life's good, the boy's good. and i am well. i don't think i'm happy with my job and my school though, it's not the path i really want to walk down. but i guess i have to start somewhere, right?

so i want something new.

it's real intersesting, so long since i've been on this and well i just laugh, honestly i don't remember writing those entries. and i'm really sad that i did. update, new boy, well 8 months, beautiful. neil and i aren't friends! AWESOME! patching everying up with everyone, [except neil]

Well i like a boy who left... i'm sad about my two friends not being together. my ex and his gf broke up and i don't really care. im sad for my other friends who lost someone dear to them. bummerface

I'm sick but I'm not sad anymore I went away last weekend and came back a different person I love changing in three days I didn't know someone could until I did. I have dykeitis and now and ear infection Yay for me.

I don't know how I should be feeling. I'm hurt I'm sad I'm laughing I'm scared I'm shocked I'm over I'm tearful I'm jealous I'm apathetic I'm stupid but what should I be feeling I'll never fall in love

I'm happy being single. but sure it makes me sad at times. i'm actually crushing on a boy. he makes me blush

Things were wonderful yesterday. He came over and opened all his presents and stocking. It was so nice seeing that boy smile and& happy. He gave me my gift and beautiful ring. It's so gorgeous. Perfect. I finally saw Donnie Darko. [good movie] ;akj;klg hahafunnyt imesa fterwards;aksjdg ;akjsdg;alksjg;laksj ;adhasdgha And then we went in my room and layed on my bed while he read me Spawn. It was sweet. It was the best Christmas I've ever had.

I'm at WILLY'S HOUSE. And& I'm waering a monkey on my head. Life's good. 1..2..Sheep..4.. Neil's coming back from hunting tonight. And Willy and I are going to get him his Christmas gifts. Peace out M-er F-ers

I miss him. I hope he comes home soon. We all need him. Is it best for him there? I have no idea. I love Willy, without him, well my world's incomplete.

Aimee has been getting jealous lately cause Madds and I have been getting closer like we were. And she's mad cause Maddie and I have inside jokes. Which is bullshit cause she was right there when Maddie and I were making our inside jokes. Now we have to include her I say no because she never jumps in the conversation. It's stupid. So yesterday I had a spider trickling down from my hair named Elliot and Xanthe and I fell in love. In art Carly said it tasted like Friday. Breanna and I agreed. My last class was just dandy, the teacher was not there and Kristina and I laughed throught the whole period. After school, I found out horrible news. Maddie and I then started walking around school we spotted Rosie and Billie J. So Maddie and I decided to sneek up on her. We mad our hands into guns and we hid behide the pillar. It was funny. Then Mr Castillo saw us and told us that we were Charlies Angels. We laughed. He said that we had to have cool names and I said yeah Maddie and Jordyn don't really work. He said it does. We walked some more and sat on a bench and when Neil and Tyler came over. We told him the story and they got into our Charlies Angel Charlies Devil or Charlies Foxes Joke. At that time I wondered why Aimee couldn't get into our jokes like they did. We walked back over to the corner and then I got pissed off. [Mean jokes that Neil said.] Anyway Madds Aimee Willy Marina and I went to Jim and Robs. Then I bought Willy food. And we all ate. Then we all crammed into Madds car. We went to Madds house and Madds and I were in her room she was fixing her jacker with a saftey-pin, when she poked her thumb with the saftey-pin, Aimee wouldn't poke her thumb so Madds asked me. I was sitting on her bed trying to poke my thumb it sucked it would not bleed. I poked it like 10 times. I was screaming funny like and we were laughing or asses off. Then Willy Beay came and I was look at him tryuing to poke my thumb when Maddie slammed her hand on the back of the safety pin. (she kept saying that you have to poke your finger on an accident to make it bleed) Thanks to my dear friend Maddie my finger bled. I asked her if she had AIDS she said no. Then we rubbed our blood together. It was soo funny. I Love that Woman. We went to the football game. And man oh man I was awready pissed off then Maddie got upset. And Aimee was really annoying. And I paid for Willy to get in the he left at the 2nd quarter. I got even more upset. Well Tori came and she met Maddie. [they like eachother] Well Maddie and I went to the old girls bathroom. I was so excited it's so creepy I love it. Aimee still pissing me off. But oh well. Madds and I had tons of fun. I guess that's what matters.

Hitting on me? Stealing me when I'm 18. haha

He likes me. He likes me. He likes me. and guess what He likes me. But only a wittle bit. I find it funny. I liked him He liked me. Nothing worked out. I got over him he got over me. And now He likes me!!! Whoa Baby.

I can't take this. I'm afraid of what? -nothing. I souldn't be acting this way. Things are wonderful. [roller coaster, yes, but still beautiful] AhhhHhh. What Pumpkin Cuteness hold does it have on me? Bloop! [fishy] Oh man stan. Life is hard. Wait wait Love is hard. Especailly when one is paranoid about nada thing. i hate girls the past ones that is. Rot in a corner then die please. Thank you.

Great!!! I'm really fallin' for this kid. He makes me soo happy. I'm not afraid anymore. I'll show him who I really am.

I can’t believe this is all real. This feeling, this dream, this sensation, this life, This day, this image, this picture, this world, my world, our world. It’s all real. Love is confusing but so is life. Life is confusing but so is love. But living both to the fullest is what I’m doing. And I can’t wait to for the next days. What will they bring? Anger, Happiness, Misery, Bliss, Pain, Suffering, or maybe even Adoration. Whatever it brings I’ll be waiting. I’ll take whatever is dished out to me. And then I’ll wait with arms wide-open for you. We’ll embrace. And all this day will be that most remembered of all.

Well I have a boyfriend. [as of the 7th] It's still surreal for me though.

I dont want to i dont want to I dont want to. This sucks...

Oh My Geebus I'm thinking I might like him. And& that would be very very bad. I'm just so confused. Maybe I never stopped. Oh wells.. I don't hear from My Carp Boy that much. So I'm all bummed. But when I do hear from him, my life feels so complete. I love it! We argue and laugh. It's real. That sounds rather lame, but it's not some bullshit conversation between two people that like eachother. And& Mr Ohji doesn't talk to me either. But man when we do talk, I just can't seem to stop laughing and smileing. But the thing is I know I don't like him. So what am I laughing and smileing soo much? All I know is that he needs a Zippo! So Things are okay. Neil Tyler and Amber came over today. And we just had tons of fun! I love them all!

I'm bored and pissed! I miss People And my mom making me live with her