so, just saw some pics of camp peniel work crew....fun. i dunno about you, but when i think about camp peniel, i get this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach, and i want to slit my wrists......but maybe thats just me. when i think about all the "awesome" "christian" people there...i want to throw myself out of a window...when i see how pretty all the girls are, and when i hear about how cute and nice and christian they are....i want to just die. it makes me think how terrible a person i am. and how i will never amount to anything. and how even though i try to be friendly and be fun to hang around...it never works.... and if it does work...it only lasts for awhile...like...2 or 3 weeks....pedro knows what im talking about. he's done the sarah thing. he knows its not so great. jacob knows too. cept that was for a year...and it would have been 4 months if he didnt feel sorry for me. he stayed with me b/c he knew i sucked fucking ass, and he felt sorry for me. im so...ugh.