he is cute and awkward. i have a little crush. i hope friday goes well. in other news: i think i need to start driving with my windows up, at least at night. or maybe just stop staring at other drivers, because it leads to uncomfortable moments such as friday night when i was sitting at the stop light and the lady in the car next to me yelled at because the large blackman in her backseat had apparently been "trying to holler at" me and i had ignored him. then she asked me if i "had a husband or boyfriend or something." i just nodded and resisted the urge to immediately roll up my window, so i didn't seem like a bitch. then the light changed. or last night when i looked at the kid in the car next to me cause i thought maybe i knew him. and then the kid slowed down and stared directly at me without saying anything for a couple minutes. maybe i knew him, he looked the annoying kid in my discrete math class. that kid drives me insane. he either talks or taps something constantly. and he loves jimmy buffet. and when he is bored or people are not paying enough attention to him he does things like randomly mark my homework with his hilighter or stare at me. which makes me think maybe that was him last night...we will see in 4th period today... also, i got rejected from national honor society. i thought that everyone always got but i guess this year since they change the process they are being more selective as well. apparetnly tons of people didn't get in this year. i'm pretty sure i didn't get in because i said that i was doing this because it would make my parents happy and maybe not think i am depressed anymore in my essay. i really did want to do it. so it is for the best that i got rejected i suppose.