New pictures. MUAHAHAHA.

HOW GROSS. lol

I wish I could have a boy. Who will want to go to concerts with me. Even tho he doesnt like the band playing. Who will tell me im beautiful. When im breaking and ugly inside. Who will hold my hand and take me to the beach. Who will take funny pictures with me and tell me how long we are going to last. Who will call me and will tell me that he loves me and sweet dreams. I wish I could have a boy that lets me play with his hair and put make up on him. Who will let me know when he likes my friends or now. Who will tell me what doesnt he like on me and what he does. A boy that will understand me for who I am. A boy who likes all types of music and would like me to taste this music. A boy who will call me just after we left and see if I made it home alright. Who will call me after a huge fight and make me laugh about it. A boy who will put a smile on my face no matter what. A boy that would want to put a kiss on my lips but ask for one the first time. He would not ask for one after our first kiss but simply steal one. Boys like these dont exist here where I live. I wish they did.

Okay. What the fuck is wrong with boys They cant fuckin stick to one shit. They make me feel all nice and fuzzy. Next thing, they have girlfriends. They flirt with me and tell me they love me. No, love doesnt exist for me. Intellegence is what I have and what I need and want. Boy's that are usally all cute and boyish make me want to slap them. They are always the ones that make me cry. Im not suppost to cry. Im suppost to be tough and non emotional. Well not THAT emotional. Some guys are just F-A-G-S I wish a boy with the mind full of Intellegence but with an innocent face will meet me sometime. That would feel exacly how I feel. .. For now. Love is overrated. and Stupid. [[ SHITTY ]] Retarded.

Is it still me that makes you sweat? Am I who you think about in bed? When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress? Then think of what you did, and how I hope to God he was worth it When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie, you had me Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat No no no, you know it will always just be me Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster! So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close? So I guess we're back to us, so cameraman swing the focus! In case I lost my train of thought where was it that we last left off? Let's pick up pick up Oh now I do recall, we just were getting to the part Where the shock sets in and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick I hope you didn't expect to get all of the attention Let's not get selfish, did you really think I'd let you kill this chorus? Let's get these teen hearts beating faster, faster! So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close? Dance to this beat Dance to this beat Dance to this beat Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster! Let's get these teen hearts beating faster I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie, you had me Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat No no no you know it will always just be me Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster faster! So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Will you dance to this beat and hold a lover close? So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Dance to this beat So testosterone boys and harlequin girls Dance to this beat (And hold a lover close) Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster, faster! Let's get these teen hearts beating faster

The guy I like so much. Is going out with her. What is wrong with me.? Oh help me god. My mind wanders when Im with him. My body heat gets higher. I tremble at his touch. Laugh and think about how great this boy is. Why cant he be mine? This was no accident. This was a chain of events. To take me to the hospital. "Cant take the kid from the fight, take the fight from the kid." What does she have that I dont. Beauty? Is that it? Or is it glamour for her own look? Intellegence? I have more than her. I know that. Sit back sit back relax relapse. Ugh. Panic! At the Disco helps me cope :) How effin great is that. Fuck boys. Fuck girls. Fuck people. Fuck love...

Eww. How UGH. Grosss. Its Celi[me]

Gerard way? Gorgeous. Sonny Moore? Need I say? Boys with eyeliner? I always fall for them. Music? Love it, Need it. Boys? Always...suck. Love? I am right now. One of my good friends. Damn him. :) What kind of boys? [Emo] hair,eyeliner,longish hair,great personality,eyes [the most important thing] Describe your dream boy 1) Hold my hand before I hold his. 2) Sing to me when Im down. 3) Tell me im beautiful when Im a wreck 2) Make me smile/laugh 4) Make people mad with me 5) Be annoying to other people :) 6) Have fun everywhere we go 7) Get us kicked out of stores lol 7) Be the best he can be. That's all I ask and want. -Celi

Today. He gave me the biggest hug of all. I hope he likes me. My mind screamed to tell him. How I felt right at that moment. Everything seemed great. So right. I like this boy so much. And he knows it. But he hasnt said anything to me. I have a feeling he doesnt like me. Oh god. What else can go wrong? My friends friend went around telling everyone. That he might ask her out. I almost cried. I want this boy. Not only his he awsome. But he's so so...so great. I dont care if my friends think he has looks. I think he's the most gorgeous boy. He is to me. I LOVE everything about him. I only lie to my friends so they can just shut the fuck up. I cant say anything, that's strange. I speak what I feel. But around him I can't. I try. But I cant. Im afraid. I am not good enought for him? Am I not pretty enought for him? Oh shit. I cant lose this boy.

Okay. Now I like this guy. Named uh...Joey* So I found out that my best best best friend Andrea* likes him too. That's really fucked up. I liked a guy named Daniel* She liked him too. She went after him knowing I liked him. Went out with him for like 3 days. That's really stupid. I heard that Joey* May like me. I hope he does I would do anything to get with him. He's so perfect. Nice, cute, awsome,and other stuff you people cant know. But he's tottaly the oppisite of me. Im short. He's tall. Im chubby. He's skinny. Im not a tweeker. He is. He likes punk and hates Emo. I like both. He's amazing. I love that kid I wish I could have him. I would love him forever. I would never get tired of telling him, How much he means to me and that I love him. That with out him the sun in my life wont be able to rise. I want him to hold my hand and hug me in my time of need. I want him to make love to me. Just how two people that really love each other should. I would say to him "I love you" Every day Just to let him know that he means so much to me. I would answer his calls in happyness and I would do so much better in school. Just to be able to be with him (If I dont get good grades my parents dont let me date Its lame I know) He would be just how love should be. Wonderful and Enjoyable. sdfasd *Names changed...damnit

She is going out with Him. That hit me really fucking hard. I've liked this boy since like. A year ago. Till he moved and came back. BITCH. Not her. ME. I cant take it. FUCK LIFE. FUCK YOU ALL People arent your friends. They are backstabbers. Fuck you...

