I just got of the phone with my exboyfriend james L. he still likes me. he still loves me.i dont know what to do.it will be two yrs in feb. since we broke up thats a pretty long time for him to still have feelings for me. and the worst part is how confused i am with how i feel about him.I love him but am i in love with him? Is there a part of me that wants him back? that misses his quirks and flaws? oh let me tell u about his flaws. he is still in the seventh grade and hes suppose to be in 9th (he was held back in kindergarden and failed seventh grade the first time).his maturity still needs some help.dont get me wrong he has improved in the last 2 yrs but he still has so much growing up to do. hes obsessed with me in a way.he has my name all over his walls he thinks about me constantly and he cries thinking about me and he writes about me and he writes to me.he carves my name into pieces of wood for fun.i love him i really do but is it that way?i ask myself again.am i in love with him?was i ever in love with him?i dont want to sound mean but i dont think i could go out with him and not go to school with him.i mean i would never see him and that bothers me.and would he be ne more comfortable with me now then he was last time? Last time he always had to ask ,is this ok ,is this ok? that got on my last nerve but are ne of these annoyiance really a reason not to go out with him?
cute diary by the way! love the colors!
(I don't really know what I'm saying... I'm trying to sound cool and I just don't think it's working!)