okay so i`m done with muncherkins15, i got a new sitD. it`s xbreakmyheart. so make sure you check it out !! ♥ I woke up to real life And I realized it`s not worth running from anymore When there was nowhere left to hide I found out That nothing`s real here but I won`t stop now until I find a better part of me I let those hard days get me down And all the things I hate got in my way I could of screamed without a sound I found myself silenced by those things they say

Yeah okay so I lied..I'm back before Monday obviously. But hey, I got bored. What ya gonna do :p Been a very boring night. Ugh. Hate nights like these. Got a new layout, it's hott I know :) Welll, I`m out. ily♥ Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all of the people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words You've got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here

Today, did pretty much nothing but hold the couch down and search for layouts. Also searched for diaries of people I know and what such. Last night, did nothing. Stayed home. Boring, I know. Kinda stressed out these past few days..not sure why actually. But hey, what can ya do. Aggravated by like everyone right now, again..not sure why. I don't know guys. :/ Jenny, I'm so happy for you that your mama's letting you go to the movies with Matthew. Especially by yourself. I don't see why you couldn't go to the lakehouse a few weeks. I mean, if she's letting you go to the movies with just him, why wouldn't she have let you go to his lakehouse? It would've just been the 4 of us. Kinda confusing, that situation is. I mean, did you not wanna go or what? I think she would've let you go. But whatever, it's okay.. Tomorrow going to Miss Jessicas around 1:30 and then the boys are coming over around 4:30ish, hanging out there for awhile, then going to the cabin. It's gonna be me, Jessy, Zach, Josh, and Zach M. I'll be back Monday to give ya'll an update. Till then.. When you left.. I lost a part of me♥