Your Ugly- he said Fuck you -I said No, Im kidding-he said Oh well fuck you-I said Hey whats your name? I like you, your sassy- He said Fuck you asshole, get a job-I said How about I pick you up sometime-He said Maybe when your nicer-I said I am nice, that's my way of flirting duh-He said Well you're mean by telling girls that they are ugly stupid- I said So whats your name seriously-He said Celi cant you hear?-I said Why are you being mean to me?-He said Because you made me mad duh-I said Well I think your really pretty and very cool- He said Your not going to get in my pants buddy-I said As much as I want that, I just want to get to know you.-He said Alright then, lets go see a movie-I said Hahaaha That's how my day went lol

OMG G.B.H is playing TONIGHT and im still grounded. FUCK. And i cant go to the BRITISH INVASION *cries* DAMNIT But I might go see Greg's band and Joey's on the 14. But Joey's band doesnt like PUNK How in the world can you NOT like punk? BUTTNUGGETS! Shit. Ericka likes Danny too. And that makes me mad. Oh well. At still i still have Adrian. But I dont really want him anymore. *dancing to HIM-Buried Alive By LOVE* That song makes me happppy lol Late. Celi

Name: Celi.. Birthday: May 12 Birthplace: California Current Location: In your crack Eye Color: Brown Hair Color: Black Right Handed or Left Handed: Right The Shoes You Wore Today: Some Checkered Vans biotch Your Weakness: My fears Your Fears: My Weakness :) Your Perfect Pizza: Pinapple, CANADIAN bacon and that's it Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: Get thru school. FUCK SCHOOL damnit Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol stupid Thoughts First Waking Up: FUCK YOU...damn Your Best Physical Feature: Depends :) Your Bedtime: Don’t have one. Your Most Missed Memory: Vincent Joseph Beaudet <3 Pepsi or Coke: They Both suck MacDonalds or Burger King: McDonalds..that's right Single or Group Dates: single Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton Ice tea Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla Cappuccino or Coffee: both Do you Smoke: Course Do you Swear: Sure fucking do. Do you Sing: Yes :) Do you Shower Daily: Everyday. Have you Been in Love: YES and It sucks..sometimes Do you want to get Married: No Do you believe in yourself: Yes Do you get Motion Sickness: No Do you think you are Attractive: lol sometimes Do you like Thunderstorms: whats not to like about them? Do you play an Instrument: Yes, Guitar In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes lol In the past month have you Smoked: Fuck yeah..AT LUNCH..FUCK SECURITY! How do you want to Die:*coughs* having sex coughs* What country would you most like to Visit: England...GERMANY!

You know what? No fuck you. This bitch at school it trying to start shit Her ass is going to go down Fuck that bitch She's going to get it one of these days Yeah, I need money. I need some damn Vodka or something OMG I hung out with this guy Whom I have had a crush on since last year We're good friends, he left last year to his dad's but now he's back. And I seriously dont want him to know that I like him It would be kinda akward. We'll whatever. Friends or not. I love that kid. He's Awsome FUCK ALL OF YOU LITTLE 10-14 YEAR OLDS THINKING THAT AVRIL LAVINGE AND ASSLEE S. ARE PUNK FUCK YOU KIDS I HOPE YOU ALL DIE!

So...I got grounded Why you ask? For sneaking out and seeing A GLOBAL THREAT for $10!! For shit I was going to go HM...but now Im grounded till.. like...eh..may No wait..... for 2 more weeks My parents dont seem to understand That when I want things my WAY I will do ANYTHING to get it my way Like it or NOT. I am in LOVE with this kid But he doesnt seem to realize it. Maybe its becuase I dont want him to know We went out [[boyfriend and girlfriend]] for 4 fucking years But whatever. YUM......GERARD WAY AND SONNY MOORE = SEX.... hahaha ttyl

As I was browsing this 10 year olds profile I can into a rather humiliating diary even It went like this "TIS KID CALLED ME GOTH CUZ I WAZ WEARING ALL BLACK WIT BLACK LIPSTICK AN MY ASHLEE SIMPSON SHIRT WIT THA TIE. TEN MY CUZIN TOL HIM THA I WUZ PUNK CUZ I LIKE AVRIL AND HE SAID THAT AVRIL WASNT PUNK BUT SHE IS PUNK. I DUNNNO WHY SHE ISNTTT PUNK SHE'S REALLLLY HARD AND I THINKS SHE WUZ METAL UNTILL I FOUND OUT SHE WUSNT AND SHE IS PUNK." What the fuck is that Stupid little 14 and 10 year olds thinking That Ass-lee simpson and Avril Lavinge is PUNK Our society is becoming more and more IDIOTIC Punk is NOT a FASHION STATEMENT Its a FUCKING way of life Why the fuck do these stupid POP celebrities wear clothes that arent made to their fit Okay yeah, They want to be REBELS Rebels my ass You STUPID KIDS GET A FUCKING LIFE GET A DOG JUST STAY AWAY FROM THE WORD AND THE REAL PUNK MUSIC.

well im bored...here talking to scott..and listening to A Global Threat im drunk..i had a couple of shots of vodka...man i shoulnt of...duck...:dances: i want a fucking cookie...oh shit guess what i get to meet gerard when he comes to cali...im going to try harder in skool so i can go to his show...ha! me and school are lie this...this is me -->+ and school is this ____> - im positive and school is negative...see how we dont get along? but fuuuuuuuck it well yeah you gotta die gotta die for your goverment die for the country thats shit... yeaya! im with adrian again...ewww lol he's so cute sometimes :/