Man, I could talk to Billy, back in the bar all night. We're connected. And I broke the garbage can at work too. The really cute smiley face garbage pail. I'm just a huricane of distruction. Oh! and I lost my keycard. So Sylvie had to go through all the trouble to make a new one. Seesh. Work tomorrow to, Awk Gawd. I'm never free. But I'm gonna bring my camera maybe, on my way to work. I keep seeing all these stickers with lyrical stuff written on them, Stuck upon advertisements and such. Those crunchy old tanned people. See them all over.

((catch up)) Jammin.. How many belly dancers in a week? Ferris Wheel!! over there! What a Magic Man. I'll go Crazy on you, Baraccuda. ♥ Pirate or two. Divine. The Super Nob. Rocket.

((catch up)) Bubble Gum. Caution, spilt popcorn. Goblin Caution. We'll climb. ... Or stretch and grow a rabbits tail. Tessa's corner crouch. Jenn's gonna get cha! It's Disco Fever, & She's got it badd. Not just a Big T.V. total squidge. Good dusky car rides. Ang m'deer, being all prof. and such.

It's the middle of the week, thank Ganesh! woo hoo!. Almost the weekend, how exciting. I doubt I'll see Jesse though, I think he's off doing something. Even if he's not, Brad I'm sure, will be needing his buddy-man to play golf. Whatever, I mean in a perfect world I would be able to see him this weekend and .... yeah .... I miss em, oh! but okay so after Mural painting thing after school today I went into his locker and smelt his gym shorts. Ohhhhhh myyyyy gooood-a-nesssss! his sweat is so frickin sexy, it's like so turn-on-able, his musk is like... whoooooa!, call the abulance I'm gonna faint. oh oh, and weirdly enough, I had mural painting after school which just happened to be the day I wear my masha's "Mural Mosaic" shirt.... oh! hahahaha, funny story about that too. Okay so Jesse went to this Night of Artists thing, so he knows about the Mural Mosaic thing, so when he saw my shirt he was like "oh hey! you're wearing your mural (MOSE-EYE-ECK) ... in stead of saying it like (MOSE-AY-ECK).. hahahaha, anyways but then that got onto this whole "bagel" thing and how to properly say bagel. This guy Nic (who calls me hippie jenn, and I call him Red Nic, hehehe,"RED NIC") ... anyways he was the only one who actually got it right, and he wasn't even in the center of it ... so to make sure how to say it properly, Brady and Jesse and (blah, eck, gag)Ben R. go to find out the pronouciation in this big-ness dictionary in the library. That wasn't to entertaining so I wonderd off the the computer part of it, and talked to this guy Chris J. I was telling him about the Bagel thing, and freakishly simultaniously we go BaYgel BaGgel BagAl, really really fast, it was like our own little language for a bit. ... Oh! and in social today, omg! he scared me so bad I started to cry, ... I was talking to this guy Craig, and sneak-eshly, Chris goes into my pencil bag thingy, and finds this paper I was doodling on... and writes a sentence from it on to his paper and positions it on my desk so that I'll notice it. Now the thing he wrote down was something only I would know, like it was something I made up kinda, like a saying I said when I was hyper, and maybe only one other person might know, and they weren't even in my class at the time. So when I read it out, I FREAKED OUT like "HOW DID YOU KNOW THAT!, WHERE DID YOU GET THAT!". He just laughed his ass off, and thought he was soooo clever, and was being really vauge and not telling me where he found it. Finally I got it out of him, but omg! it was soooo freaky, I started to cry. :P yeahhhhhhh......... anywho, have fun peoples, Jenn.

I FINALLY GOT BATTERIES! little test-outs :P ^ Ang ^ ^ Me ^ ... you can't really see, but I'm wearing my super funky-ness worped sunglasses ontop of my head ^ Ang ^

Oh my goood ness, just too much school I tell you. So I get to school around 7:40-ish, and stayed for lunch, which was exciting, Jesse was really cute. I had to stay until 4:00 after school for my art mural thing, AND an hour after to do something, I can't say because there is a person who might read this today, and wreck the surprise. It was like heaven when I finally got home, but it was short-lived, for I almost imediatley left agian to go and get Jesse's birthday presents thingies. Yes it's his birthday tomorrow, how exciting! 15 years baby! woo hoo! how fabulous! ... we're going out on friday, which happens to be "COWBOY" day at school, how freaky is that! Thursday is his actual birthday though, the spring fling is that day too. But anywho, very exciting. My eye's feel raw now, hmmm. oh! and for those who don't know. IT'S NATIONAL WEED SMOKING DAY TODAY!.... so smoke it up , :P lol. anyways have fun. Jenn.

