cut me off from the world fucker

my life...is terrible. nobody wants me....my boyfriend doesn't want me, my parents don't want me, my "friends" don't want me....not even my fucking first love wants me.... fuck all this shit. i stopped smoking cus im too fucking poorand it's bad for me, i haven't partied in like 2 weeks, and i'm gunna stop b/c it's pointless, and wastes too much of my time...so...now....im just an annoying boring whore...just like my boyfriend said. i guess he really is always right. i was skeptical at first...but now....yeah, he knows everything.
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Untitled

is it normal for your boyfriend to spend the night at some hot girl's house with 4 other hot girls.....? oh yeah, and 1 other dude. and they are all drunk. fuck. im just waiting for him to mess up. its ripping my heart out. fuck this.
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Untitled

i feel like a little girl. its like being afraid of ghosts...i cant help it. BLAH BLAH black sheep, lets all eat hay.
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smells like gum

so im sitting here thinking about shit... about how i have no idea what to do with my life. about how life is like the gum im chewing...the flavor is all gone...and its kinda rubbery. har har. fuck man. im trying to find an apartment right now..and its not going so well. either the place is really nice and expensive as hell...or a shit hole and just my price. im thinkin bout just makin friends with roaches and not go broke. anyways...im goin out for a smoke. i'll chat at you kids later. tater tots smell like buttholes.
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Today

My life sucks today... Not that anyone cares. I love Ian so much. Sometimes I wonder why, but as soon as I look at him, I feel the butterflies in my stomach. All those feelings come back. I don't understand him at all. I try so hard to make him happy. I try so hard to make everything right between us. No matter what I do, it never works. It's never good enough. Maybe that's my problem. I'm tying too hard. I realy do try. People say I'm a bitch. I don't understand that either. If I was a bitch, I'd sure as fucking hell be the first to admit it. I know I can be wrong. I know I make mistakes. nobody is perfect. I try to be perfect for him. God i love him. I try to do everything I can for him. Where did I go wrong...
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pizza

going to san marcus. i dunno why. my brother is forcing m. oh well...at least i dont hafta go to school today. woo.
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grr

grandma's cow pattys dont grow shroomies.....i dunno why...it pisses me off..... stupid cow shit...
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