My sunny side has up and died.

by looklikewefeel
My body is now involuntarily rejecting food. I've tried eating four times today and every time, I've felt like I needed to throw up after. I can't say this doesn't make things easier for me, but it's certainly scary. Why now, after everything, am I deteriorating against my will? This makes no sense. This makes me smile. This makes me fear.
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I agree about negative emotions, but I've let them cloud me too much for far too long. It's a bit of a vicious cycle in my life, unfortunately...
I hate not wanting food, I get it often where I just can't face eating for a few days a a time, then others when I totally pig out... Hope you get over it soon.

As for my bitterness, I try not to be, but it seems every time I get somewhere, something drags me down again and it's hard not to be a little sour. I'm trying to be as upbeat as possible at the moment and it seems to be working, despite a severe lack of sleep this week...
Very interesting.

Soooo... um.... where's my cake? :(
Thanks a lot, I really appreciate it.

Oh they get me through some tough times, Fevers and Mirrors is my favourite album. I was so lucky to see them a few years back in London, cost me a fortune though but it was like a dream.

As for the food rejection, I get that sometimes. It's as though my brain remembers old habits and starts them up again for me. It has it's pros and cons

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