ABOUT YOU 1. Your full name: Jennifer Lynn Ewain 2. Age: 15 3. Height: 5'3'' 4. Natural hair color: Brown 5. Eye color: Brown 6. Number of siblings: 1 7. Glasses/contacts: Glasses 8. Piercings: Nope 9. Tattoos: Nope 10. Braces: Yeah FAVORITE 11. Color: Blue and Pink 12. Band: Too many to name 13. Song: Let Me Go- 3 doors down 14. Video game: Shrek 2 15. TV show: One Tree Hill 16. Movie: Tonsss of movies I love 17. Book: I dont read too often 18. Food: Pizza 19. CD cover: I dont know 20. Animal: Puppy! 21. Cereal: Cocoa Puffs 22. Website: thisss. 23. Cartoon: Baby Looney Toons and Winnie the Pooh :) DO YOU 24. Play an instrument: Nope 25. Watch TV more than 60 hours a week: No 26. Like to sing: Alone 27. Have a job: Summer job 28. Have a cell phone: Yeah 29. Like to play sports: Ew. 30. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend: Nope 31. Have a crush on someone: Yep 32. Lived somewhere NOT in the united states: Nope 33. Have more than 5 TVs in your house: No 34. Have any special talents/skills: Umm.. 35. Exercise daily: Nope 36. Like school: Uh no. CAN YOU 37. Sing the alphabet backwards: Noo 38. Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes: Never really tried.. 39. Speak any other languages: French 40. Go a day without food: No way 41. Stay up for more than 24 hours: Yeah right 42. Read music, not just tabs: Sure 43. Roll your tongue: No 44. Eat a whole pizza: Probly HAVE YOU EVER 45. Snuck out of the house: No 46. Cried to get out of trouble: Duh Of course! 47. Gotten lost in your city: no 48. Seen a shooting star: yeah 49. Been to any other countries besides the united states: Yeah 50. Had a serious surgery: no 51. Stolen something important from someone else: No 52. Solved a rubiks cube: once 53. Gone out in public in your pajamas: Yep 54. Cried over a guy: Unfortunately 55. Kissed a random stranger: Ew no. 56. Hugged a random stranger: Uh no. 57. Been in a fist fight: nope 58. Been arrested: Nope 59. Done drugs: Nope 60. Had alcohol: Yeah 61. Laughed and had milk come out of your nose: Nope 62. Swore at your parents: who hasnt? 63. Been to warped tour: nope 64. Been in love: yes 65. Been close to love: duh ^ yes 66. Been to a casino: no 67. Ran over an animal and killed it: OMG NO 68. Broken a bone: nope 69. Gotten stiches: nope 70. Had a waterballoon fight in winter: no brr 71. Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour: noo 72. Bitten someone: they deserved it 73. Been to disneyland/disneyworld: nope 74. More that 5 times: Nope 75. Been to niagra falls: Yeah 76. Gotten the chicken pox: Yeah WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU 77. Brushed your teeth: after dinner 78. Went to the bathroom: 2 hrs ago? 79. Saw a movie in theatres: 6 weeks ago? 80. Read a book: oh hell. 81. Had a snow day: february? 82. Had a party: dont throw them 83. Went to the grocery store: 2 weeks ago 84. Got sick: now 85. Cursed: now PICK ONE 86. Fruit/Vegitables: fruits 87. Black/White: black 88. Lights on/Lghts off: off 89. TV/Movie: movie 90. Car/Truck: Car 91. Cash/Check: Cash 92. Pillows/Blankets: Blankets 93. Headache/Stomach ache: neither 94. Paint/Charcoal: Charcoal 95. Chinese food/Mexican food: Chinese 96. Summer/Winter: Summer 97. Snow/Rain: Rain 98. Fog/Misty: Misty 99. Rock/Rap: Rap 100. Meat/Vegitarian: Meat 101. Chocolate/Vanilla: Chocolate 102. Sprinkles/Icing: Both! 103. Cake/Pie: Cake 104. French toast/French fries: Both! 105. Strawberries/Blueberries: Strawberries 106. Ocean/Swimming pool: Eh Idk 107. Hugs/Kisses: Both :) def. Kisses 108. Cookies/Muffins: botthhh 109. Blonde/Brown: I DONT CARE, EITHER 110. Wallet/Pocket: pocket 111. Window/Door: Window 112. Emo/Goth: emo 113. Pink/Purple: pink 114. Cat/Dog: dog 115. Long sleeve/Short sleeve: both 116. Pants/Shorts: Pants 117. Winter break/Spring break: Spring Break 118. Spring/Autumn: Autumn 119. Clouds/Clear sky: Clear 120. Moon/Mars: Moon FRIENDSHIP 121. How many friends do you have: I dont count them silly. 122. What are their names: It could take foreverrr. 123. Do you have a best friend: yep 124. Have you ever liked one of your friends: yeah 125. Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends: ummm, they're about the same. 126. Have you ever lost a friend: yeah 127. Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend: yeah 128. What's an inside joke between you and a friend: mind your own business! 129. Have you ever gotten into a big argument with a friend: yeah 130. What's the nicest thing you've ever done for a friend: be there for them and love em for who they are 131. What's the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you: ^ same as that 132. Do you miss any of your old friends: yeah 133. What friend have you known the longest: all my preston girls 134. Do you regret anything you've done to a friend: yeah 135. Do any of your friends drive: yeah 136. Has a friend of your ever died: yeah 137. What's the dumbest thing you've ever done with a friend: oh boy, theres a list. 138. What do you think your friends think of you: i dunno LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP 139. Have you ever been in love: yeah 140. If you have, with who: Mind your ownnnn business 141. Are you in a relationship: no 142. Do you believe there is someone for everyone: sure 143. What is your idea of the best date: just being with them 144. What was your first kiss like: Um, good? Lol, yeah. Good :) 145. How old were you when you got your first kiss: 12 146. Do you think love is a load of shit: yes 147. What's the best experience you've ever had with the opposite sex: umm.. 148. Have you ever been dumped: yeah 149. Have you ever dumped someone: all the time WORD ASSOCIATION 150. Slippers: pretty 151. Hat: badd 152. Hard: rock 152. Free: MONEY! 153. Space: aliens 154. Taste: yummm 155. Good Charlotte: ick 156. Red: hot 157. Deep: ocean 158. Heart: broken 159. Cord: electricity? 160. Cheese: pizza 161. Rain: wet 162. Work: sucks! 163. Pedal: bike 164. Head: hair 165. Bed: comfy!! 166. Fluff: and peanut butter 167. Hardcore: kinky 168. Race: me! 169. Knife: sharp 170. Jump: off I... 171. Am: hungry 172. Want: to do something 173. Need: food 174. Crave: food 175. Love: my friends 176. Hate: bugs 177. Did: nothing 178. Feel: like crap 179. Miss: him 180. Am annoyed by: People 181. Would rather: be asleep 182. Am tired of: hurting 183. Will always: be me! SILLY STUFF 184. What is your favorite genre of music: hip hop 185. What time is it now: 9:59 PM. 186. What day is it: friday 187. When's the last time you called someone: few hours ago 188. How much money do you have right now: idk 189. Are you hungry: yes!!! 190. Watcha doin: talking 191. Do you like parades: no 192. Do you like the moon: yeah 193. What are you going to do when you're done with this: EAT!! 194. Isn't cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over again: uh..no 195. If you could have any magical power, what would it be: umm 196. Have you ever had a picnic: yeah 197. Did you ever have one of those skip-its when you were young: yeah 198. What about sock em boppers: no 199. Are you wearing any socks right now: yep DO YOU THINK YOU ARE 200. Funny: sure 201. Pretty: no 202. Sarcastic: way more then i should be 203. Lazy: too lazy 204. Hyper: yeah 205. Friendly: yeah.. 206. Evil: me? noo 207. Smart: no 208. Strong: use to be.. 209. Talented: sure? 210. Dorky: no FOR OR AGAINST 211. Suicide: Against. 212. Love: Both 213. Drunk drivers: against 214. Airplanes: against. Hate them! 215. War: Idk 216. Canada: Idk 217. United States: for 218. Rock music: for 219. Gay marriage: Ick 220. School: Ick 221. Surveys: for 222. Parents: AGAINST!!! 223. Cars: for 224. Killing: against 225. Britney Spears: against 226. Coffee: for 227. Pants: for WOULD YOU EVER 228. Sky dive: probly not 229. Play strip poker: hell yeah 230. Run away: i wish 231. Curse at a teacher: nah aint worth it 232. Not take a shower for a week: no! I love to be CLEAN you pigs. 233. Ask someone out: probly not 234. Lie to someone to make them think better of you: no 235. Visit a foreign country for more than a month: no 236. Go scuba diving: no 237. Write a book: no 238. Become a rockstar: no 239. Make a movie: no LAST QUESTIONS 240. What shampoo do you use: pantene 241. When's the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex: 3 weeks ago? 242. What kind of computer do you have: asus 243. Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies: no 244. How many CDs do you have: alot 245. What time is it now: 10:05 P.M. FINALLY DONE, MY GOD.

