I reflect on recent past times, as I sit, I rewind back to the part, where every situation big or small someone found a way to complicate it all. Things now a days resemble a labrynth, a maze. Complications at every wrong or right turn. A new mistake is made with each thing we learn. A burnt flag symbolizes a tare in the grand design of a great nation. If fashion flocking didn’t plague our oh so picture perfect world…, the earth within our minds, would you go on being with the crossed T’s and dotted I’s or would you escape all the hypocracy and ties. Would you escape into yourself and let you be free. Go to the top of your favorite hiding place, where you can find me. But when you find me I am gone because deep in thought is lately where I tend to be. Even though sometimes im just not at all clearly thinking. Im surrounded by a 360 web with ties of each event from me to you and others everything seems to end up tied together…, and some things began that cant be erased, that cant be undone, by so many of us, this shit that is caused, effected by all of it, being compelled may not be relevant. Is an urge an excuse for all the wrong things we choose. I don’t know why, how, when, or who…, but im pretty sure it hit me each time, especially with you. So im not sure what really to do anymore, some situations and feelings there’s no way to ignore. So with Ani, or Tori to my left, my pen and my paper are my vest, my protection for my reality and craze from my mind and heart in this selfish daze. So where do I swallow, my heart, my tears, as they creep up from behind me and trample my fears. Where do I find the strength to pull away. How can I let you know, ....I need you to stay.