Chapter 10: I'm walking through the halls of the hospital not sure what to think. Everything is such a blur. My heart is beating faster with each step I take away from the room. A game is being played in my head. My mind trying to decide what to do. Should I walk back in the room and stop Kyle from telling his mom? Should I just let it happen and hope for the best in the end? My feet lead me out of the hosital and I'm unaware of who's around me. I start walking around, not sure of where I should go. I'll just stand in the parking lot, walking back and forth until I get brave enough to walk back to the room. What would Ms. Becky think is what I'm worried about the most, and what would Erika say if she found out? I find a bench to sit on by a shaded tree. It's an old bench with a carved in flower on each side, and grass stains covering the sides. I sit and stare out into the grassy area by the hospital. The flowers are dieing off because of the cold weather of fall. The leaves have a brownish tint in color, and fall from the tall trees that shade the area. I think about life. Life has it's down moments and sometimes you feel like nothing will be the same again. The leaves... will always turn green again. I shift my weight around trying to not feel the harsh pain. My mind wanders for some time and then i think... Erika! What if... Matt does the same thing to her. What if... He already has done something to her. We need to talk to her and tell her, after Ms. Becky knows. My life, my secret, in anothers thoughts, and another person's concern. How could I have been so nieve? I'm worried, worried that this will all be a mess. More than what it is already. Someone else's life can be ruined. I suddenly feel a sharp pain in my stomach. My mind races and heart beats faster. What if something is wrong with me? My body... the only thing i had control of now is also in another person's hands. His contol and power over me is unreal. One word can melt me, his eyes, his bold eyes work wonders for his advantage. His touch, his soft touch, suduces me when pleased. I know I can't be the only one in his power. Erika? I suddenly stand from the bench, trying to get my balance, start walking towards the hospital again. I hope it's not to late. I enter the building and try to remeber where Kyle's room is. I walk around for a bit trying to refill my mind with such thoughts about where to go. My mind is blank. "Mam, can I help you?" The nurse at the front desk asks me. "Um.. yea. I'm not sure where Kyle Johnson's room is. Can you please lead me to it?" I say to her. "This way." She smiles and says walking away from the front desk. I follow her through the halls and towards Kyle's room. I remeber this hall, how could I forget the colorful drawings on the wall? How could i forget the only color in the dull building? I'm finally at Kyle's door, and the lady walks away. I hear the whispering loud conversation from the other side of the door. This is it. Another person will know my secret. Let's hope for the best. I touch the knob and a screaming silence comes over my body. I take a deep breath and open the door to the room. Each voice getting louder as I walk in. The last thought enters my mind. "Will she believe it? Trust, hope, believe... pray." They both turn and stare. Ms. Becky stops what she's saying and looks up at me. Kyle looks back down and bites his lip upon my enter. "Oh Laura!" Ms. Becky says while running up to me. She grabs my body tightly and I start to cry in her sholder. The hug is tight and secure and I'm falling apart. This feeling inside has control of me. Mixed feelings are all around. What am i worried about most? Me or Erika's saftey? I push her away after some time and ask, "Erika, Where is Erika?" "I'm not sure, but what does that have to do with anything Laura?" Kyle asks me. I walk over to the chair and sit down. I can't belive he can't figure it out. I pull my legs up, knees by my head, and wrap my arms around them. My body is shaking. I'm loosing control. "She could be next... she could be." My words find there way out my mouth. I can't make since of anything. Ms. Becky and Kyle are worried about something totally different than what I am. "Oh my. Laura she will be okay. We need to get you checked by a doctor." Ms. Becky says to me. "I can't get checked by a doctor! What... don't you beilive us? Don't worry about me. It's Erika!" I say while crying once more. I know what Im trying to say, but they are clueless. "I do belive you, but we need to make sure your body isn't hurt more than it was. We need information, and Erika is okay." I don't say anything, I'm just crying. Kyle is silent, and Ms. Becky kneels by my side. "Laura, you need to see a doctor. Please, we can help you feel better." She grabs my arm and I finally stand up. "It will be for the best, I promise." She leads me out the room and down the hall. The sharp pain comes back in my stomach and I think once more... "Erika..."