Ok yeah so I feel awful, pure awful. I reallllly hate being sick. It's not fun at all. At all. Anywho, let's see how my day went.. English- Okay. Geometry- Okay. Hate math. Biodiversity- Watched a video. Gym- No gym today, studyhall instead because of the art stuff in the gym. History- Video. We got our tests back, I got an 81, yay :) Lunch- Pretty good. Jessy didn't come today though, grr. Studio Arts- We set up our stuff for the art show tonight. That was fun. French- Played reviewed games. So overall, not a bad day. Then I get home, and you think it'd be better, right? Well no. Dad..dad's not here. Not much of a shocker but you know. I had to do like 3 pages of notes for geometry and try, try to understand it all. Then I had one section to do, but I ended up doing tonights and the next few nights homework. Get that off my back for now, eh? Sounds good to me. Then had dinner, Chicken. It was good. Now sitting here, updating, away on AOL, and yeah..Can't think of anything else. Oh yeah, dad..you're an asshole. Yes, you. Well I'm gonna go for now, I can't breathe because I have the sniffles. Did I mention that I hate the sniffles? Well I do.

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My dog's passed out on the floor and he looks so cute =p Anywho, today I didn't go to school because I felt awwwful. I woke up around 5:15 and came downstairs, and mom said I had a fever and said I didn't have to go, so I took some stuff and went back to bed. Woke up around 10 :o I know! I needed that sleep so bad. I still need more, grr. Chris also stayed home today, I think hes missed too many..maybe not. I've only missed 5 hehe. Jessy called me and gave me my lecture, well until I told her I was sick, but she didn't believe me! Jessy, my love I wouldn't skip out on you or Jenny and not tell ya'll. And I definately would tell you both if I was skipping with Zachary. =) Missed you both soo much tho! Umm..I went over to my grammy's tonight, she's so annoying. Haha, no really she is. But love you Gram! Now I'm listening to music and waiting for the boys to get home so they can talk to me =) P.S- Missed ALL of you today!!

Been a few days, so here's the update. Friday- stayed home, went to bed around 10. Saturday- Jess came over, we walked to Jens then the 3 of us went to Jericho for lunch. Jess did her Spanish. Went home. Took pictures of Chris n Sky before they went to prom. Went to Jericho for dinner. Umm..the rest of the night we were just really bored because SOMEONE didnt hang out with us. And today- did hw and sleep. I'm so tired ugh.

For some odd reason I'm thinking that I won't be on too long tonight. Well actually I know the reason and it's not that odd. I accidentally deleted one of my moms shows (since we have TiVO) and well..she's pissed. But I didn't do it on purpose, I mean that's mean. I had no reason to delete it, it's not like I'm mad at her. I said sorry like 5 times and she's still pissed. I said I'm sorry mama. The only way I'll be pissed is if she goes and deletes all my shows! Then it'll be on!! Mama, I like that word. I say that a lot actually, instead of mom or mommy. Hehe anywho. Jen won't be on for a WEEK! She got grounded so that sucks. Jenny you still better be able to come to lunch on Saturday with me and Jessy. Things with Zach are getting better, definately gotta work on everything 10 times more.♥ Trying to work on things with Sara, just waiting for when she wants to. Umm what else is there to talk about since I haven't updated in awhile hmm.. Oh!! My brother's prom is this Saturday and omg, I've never seen this kid in a tux in my entire life of living with him. That's right ladies, my brother in a tux. Haha, nothing special anyway and this is coming from his baby sister. But seriously, he doesn't look so much like a wigger now. I'm definately going to take pictures on Saturday, god only knows when I will see him in a tux again. Well, its like..3 minutes to 7. I'm gonna see if I have any homework, I don't think I do. Procrastinator I be. And plus, theres a fly flying around in front of the screen and it's annoying the hell outta me!! ♥ you all *Jen

I want a boy--- Who can wrestle with me And let me win. Who I can talk to about anything Who laughs at my jokes. A boy who puts my cold hands In his warm hoodie pockets. Who lets me use his sweatshirt For a pillow. Who buys me 25-cent rings, And sticky hands. Who says I love you & means it. Who will kiss me in the rain, In the sunshine, and in the snow. Who calls unexpectedly. Who will have many inside jokes With me and remember each one. A boy who notices girl’s haircuts. Who realizes that girls say things But don't always mean them. Who shows up at my games, Slipping in the door. Who I can go swimming with On hot days. Who can tell me his problems And let me help. Who will listen to me talk-- About the new nail polish I got. Who will bring me seashells From the beach. Who will let me beat him up When I get angry. Who writes love letters to me, But doesn’t send them. Who draws pictures and slips them Gently into my locker slot. Who saves his genuine, big smiles for me. A boy with deeps eyes, That can see through faces into depths. Who wears baseball hats and Lets me wear his too. Who gives me his t-shirt to change into And not expect to get it back. Who knows me favorite color, song, Car, vegetable, perfume and The color of my toothbrush. A boy who will shake my dads hand And look my mother in the eye. Who will call me by my full name-- First, middle and last. A boy who will kiss me and Tell me I'm pretty. A boy who will let me cry to him. Who will squeeze my hips just right. Who surprises me and compliments My manicure and plays with my hair. Who knows when I have a math test Or when I fail one. A boy who smells like He just stepped out of the shower. Who wears cologne that I can subtly Smell when I’m leaning on his shoulder. Who tells me I have a nice laugh And a smile that lights up the room And simply be mine to hold.

