will.last night fucking sucked.tori and becky came over and by the time they came i wasnt in the mood to do anything...all i wanted to do it go to bed.kuhn and shannon didnt even come...kuhn called and said how her rents dont feel like driving...idk something like that...i new something like that was going to happen.becky brought some alochole that tasted like shit.i HATE black licorish...wow cant spell that and thats what this stuf smelled like/tasted.me and aric talked on the phone for about 10-15 min about stuff.he asked me to go to the movies with him today..dont know if thats going to happen..he "said"he will call me.hes in north side so who knows if he can get over here.he told me we are going to do something this week tho. im going to my cuz house next weekend and helping out with E-Fest. its fun.its african american fest type thing.its lets ppl see what others can do ..like dance,art,drawling. last year little kids like 7 and 10 were doing lips and crazy things in the streets.plus i get to meet ppl. oh i should b getting my phone tomarrow :) im not really sure what im doing tonight..hmmm.i have a feeling that drama is going to b started.and i didnt even do it loveyeaall ~kay~

well today im not doing much.my cell phone was suppose to get turned off last night when my dad canceled it but it doesnt look like it did.my cell phone should come tomarrow and since they dont deliver on 4th of july then monday/tuesday...i hope today tho.im trying to go to the mall tonight with ppl but i dont think its lookin so good.my bro asked me if i could work some of his shift so i think im going to take that from 3-6...onyl 3 hrs but not like im doing anything.then from work im going to try to go to the mall shannons closing so that sucks.my bros leaving to go to NJ tomarrow wth his friend JD thats funny as hell.hes sleepin over so that should b fun...no hes not my type dont u b thinking anything. tomarrow saturday im leaving to to hidden valley. its going to really stupid.im not even going to do anything..jsut lay at the pool all day and try to ge a tan.im coming home sunday with ym bro jared since hes goin to a concert that night.thats good that he isnt going to b home.im having some ppl over sunday night.i hope some one brings some shit.ppl are going to b sleeping over...sicne my retns arnt going to b home till 2..and when my bro does get home hes going to b piss ass drunk he wont even know anything. steph,shannon,kuhn,becky,aaron,aric,me,this dave kid that might b comin wit becky,elliot with shannon and idk if julias coming.i dont really care who comes or not but i hope aric does.like it will b fun with him and ppl who dont relly know him or even talk to him will get to know him. i dont know what im doing for 4th of july i bet i wont know ill sunday when ppl are over.i hope we all do something.thats about it for now..ttyl ppl loveyeaall ~kay~

so far summer has been fun.i hung out with kuhn shannon and steph about every day.i dont really feel like telling it all.i havent been working that much tho.i started vb on thursday and i have it everyday..not the weekends for 2 1/2 hours...its fun and i get my excersice. my bros graduation was yesterday.my uncle and cuz came in from michegan and they onyl stayed for a day. like they came in yesterday and left yesterday...waist of gas..but it was nice of him to do that.then...my bors friends came in and i was in the kitchen and brett he saw me and im sitting there and billy didnt see me at first and then he did and he goes WOW woods is this your sister and my bor goes yea...man woods she looks jsut like jess.her nose looks like hers and her smile...and brett goes she hot.WTF im here.and billy jsut couldnt believe how much i look like this other chick.i leave and i go down stair on the comp and guess whos name got brought up darrons.brett goes to bad darron didnt come...man does my bro hate when he get brought up and it deals with me.i went up stairs to get a drink and billy did it again. and they were going to show me a pic but brett didnt have his wallet on him.then brett tryed to trip me ...WOW dont u do that.LOL.i would have stayed and talked to them but my bor wasnt going for that and that was probly weird for me to sit and talk to his freinds. today i think im going to b going to the mall/eat in park with kuhn and steph and then meeting shannon at eat in park after she is done working.im happy we are going to the mall i need a shirt or 2...and shorts. well im out loveyea ~kay~

hey yea i now i ahvent put anything in this in a loonnnggg time.i just havent felt like doing it.well my vb season is over for about a month maybe not even that.we didnt good i guess. we didnt get first in any of our tounament but we would get 2nd of 3rd. we got 3rd in the bigggest tournament it was at penn state there was about 64 teams so we did good if u look at it like that.i did good. i love when i suprise my self.my coach played me all around and my passes were great and same with my defence.im trying harder at my passes since my coach told me that im not going to b a hitter next year. im too little.yea i new that anyways so it wasnt like i was pissed or anyhthing like that. we have 3 more days of school left.finally.like i was this year to end but then again thats jsut closer to the time that i ahve to graduate..not saying i dont want to graduate but that jsut means that i ahve to face the world and im scared im going to fail.im not really big on tests i uslay fail then all and thats all college is about it TESTS. ps david is the cooolest hasha...dave added that is ytou couldnt tell..LOL. this summer is going to b fun as hell. i know it will be and im planning on buying a video camra now that i have some what a real job.i might b going to micheagan the day after school is out but im not sure yet. if i do ill b baclk on that following friday since i have to b here for my bros gradiation party...i want to b there anyways.since im not going to b seeing my cousins at all this summer and so this is really the only time i get to see them ans stuff.my bro said that he is going to have more of his friends come now since he foud out that only him and this other kid are having a party so...theres going to a alot of ppl there now. me and kunn got into a little thing this past weekend..it was lame how she freaked out on me but i guess its jsut showing that she cares.we didnt talk at all yesterday it was weird and not its back to normanl and we are all going to bury a box in my yard...yea little kiddies...lol.im going to back to class ttyl bitches loveyea Kay