blarrrgghh: hellooo stephannie puckerupbukaroo: hullo blarrrgghh: how are you doing? puckerupbukaroo: muy tired puckerupbukaroo: I'm trying to think about this bartleby thing, nothing's coming to me. blarrrgghh: alright. well first off, what do you think was the message/ point of the book? puckerupbukaroo: well, it obviously concerned Melville's interjection of his ominous outlook on life. blarrrgghh: so, you believe that melville had a bleak outlook on life then? blarrrgghh: and used bartleby to show that? puckerupbukaroo: yes. puckerupbukaroo: hey, whatddoya know. there's my opinion. blarrrgghh: haha puckerupbukaroo: tterragg, you genius, you. blarrrgghh: why thank you. anyways, I believe Mr. Geib is asking you to delve into Bartleby's character blarrrgghh: I thought it would be easier if puckerupbukaroo: mhm. blarrrgghh: you knew why Melville chose to write about a person like bartleby puckerupbukaroo: you know when you just can't think? puckerupbukaroo: have you ever had one of those days? blarrrgghh: OH MY GOD blarrrgghh: you have no idea puckerupbukaroo: haha, and it seems so easy and such a trivial thing- "thinking" puckerupbukaroo: but sometimes I over-think, and then my mind completely shuts down. blarrrgghh: oh I know exactly how you feel. blarrrgghh: like you have so many thoughts you don't know where to start and where to finish them at puckerupbukaroo: yes! blarrrgghh: and then there are some days where you can't even find them puckerupbukaroo: you'll just sit down and shut yourself off! puckerupbukaroo: it's like....a road block or something. blarrrgghh: exactly. usually what I do is go outside for a walk or something and listen to music that doesn't require a lot of thinking puckerupbukaroo: my sentiments exactly. blarrrgghh: but right now- just breathe and relax. that usually helps too. puckerupbukaroo: of course my five second attention span also makes things a bit harder, haha. blarrrgghh: true, I know what you mean. but just relax and I'm sure you can calm down and make some sort of order in that head of yours blarrrgghh: another thing I did blarrrgghh: (and I put this in my commonplace book too- fun fact) blarrrgghh: during one point of this year (a couple of months ago) blarrrgghh: I was having a really, really hard time thinking blarrrgghh: I mean, I usually think a lot and too much. not only that, but I'm way overanalytical blarrrgghh: and it got to the point where I couldn't handle any of it anymore and I was nearing the point of a breakdown, whatever blarrrgghh: so I just sat down at my computer around 2 in the morning blarrrgghh: and started typing everything I was thinking about blarrrgghh: even if it didn't make sense blarrrgghh: or if it was a fragment, I just wrote it down blarrrgghh: and that helped a lot. anyways, the point is- you could just try that too puckerupbukaroo: see, I find I'm more of a Conversationalist. puckerupbukaroo: I can't type my feelings very well, because my mind is faster than my fingers. blarrrgghh: oh man blarrrgghh: alright then, this is the closest thing to an actual conversation. you're welcome to try that out if it makes you feel better blarrrgghh: with me, I mean. puckerupbukaroo: well, thank you for the offer puckerupbukaroo: but typing?? I just can't grasp...it. if that makes any sense. puckerupbukaroo: that's why I'm making a video for my next commonplace puckerupbukaroo: I think that people can get to know me better through actual conversation blarrrgghh: makes total sense. that sounds like a really cool idea, if you ask me blarrrgghh: so are you just going to talk into a video camera for half an hour? or is it going to be more of a movie on your life, sort of thing? puckerupbukaroo: why thank you. puckerupbukaroo: kind of a scrapbook with video clips, if you will. puckerupbukaroo: there's going to be voice overs, but sometimes I'm just going to lug the camera around on a school day or something. puckerupbukaroo: "a day in the life" type of thing. blarrrgghh: oh man, that's so cool puckerupbukaroo: I know, i'm so excited! puckerupbukaroo: someone from film making is going to help me edit it. puckerupbukaroo: I couldn't work my way around a computer if I tried. blarrrgghh: haha, that could be quite problematic blarrrgghh: I hope it works out though blarrrgghh: are you still having problems thinking, or are you better now? blarrrgghh: I've got some songs that might help you out, well- hopefully anyway puckerupbukaroo: you see, now comes the "antsy stage" puckerupbukaroo: I kind of want to run around outside. puckerupbukaroo: without actually getting up, of course. puckerupbukaroo: haha blarrrgghh: oh, right. that makes sense puckerupbukaroo: oh, tteerraagg, when does anything ever make sense? puckerupbukaroo: especially when it's coming from me, lol. blarrrgghh: nothing in life ever makes too much sense- there's just a lot of things we don't understand puckerupbukaroo: heeeyyyy i'll be right back. hold that thought. blarrrgghh: alright puckerupbukaroo: okay sorry blarrrgghh: it's fine. I worded my statement wrong anyway puckerupbukaroo: but on that same token, I think that there are things we were NEVER meant to undertsand. blarrrgghh: ironically anyway- the topic being about things not making sense puckerupbukaroo: mhm blarrrgghh: how so? puckerupbukaroo: I think that (this is quite general, I know) the mysteries of life ARE life. that the actual living is IN the mystery. I don't think that we should focus on finding the slope of a rose petal. I think that we should cherish that rose petal because it IS a rose petal, and it's a mystery to us. a beautiful mystery. blarrrgghh: that makes a lot of sense puckerupbukaroo: good, I'm glad you can understand what I'm saying. not many people can comprehend my thought process. blarrrgghh: well it reminded me of the whole thing where we should just accept things for what they are blarrrgghh: and that delving further destroys the beauty of it puckerupbukaroo: accept it, and cherish it. puckerupbukaroo: yes, exactly! puckerupbukaroo: the beauty is IN the mystery. blarrrgghh: right. yeah, I like that puckerupbukaroo: mhm. me too. puckerupbukaroo: and it makes me happy thinking about it. puckerupbukaroo: to some it may feel depressing- I won't go into my views on religion or anything right now, but a lot of people have to have a direct scientifical answer because they can't stand to feel insignificant in the world. blarrrgghh: right- that they need some sort of validation on their life puckerupbukaroo: yes! puckerupbukaroo: but I think that's the beauty of it puckerupbukaroo: we're so small and insignificant, yet life is so MONUMENTOUS. can you imagine how BIG things are out there? puckerupbukaroo: and even though it may not matter to other beings looking down on the earth, I still find joy in a flower and in the grass, and in the sun and the trees. puckerupbukaroo: and those looking down on us may think it's insignificant puckerupbukaroo: but it's really not puckerupbukaroo: it's the minute details (in relation to not just our life, but everything out there)--- LIFE is big to us because it's all we have. but what is big to us may be minute details to someone else. puckerupbukaroo: and even though I'm not going to change the entire chemistry of the human race, I still stop to smell the roses (if you will) because it makes me HaPPY . blarrrgghh: right blarrrgghh: and even if we are essentially nothing compared to space and the largest things ever created blarrrgghh: the beauty in life and the emotions we feel in it, are big things upon themself puckerupbukaroo: yes!!!! puckerupbukaroo: exactly! blarrrgghh: so what if we aren't the biggest things in the universe? I love feeling, and that alone is something that keeps me happy puckerupbukaroo: fda;kfdad; puckerupbukaroo: garrett- exactly! puckerupbukaroo: no one has ever put my feelings into their words before blarrrgghh: I think it's because I feel the same way puckerupbukaroo: yes, but, most people say that they feel the same way- but I've always felt that I'm different, that I think about things differently because i think in EMOTION. to find something that is right to me I FEEL it out....I imagine the situation in my head and FEEL. and I know that sounds wierd, but my point is that I always thought I could feel things deeper than others in a way. puckerupbukaroo: but man oh man. I think we're A LOT a like in some aspects. blarrrgghh: haha, apparently. I know what you mean blarrrgghh: thinking only can get one so far- it's feeling that makes us live blarrrgghh: even if it's pain blarrrgghh: it's something we still feel blarrrgghh: I think blarrrgghh: that feeling is something that validates my life blarrrgghh: that I know I'm alive, at the least. blarrrgghh: that in the endless void we live in, I have the capacity to feel anything I want to blarrrgghh: and that in itself is somewhat validating and gives life meaning puckerupbukaroo: garrett I love you!