Morning everybody, it's like 10:25ish and I just woke up at like..9:30? Yeah I guess hehe. I might go to Zachs today once he gets off work, so I probably should start getting ready now. Shower and all that good stuff :) Jenny, it's raining so no Jericho lunch today *Sigh* But, next weekend..me, you, and Jessy-Saturday-at Jericho for lunch! Sound like a plan? Hope so! :p We'll talk about it this week and pick a time n everything hehe. My parents came home today, I have to admit I kinda missed them. But it was soo nice doing whatever I wanted, although I was home all weekend haha. Ah it was fun tho, not having to do much or explain anything, and Chris' friends came over, it was all good. Can't wait till they go away again! Hehe. Well I'm gonna go take a shower, get dressed, do my hair, put my makeup on, and then I'll probably go on AOL. I'll talk to you guys later! ♥ Jenny

Well I didn't go out tonight, I won't be going out tonight, but it's okay I guess. It's already 8:45..where has the night gone? Yeesh. Just hangin out here listenin to music, Chris and Jon are leaving soon I think, not sure what they're up to tonight, who's coming over or what. Zach might be calling, not sure though, Josh said he'd try and get ahold of him. I hope he does. Welll..I'm gonna go. ♥

Well I got a new layout, I actually had like 3 of them, but I finally chose this one. Not sure if I really like it that much yet, I think it's a little..blah- White. Well I'm gonna keep looking. Jerichos open!!! Getting dinner there tonight :D Can't wait! Umm..might go out tonight, so not sure if I'll be back again today, you never know though. So talk to you guys whenever.. ♥ Jen

