Rest in Peace grandpa. havent written here for a few days. oh well. been out of it. i still kinda am. but im getting better. slowly im getting better. im going to sears tomorrow to shop for a shirt and shoes for the funeral. but i dunno which sears. i was hoping the one at the mall so i can see amber if she is working that day. i havent seen anybody this summer except kathy and chrissy once. and thats it. and then i have to go to the funeral saturday. a part of me doesnt wanna go but i am going b/c i know im gonna regret. its the worse to regret not going to someone's funeral. trust i know. i guess wat they are doing w/ him is they are going to give some of his ashes to his kids (which are 5 daughters) one of them is my mom. then the rest to his wife my stepgrandmother. some ppl think its morbid. but i actually kinda like that idea. it got me thinking wat i want done w/ me when im dead. and i have no idea. my mom says hopefully i will have a long time to decide. but now a days thats just not true. and today we almost lost my dad. i guess he was working on a car and danny was working on the truck behind it and it started up already in gear and pushed the car and pretty much ran my dad over. but they stopped it in time. but if they were inside my dad would have been crushed in the wall and died. i guess one of my mom's friend died that way. but thats y u need to cherish wat you have and the people around you cuz they can be gone at any moment. and try to cherish and love the people around me. but i dunno if im doing good job of it. im gonna try harder. b/c i dont wanna lose anyone. and i dont want anyone i care bout leave the world thinking i dont care bout them. but im gonna go watch urban legends now. kathy chrissy jess and rest of my friends and all my family i love you and care for you and im always here for you and your always in my prayers and my dreams love ya foeva and fo always!!!! kay C.