(it's not what you think) it has been awhile since this was even an issue but i was reflecting on certain things recently and came to some new conclusions. please do not make me into something/someone that i am not. i am not what you think. i am shallow and cynical and sarcastic and insecure. i will not feel guilty about being a bitch anymore because in my mind now it was justified. i am not a girl to put on a pedestal. i can see when you look at me that you think that i am this other person. someone much smarter and better adjusted. this bothers me more than anything, more than the invasion of privacy, more than awkwardness. if you really knew me, i would dissapoint you. so don't stay so fucking pissy, i did you a favor.