01.) Name:: Jennifer 02.) Middle Name:: Lynn 03.) DOB:: 8-15-89 04.) Age:: 15 05.) Location:: PA 06.) Eye Color:: brown 07.) Hair Color:: brown w/ blonde highlights 08.) Hair Length:: umm below the shoulders 09.) Height:: 5'3" 10.) Shoe Size:: 6-7 11.) Glasses or Contacts:: glasses 12.) Braces:: until next month, then im free!!!! :D 13.) Single or Taken:: single 14.) Bad Habits:: Jealousy of course. 15.) Fears:: Bugs, they scare me. 16.) Screen Name:: muncherkins15 ::_**_:: School ::_**_:: 17.) Where Do You Go to School:: Honesdale High 18.) Whats Your School Mascot:: Hornets 19.) Whats Your School Colors:: Red and Black 20.) Whats Your Favorite Subject:: Does lunch count? Umm, english I guess. 21.) Whos Your Favorite Teacher:: Mr Roberts 22.) What Do They Teach:: Geometry 23.) Who Sits Next to You In Math Class:: Behind me, Ashley. Diagnol, Sara. In front of me, Keith. ::_**_:: Love Life ::_**_:: 24.) Do You Have a Boyfriend/ Girlfriend:: no 25.) If So, Whats There Name:: - 26.) If So, How Long Have You Been Together:: - 27.) Do You Have a Crush:: duhh! 28.) Do They Know:: of course 29.) Have You Ever Broken Someones Heart:: I don't think so.. 30.) Have You Ever Had Your Heart Broken:: Yes ::_**_:: Favorites ::_**_:: 31.) Animals:: Puppies!! 32.) Colors:: Pink and blue :p 33.) Celebrity:: Eminem and Chad Michael Murray babbbyyy! 34.) Subject:: Duh. ^ 35.) Seasons:: Summer 36.) Holiday:: Christmas 37.) Hobbies:: Being with my friends! 38.) Sport:: Hate sports ick. 39.) Feeling:: singy 40.) Saying:: Exactly! 41.) Word:: WHOREBAG!! 42.) Month:: August 43.) Clothing:: tank tops and jeans. guys- boxers, jeans, and tanks :) 44.) Jewelry:: bracelets 45.) Food:: JUNK! 46.) Snack:: Do you really want the list? BONUS) Trademarks:: Um no? ::_**_:: Friends ::_**_:: 47.) Best:: Jess, Jen, Sara 48.) Daringest:: Hmm.. 49.) Funniest:: All 50.) Tallest:: Meg 51.) Shortest:: Jessy 52.) Loudest:: Sara Jane 53.) Shyest:: Umm.. 54.) Smartest:: Jenny 55.) Blondest:: Oh hell, Michelle! 56.) Craziest:: All :p 57.) Sweetest:: Everybody 58.) Nicest:: Everyone! 59.) Weirdest:: Sara 60.) Flirtiest:: Jenny and me. ::_**_:: Have You Ever ::_**_:: 61.) Had a Wish Come True:: yeah 62.) Had a Dream Come True:: Nope 63.) Broken a Body Part:: I sprained my ankle, but thats it. 64.) Fallin’ in Love:: yeah 65.) Done Something You Regret:: Yeah 66.) Tripped and Fell in Public:: Probably 67.) Sang in Public:: For school, other than that..no 68.) Cryed in Public:: yeah 69.) Kissed Someone Besides Family:: Yup 70.) Been in a Car Crash:: No, but close to it. ::_**_:: The Last ::_**_:: 71.) Things You Did Before Getting on the Computer:: Ate 72.) Person You Yelled at:: Anthony 73.) Person You Hugged:: Jessy 74.) Person You IMed:: Jen 75.) Time You Cleaned Your Room:: The other day, I couldn't find my bed! 76.) Song You were Listening to:: Karma- Alicia Keys 77.) TV Show You Watched:: Top 20 Countdown 78.) Movies You Watched:: Umm, Butterfly Effect. And we didnt finish it, oops. 79.) Time You went to the Movies:: Like 3-4 weeks ago. 80.) Time You Cried:: Thursday. 2 days without crying, go me! 81.) You Took a Shower:: This morning ::_**_:: This OR That ::_**_:: 82.) Coke OR Pepsi:: Pepsi 83.) Tall OR Short:: Not too tall, but not too short. Taller than me of course. 84.) Flowers OR Candy:: Both :D 85.) Math OR English:: English 86.) Blink-182 OR Sugarcult:: Blink 87.) Mickey OR Minnie:: Minnie 88.) Middle School OR High School:: Middle School. HS is suppose to be the best years of your life right? Well mine havent been too great so far, damn STRESS! 89.) Boyfriend OR Girlfriend:: Boyfriend 90.) Single OR Taken:: Either ::_**_:: Word Association ::_**_:: 91.) bead:: Jewelery 92.) bed:: Mine of course. 93.) sexy:: EMINEM! 94.) phone:: Call me! ;) 95.) tough:: I've got a sick mind. 96.) neato:: A movie we watched in 8th grade, this little girl kept saying "neato" it was pretty gay. 97.) leather:: Jeans 98.) weird:: o! 99.) so:: buttons on your underwear! 100.) easy:: slut, whore, hoe.. whichever you prefer. 101.) test:: ickles! 102.) nerd:: uglyy 103.) falling:: hurts 104.) air:: clean! lets hope. 105.) hot:: Chad Michael Murray! ::_**_:: Random ::_**_:: 106.) do u sleep with a stuff animal:: yep 107.) do u like snowballs:: no they're cold! 108.) are u in school:: not right now 109.) do u like to swim:: yeah, its okay 110.) are u funny:: i get told i am 111.) wut do u think of water:: it's good for you? 112.) are u a blonde at heart:: me? no neverrr. 113.) have u ever been to maryland:: yeah 114.) have u seen “Encubus”:: No? 115.) are u happy this survey is over:: i guess You love me but you don't know who I am!!! Hehe, love that song. ♥

Well I guess it's good that I decided that I didn't wanna go to school today, because I woke up, and I feel like shit. I can't breathe through my nose, my stomach is killing, I have a really bad headache. Hell, I'm all screwed up. I'll live though. I had this awful dream. I don't wanna explain it, it scared me! Lol. Well everyone, I'm gonna go back to bed..I sooo don't feel good at all. I miss you, I'm sorry I didn't call last night♥

