life's gotten complicated over the past few weeks, its almost unbearable. to many thoughts rushing through my head, all to horrible to describe in words. i cant even remember the last time i really felt as happy on the inside as i acted on the outside. this mask that i hide behind keeps all the real feelings hidden deep. i never used to be like this... i used to be a girl who wasnt afraid to speak her mind... who loved who she was. but ever since i've been here.. its all gone to hell. its like no-one even notices...and those that do...dont even care. i wish i was invisible as everyone makes me feel, that way they couldnt see my cry.