so when we found out mom was getting worse tyler and i decided to move up the wedding a whole year. we got married on July 12th. It was beautiful, couldnt ask for anything else. mom passed away the 22nd oh man. has life been hard and sucked ass. i have no motivation to do ANYTHING. cook clean go-out job hunt. nothing. and to make things worse tyler has been really busy coaching football and then security at night so when he gets home its like 1130 and we just go stright to bed. sometimes we dont even talk for 10 minutes. things need to change. i hate it. he is my husband and my best friend when i cant talk to either of them it sucks. and talk about no sex life omg. if anything it made me feel better... feeling wanted and needed but when he gets home if we dont even talk how would we have time for anything else. and i tried talking to him about it tonight and then he started kissing on me and i was like no i feel like its forced i dont want to and he was like okay and rolled over like everything was totally fine when it wasnt. my feelings are hurt and he has no idea. ;amoa;hneoo;dncoerjohga;'f who actually reads these anyways. i just use it to vent.