It's Tuesday, and yesturday was amazing for many reasons I'll leave up to your imagination. Other than my shirt being soaked in beer and my hair smelling like pot :P IT WAS FRICKIN AWSOME!!!! AWSOME FOREVER! I loved it. I love him! oh oh! so before VR, Three Days Grace was opening, and they were funky; it took forever for VR to come on, so we past the time by counting all the people lighting up, making bets on what song they were going to play first (he totally beat me, he got it right on...my guess was at the VERY END :P), and just staring into each others eyes. Duff took off his shirt a little while into it! aaaahhhhh! and then he put this bandana thingy on omg omg! He's got the little liney thingies... like you know, right by the hips and it like comes out, like a ledge.... auck I can't describe it, but he had that and OH MY GAWD!!!! aaahhhh!! I LOVED IT! I LOVED IT! I LOVE YOU COWBOY!

IT'S TODAY!, TODAY IS THE DAY! TODAY TODAY TODAY! I'm so excited I'm jumping out of my socks!, right out of them I tell you!.... Oh oh! AND it RAINED!!! that only means good things can happen today :D... yayayayayayay! sooo excited woo hooo!

I'm not going to be a slight homebody 2 days in a row! So yesturday I was like a Homebody for the majority of the day (ahhhhh!) that should never happen agian. The only thing that "technically" didn't make me an official homebody was at 9:00 when Kieran, Josh & Connor came to my house, they did the whole JENNIIFFFERRRR yelling thing. Freak me right out! Anyways so that kinda saved me, whew. I wanted to see my cowboy yesturday. Well I kinnnda did see him, on webcam in the morning-ish. Omg, he was so sexy :P, he reminded me of a James Bondy Hugh Hefner. He was with his little dart buddy Brad, so I didn't think to go over, whatever. I miss him soooo much though, I'm going CRAZAY!!! :P I've been like craving all these CD's, but I'm like totally broke :(... ahhh, and it's not like I know how to be all techy, so I've got no clue how to do the whole downloading thing. BUT OMG...I'm just listening to dinky clips of the songs, there just taughting ME!!! ahhh -Basement Jaxx: Kish Kash -Daft Punk: Human After All -The Bloc Party: Slient Arm -Morcheeba: Big Calm -Moby: Hotel -Orbital: Blue Album -The Prodigy: Always Outnumbered, Never Outgunned -Garbage: Version 2.0 -Rilo Kiley: Take-offs & landings -The Thievery Corporation: The Cosmic Game -DJ Krush: Jaku -UnderWorld: A Hundred Days Off //Not really this one, cause I kinda have it. But I think it's awsome-ness// -Gunther: The Greatest Televised Swordsman I've Seen In Years

So it's Friday and appearently I'm going to the mall with Irma, Ashley, Another person, & maybe angela (Irma and Ang are in weird-ness) blahhhhhh, I want to be with him!, Last night I didn't get anysleep either, just fantasizing and re-playing the night. before we left for the theatre we were talking and just at the moment I was saying to Brady that I thought I really loved him, but I wasn't sure if I should tell him. Brady told me not to,But then! jesse said "Jenn, I'm tempted to say I love you". Anyways so we did, and we say it. Funny thing is, is that it wasn't that big of a deal to come out and say. You know how people make it seem that it's such a "burden" almost, to tell the person. But in this situation it just fit, it was comfortable and the feelings were marvelously mutual. I LOVE HIM, he's so cute. Ahhh! you should see him eat a Junior Mint! it's the best thing ever :D while he popped that one in his mouth I took his hand and wrote with my finger "YOU ARE SO CUTE".... a while later during the movie, he writes on my palm "I LOVE YOU". It was soooo AWSOME!... he's just so amazing I Love You, Cowboy ♥ oh but his Voice, that's another thing to. It's so calming and like the vibrations from it are mellow, and sensual, and fascinating. I could listen to him talk forever, as I close my eyes and day dream to the sounds of his voice.

Tonight was awsome, not to metion the whole day! So I went to go and see National Treasure with Jesse and Brady. The lights went down and instantly we were holding hands, he was so cute. I had the BIGGEST frickin erge to kiss him but because Brady was around I didn't. I wanted to soooo badly. So Jesse & I did the whole head resting on head resting on shoulder thing-a-ma-gigy. Awwww it's was so amazing. When he touched my leg, OMG, That was the best, His hands are marvelously, fabulously amazing! I just want to be touched all over with them :P Still soooo excited about Monday, I can't wait!!!!!! This is the locket I wrote about, sorry it's kinda blurry, but In real life. It's fabulous-ness :P

OMG OMG OMG!!! I'm jumping out of my socks soo much because I want tomorrow to be Monday! I want it to be Monday NOW!!!, right at this moment. Screw thursday, friday, saturday, and sunday JUST MAKE IT BE MONDAY PLLLLLEEEAAASEEEE! I will do anything!, fucking ANYTHING!! awwwww Monday, Monday, Monday!!! I didn't get ANY sleep last night, I was so anxious for today. Awwww, he looked so cute today, and his energy was fabulous it was so amazing just to be around him. I showed him my locket, but he asked. I hope he's not all freaked out. For the most part I could tell he wasn't... he was AMAZINGLY AWSOME!, I couldn't have imangined anyone acting more ideal in that situation. I CAN'T GET HIM OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!!! Brady said that COWBOY was looking for me to talk after school, but everybody was around so we didn't really get to AHHHH!!! awwww! A few more people know now...oh me oh my, I didn't want them to AUCK!. All through math class I was looking at my locket, which earlier was broken during a kind of tag-a-war thing against Mitchell, he wanted to know who was in it...So I told him Lucas just so that he would leave me alone. But really it was someone FAR better than lucas ;)... you betcha!

