i feel as if i dont care i stuffed up when i see her. change my mind when i dont. i spent today crying over someone i know i've lost forever. and it annoys me because that person used to be one of my best friends. but it's my fault. i dont blame her for not forgiving. uhh grrr idiot!! people tell me its not a big lost, but what would they know. they weren't with her. they weren't her friend. i was. and i abused it. once again. you know who you are. im sorry. forgivness isn't forgetting. understood.