Tonight has been a good night actually. I made a new friend, the one I thought that liked my ex boyfriend. Turns out she likes one of his friends that was at their party. I feel bad, because one: I like hated her for sleeping in his truck *when he was my bf*, but then I realized, I hated her for all the wrong reasons. And two: I was being a paranoid and jealous girlfriend. Although we aren't together anymore, I don't wanna be jealous, especially not like that again. So I decided to talk to her, she's really nice and shes great. So I made a new friend tonight, thats awesome hehe. Love you allll. -Jen

Todays bus ride was so great! Me and the wonderful Sneak sat in the back with the boys. They're too great! :) Mr Wormuth was playing with my hair, hell..it felt good :p Hopefully the bus rides will be like this from now on :D I can't wait! ♥ you boys! My girls too, of course!! `Jen

Half of my life is fucking up. The other half is dealing with it. Well, my boyfriend broke up with me. I was a wreck Wednesday night and Thursday. But now, I'm taking it better than I thought I would. That's only because I'm still friends with him, and..I kinda have someone else to fall back on. For now, we're just gonna hang out and work everything out and do the Friends With Benefits thing. I've always wanted one of those! I've heard some pretty bad stuff though, that I really didn't need to know but I'm glad my friends told me. His best friend, also my friend, told me that when he called him he thought he was crying but now, he told one of my best friends that he thinks he was laughing instead. He said that he thinks that he couldn't help but laugh. That really hurt me, and that really makes me think that he's lying to me, that he doesn't wanna get back together. I don't wanna be with someone like that if they're going to be like that, it's not worth it. I'm crazy about this kid, but I can't ask him about it because I'm not even suppose to know in the first place. So now, I'm gonna go look at more quotes. Ttyl.

*A BR0KEN HEART is when you actually refuse to get out of bed in the morning because you are afraid of the reality that awaits you. *A BR0KEN HEART is when you think about the individual that broke your heart constantly. You reminisce the "Good Times" almost as if the "Bad Times" never existed. *A BR0KEN HEART is when you are crying yourself to sleep every night and yet crying more and more each morning. *A BR0KEN HEART is the unforgettable smell of his shirt that sits in that empty box; stowed away. *A BR0KEN HEART is the cold shattering feeling you receive when you hear the syllables of his name. *A BR0KEN HEART is glancing at the pictures of the two of you, and then quickly turning your attention to something else, to avoid your tears. *A BR0KEN HEART is re-reading his ancient letters and putting away the jewelry that he once bought for you. *A BR0KEN HEART is secretly wanting to run back to him and secretly wanting to just be loved by him again. *A BR0KEN HEART is asking desperately for just one last chance with the only person responsible for your loneliness. *A BR0KEN HEART is pretending to not care what his friends are saying about you. *A BR0KEN HEART is forcing yourself to hang up the phone after you have dialed the first three digits to his number. *A BR0KEN HEART is screaming and begging for a second chance inside. *A BR0KEN HEART is the emptiness and heart-wrenching feeling you encounter when you see him with his new love. *A BR0KEN HEART is knowing that no matter what you do or say to yourself, you can't fool your heart into believing that you will in fact "Be Alright." *A BR0KEN HEART is seeing him and even though it may be the hardest thing that you have ever had to do but you decide to walk away. *A BR0KEN HEART is listening to that one song that makes you break down, over and over again. *A BR0KEN HEART sometimes means: Not wanting to go on.

What do you do when your in a relationship, but you never let go of the guy you liked before your boyfriend? This is my situation now. I never let go of you and I rushed into liking someone else, who is now my boyfriend. Today is our 2 month anniversary and they have been the greatest months of my life in awhile. Now I know that these past few months, I never let go of him* and I don't know what to do now. He's calling me tonight..we'll see how things go. Got a few questions to ask and everything. But we were passing notes back and forth tonight on the bus, and his friend asked him if he liked me and he said yeah. Now more problems.. with my boyfriend this time. I think his ex likes him again..they were at a party last weekend and she slept in his truck, well not only did she sleep in his truck..but she was all over him too. I thought he was a nice boyfriend for telling me, and he swore he did nothing with her, and I believe him. Too much confusion going on in my mind right now, not sure what to think..but I do believe him, I definately do. I trust him mucho. Well music time. Hope you all have a wonderful night ♥