My life sucks today... Not that anyone cares. I love Ian so much. Sometimes I wonder why, but as soon as I look at him, I feel the butterflies in my stomach. All those feelings come back. I don't understand him at all. I try so hard to make him happy. I try so hard to make everything right between us. No matter what I do, it never works. It's never good enough. Maybe that's my problem. I'm tying too hard. I realy do try. People say I'm a bitch. I don't understand that either. If I was a bitch, I'd sure as fucking hell be the first to admit it. I know I can be wrong. I know I make mistakes. nobody is perfect. I try to be perfect for him. God i love him. I try to do everything I can for him. Where did I go wrong...