Seriously, what's so great about it anyways? You get built up just to get let down. And you know what? I'm done with it. I refuse to keep hurting myself like this. 'I know I'm not falling in love...I'm just falling to pieces' He does nothing but mess with my mind. I fall so hard for him too. He tells me he loves me, then as soon as he's gone he's with my best friend, and he loves her rather than me. I fucking hate guys. I'm about ready to cry right now. I am so confused. I know I have all of these thoughts...but you know as damn well as I do...that as soon as he comes over, I'll do whatever he wants. If this...is giving up, then I'm giving up, giving up...on love. I FUCKING HATE IT. I need to learn how to harden my heart. I'm so tired of this stupid love crap. I hate it. I really wish I could learn to hate him too...