Who am i fooling. I wont lose my virginity this week. I probably wont even lose it this summer. Damien gets to me so fucking bad. I dont know why i cant get him off of my mind. Seriously...theres nothing particularly special about him. Except for the fact that he CAN be extremely sweet, and he has the cutest laugh...and the most gorgeous eyes ive ever seen *melts* I got butterflies when i saw him today. I am so mad at myself. Which is why i think i need to have sex right about now. I just need to get over him. idk how i think this would help me do that. And its not like itd be with a complete stranger. It would be with my first love ...and i honestly dont think i would get emotionally attached or anything, since we aren't that attached anyways. He's just someone that i care about...and it just seems like he would be the right person...ya know? Aw hell maybe i'm just being a dumb broad. Who knows. -