New year, new dairy. ive decided to keep a dairy again, hopefully everyday, part from days im not online which shudnt b that often. My life is at a really sucky point rite now, having just found out be4 xmas that i was pregant n having an abortion is a great way to start the new year, but by wednesday it will b all ova n i can move on from that chapter in my life, only 2 ppl know, so i wont have 2 keep thinking bout it when ppl see me and i wont have ppl asking me all about it so its gonna b ok, i mean im upset but ive not let myself get involved in it really so its not as hard as i thought this situation wud be, its just a bit stupid fucking mistake thats gonna go away. I wasnt gonna tell sam but i got drunk last nite n it happened, n i think he had a rite 2 know but i didnt really want him 2 know but he does n things rnt really that strange between us n i can finally let go from him now n that will be gud. I havent really dun much today i missed my lecture coz i wasnt awake by 1 o clock!! so i havent really dun that much 2day n i doubt il go 2moz so just a chilling day 2moz aswell :) i was gonna go out 2nite but i cant b arsed so il c all the guys when then get back if im not asleep coz im pretty tired n its only 11 pm! it was great 2 cum back 2 uni n c every1 , ive got a gud feeling about this year, its gonna b a gud 1 i can tell, n i really hope its gonna be Emmy x x x