Life is so interesting. Recently it seems like everytime I think my life is just shitty it seems to get worse. I don't know how it works. First, I'm in what I thought was a great relationship then that ends which actually may have eventually been a good thing, but then I keep getting tickets ( like speedsing and reckless endangerment). Then, for some reason I get sick for whats now been over two months if not more. And then last week my back gets kinda sore and I go to talk to my doctor and he immedeately says I have to have surgery to fix it. Well great one more thing. The problem is I cant have the surgery for a while because my immune system is just about shot from being sick. The odd part is the onething I want to do more than anything right now is to hike up to this spot. The trail is only like 3 miles but I think it would be awesome to go up there with a group of friends for a night or just a great guy. Problem is there's no way my body could do that right now. Plus I don't have a boyfriend or even the kind of friends that would want to do it or could do it. Actually its mostly the people that I would want to do it with are the people who would never be able to do it and never would have the enthusiasm to actually to pull it together. I think thats what frustrates me a lot of times is that my friends would rather go in search of a party with people they dont know rather than put some prior thought into doing something that could be a hell of a lot more fun with people that are cool friends. It always seems funny to me how my frieds think they're so much more mature. Yet there not. They act just like everyone else their age. I know I probably do to its just seems like they play things out even more. Its always kinda interesting to me. I m not saying I want knew friends at all I just wonder how it is that it seems like my friends and I just have such different priorities on things.