Why do i always fuck things up. i had a great friendship wiv a really great guy n its neva gonna b the same i always wreck things wiv ppl n i know its my own stupid fault but im used 2 guys wanting it, i very rarely meet a nice noraml respectful guy, n i did, but he has a g/f n i pushed it 2 far, n i think i pushed it 2 far 2 go back. Normally i wudnt care n just think fuck him off but its different there was actual friendship there n its not the same nemore n i dnt think i will b again,im glad, in a way, that he didnt take up the offer, but i just wished i neva offered it in the 1st place coz its makes things awkward n strange n i hate it, i just want it 2 b the same n us have a laugh takin the piss outta each other n stuff, n now its like forced its not like it was b4, last nite was shite n i wish it neva happened n i dunno wat 2 do 2 make things different now. N so im sat in my room pissed at myself whilst every1 else is enjoy there self n im not likin it, i hate it, fuckin hell why do i always screw up so bad ....grrrrrrrrrrr xx xx xx