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hey! OMG!! i fucked up sooo bad ashley found out that i tried weed! and it suxL:( and my friend told me that she said to him "who should I go out with" that got me really pissed but id say sumthin to her but she will kill me! i beleive people that she used cause she thinks im hot and i never beleived that until my friend told me what she said. and now my bestestest friend manda i fucked up with her 2. ok i went to a friends house on thursday and i said to manda i would hang out with her but i dint. and heres the reason why she wanted me to go to her house but i looked at pauls house before i went to joshes and i saw her in his house. so i dint go cause i prolly would never be able to leave pauls but hey i hope she still loves me like a bro!! LYLAS! MANDA!

hey people this is one of the best songs ever so do me a favor and listen to this song and the band. THEY KICK ASS! ""So the light now is my weapon Like a bush dried and withered in the sun With a spark I’ll go up in flames I'd lay my guts down but they’re too small to see It’s kinda cute how I pretend to be Everything but the instrument I am. peace or happiness So "let it enfold you" A birth to life is what I'm after My first name won’t be my last one Let the light just drip into your eyes So it’s true my words are contrived I tell lies just to get into your mind I’m as fake as a widow’s smile This mask of glass is what I choose to wear So I won’t ever have the need to bear To tell the truth to anyone but me peace or happiness So "let it enfold you" A birth to life is what I am after My first name won’t be my last one Let the light just drip into your eyes And I am dead, your eyes are light I’m just a bad actor stuck with a shitty script All of my lines are cheap and the cast is weak There was no music for the first time I got kissed There was no femme fatal my mistress wasn't rich So I’ve been formatted to fit your TV screen The film went straight to tape I'll bow out quietly Please do this now I beg Duct tape my arms and legs Throw me into the sea Please save me, please save me Now watch the waves eat me Setting my cold heart free I'll wash the shore in weeks You cant save me now

hey long time no type! well not alot happened since the last time i wrote but oh well. i guess and think me and ashley r doin good. well on the four day weekend my friend stayed over and we talked about the good stuff=D and then on friday i went to rock solid and saw ashley i love her sooooo much dude omg it wa sooo fun to hold her for that long!! i miss it already hahahaha then we went to mcdonalds this one chick was on shrooms she was sooooo funny! then we went back to cock solid and that was fun shit yah right boring! but its better than being where i live i fuckin hate life out here everyone is moving=(

hey dkutch u got fuckin problems dude. im not fuckin trailer trash kid! and dude umm u should maybe go hang urself with a phone cord or go cut orsumthin like that! god u fuckin bastard if i had the chance to fuckin beat ur ass or kill ur ass i would i dont care if id go to prison or whatever!!! im sick of ur fuckin shit dude so stop fuckin talkint shit then ill stop!! but hey u prolly dont even know how to read so why am i waistin my time?!?! no offense cassandra but i think dustin is a waiste of time and u can get someone better than that but hey thats my opinion dustin so dont freak or spaz out on me! JaKe

hey hey! yay on friday i saw ashley at rock solid and we hung out and talked! and then awhile after i asked her out:D:D:D then we ran around town fun shit yo! and before she left she kissed me 2 times:D:D:D wow shes a good kisser!!!! i hope its lasts along time i like her soooooooooooo much dude!!!!!!!!!!!!! yea ive been skating everyday now and it kix ass i love skatin! and i miss ashley sooo much awww i wish i could see her 24/7!!!!!! i have no idea what i would do with out her!!!!! but yea im bored as flyin fuck! I wanna go to a party for some odd reason and get plastered it would be soooo much drinkin it uppers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ASHLEY!!!!!!!!!

people! i guess i dont like nikki i just think shes niceand really hot! i dont even know why i said that i like her i did but i dont now! i realized that i dont just like ashley i love her and i swear to god i do!!!!!! i miss her sooo much and she told me that she likes cole alot and i told her straight up that i like her soooooooooooooooo much and she dint really care. she keeps tellin me that she thinks cole doesnt like her and every mornin durin school she says jake wheres cole and i say upstairs! i wish i could show her how much she meant to me but hey i blew it and prolly wont ever get antoehr chance and i hate myself for doin all the things i did. today i thought bout all the things i use to do like huff and all the stupid things like that. even tho i sometimes wish i would of actually killed myself while doin that stuff! i wanna go back out with ashley sooooooooo bad and got soo mad at myself when she told me why she broke up with me! now i know that im dumb and fucked up. i wish i could make ashley like me again. and today online i told her i use to do alot of bad stuff and she got soooooooo mad i felt soooo bad but hey i wantewd her to know the real me i guess, cause there is sooo many people in just one person, u know that? i found that out the hard way!

hey!!!!! today i dint go to school cause i felt like fuggin shit! and it sux. i slept and listened to music all day. tomorrow im goin to school yay woohoo fun shit boring!i hope ashley and cole go out even tho it might bother me for awhile cause they r both my friends and i went out with ashley and cole is one of my bestestest friends! i hope austin my bestestest friend stays over on friday or saturday. im goin to rock solid on friday and skatin FUN STUFF!!!! ahhhh dude i wanna see SLIPKNOT and the used and system of a down and tbs and matchbook romance and all my other favorite bands live!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE MUSIC IF THERE WASNT MUSIC I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT ID DO!!!!!

hey today was okay i guess except for now i know that ashley really does like my friend:( i like her soooo much.i wish i could have it my way i sometimes wonder why ashley stopped likin me and why she started likin cole:O sux balls i tell ya.i want ashely back soooooo bad but i blew my chance!!!! and i hate it!!!!!!!!! but hey someone help me with this mess.well anywayz off that subject man i skated again today soooooo much fun but yeah im gettin alot better!i love skatin!!!!!!

hey people! this weekend was okay and stuff! i skated way to much today and my legs r soo sore and i skated with my nuddy scott and austin they kick ass!!!and im gettin soooooo much better at skatin:D i got my friends bands cd today and it kix ass i love them! ahhh dude i wanna go out with ashley:| not cool shit dude. yesterday i hung out with amanda my bestestest friend but then again amelia the i dunno had to come which fucked the whole day up!!!!! but yah someone buy me a new board!! SEE YA!!!!!!!

I LIKE ASHLEY SOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!! and i came online and shit and i talked to manda my bestestest friend. and i started talkin bout ashley and she said that there r three people who think im fuckin dumb for goin out with her cause they heard that she is goin out with me cause no one else will go out with her.i dont know what to beleive anymore so i think im gonna talk to her about it and see whats gonna happen. I HOPE ITS NOT TRUE! but yea this friday is fun night i dont think im gonna go to it. i think im just gonna go to rock solid and fuck around. I LOVE YOU ASHLEY!! I HOPE U FEEL THE SAME!!!

hey!!!!! long time no type!!! anywayz school is back in session and it sux majorly i hate it!!! well ive been skating again alot lately and it rox man i love skatin even tho i suck. well ive been goin to rock solid to hang out with friends on firday nights and i skate with them and all that good shit! yea i met the girl who i like in school and like a week after i asked her out and now we r goin out and it kicks fuckin ass man!!!!!!!! shes the best:D:D:D:D:D see ya

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