I TOLD HIM, In a matter of words I told him! as off 6:19pm on Tuesday March 22 of 2005 I told my Cowboy... he must be Really stupid not to figure it out, scince I pritty much flat out told him HE KNOWS

I've got my cowboy in a locket. I carry it around my finger. He'll be with me everyday, I'll look at him all the time. oh my gawd, I'm so gushy... but ahhh he's all over!.. everywhere.. I just can't help it, what am I to do I think he knows though, well.... he knows someone likes him, but will he be dissapointed to learn that is me?... oh me oh my

I'm in desire for my Cowboy Why does he carry stones? Why does he love them so? you should see how he holds then, he holds them so carefully, gently. They are safe in his possession. A fish looks on below. A fish is not a stone, she doubts if she could ever be. Desire. At times, with out a donkey the fish craves for the cowboy. Come, Come to the donkey cowboy. Why don't you come? Do you not want to? Oh how the fish wishes, she wishes so much. In the deep. Below. Remember the stone, it was hard, and cold. Think of the Fish. What new exciting things to explore. The Fish & The Cowboy

Hippie-ness hahahahahaha, having a bit too much fun :P

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GROUP-NESS so yesturday we all went to Lloyds (eww) but whatever it was okay. I saw the Christine chicky, I knew it!, I knew it was her!. anyways oh and there was like this indian mob thing, I swear it was indian day. oh and they played Funkytown! my little song-ness, me and angela did our little dance thing, but Ben kept screwing me up,awww that's my favourite song!:( .... oh I laughed my ass off when Connor was turning during the speed skating part of the thing. hahahahaha, it was so funny, you just had to see it! but yeahhh, anyways. I really wanna buy a shirt today, I just wanna do something!..... blah blah blah...... hmmmmm yeah okay well bye bye peace-ness So I was bored of all of my rings, I needed something NEW!, so there ya go. RING-NESS. Check em out! they are industrial art rings. They are like raw wire and, just industrial!, aren't they exciting.

This is about March 17th 2005 So yesturday I stayed at school from 8:00am to 8:30pm. I had a Jazz rehearsal at lunch, so I had to stay at the school during lunch hour (gross!) and then after school I practised poi, then hung out with Jesse, He had badmiton. Then got ready for the concert thingy. So after Jazz at lunch, Jesse like blew air in my face and Whoosh everything from my dream that night came flying back to me. It was an "interesting" dream to say the least. yeah so then... After he had his little badmiton thingy we hung out and he tried poi, he hit himself two more times, he actually fell down both times. Surprisingly he's really good at it, he's like a poi natural. So before we went to Urban I showed Jesse the girls locker room, he was curious, anyways so we go to Urban for them to buy pizza-ness (eww) and we talked about all kinds of stuff while we were waiting, so then were walking back and he wanted me to feel his biceps, Holy Crap muscle-ness, I wouldn't have thought. When we got back Jesse really wanted me to eat a pepperoni from his pizza (lol) but I didn't :P eww-er. Anyways people kept showing up, but it was pretty much Jesse and I walking around. I was waiting for Lucas to come, Every 10 sec, I would run outside and check, oph! and when I was had to get in my postition for Jazz band, *that's when he comes!* jeeze!.... but anyways I talked to him after awwww, he's got the best voice and charisma EVER!... oh but hahaha, while he was playing , in this bar of rest that he had, he leans over to this other percussionist who has really long blone hair, and points to me and says, "That's the one!" .. ahhhh! ... look at em!, he's talkin about his little fanclub! awww :P. Oh but I kept getting really weird looks from all the Gr.12 band people, like they all knew who I was, oh and when I was walking to the Band room after the concert, this dude behind me was like "it that one of the groupies?" . hahahahaha! laugh my ass off!, holy crap! oh and I saw JORDANNA!, she looks nothing like what I would have imagined, I mean from the back yes, but from the front, pff! totally off! anyways all and all it was a funky day!

Countdown of all my shit 1 Hour and 80 min until a new day 8 Hours and 80 min until I have to go to school 2 more days until LUCAS-NESS! 3 more days until the weekend 7 more days until paintings are due. 8 more days unitl Spring Break 9 more days until the Talent Show 12 more days until Velvet Revolver (still iffy, I've got no clue) 31 more days until House of D comes out! 34 more days until 15-ness (BUNJEE JUMPING, hopefully) 52 more days until Crash comes out! 79 more days unitl Lucas's Grad Ceremony 86 more days until mine & Lucas's 6 month anniversary of the first time I saw him. 107 more days until school's over 184 more days until mine & Lucas's 1 year anniversary of the first time I saw him.