the biology eoct was harder than i thought it was going to be. it was harder than everyone thought it was going to be, i think. all of the tenth graders said that it was easy, but most people i've talked to don't think so. it seems like we go into so much detail with certain things in biology, that we miss some of the basic important things on the test. i think i got a b- which will keep my a, but i was hoping for more. i need to study for language arts eoct, now. it's tomorrow. i met chelsea on the bus today. the one who comes into mrs. scoggins room alot. she is a pretty good writer. i read the prologue to one of her stories and it was really good. i should study. good luck to me!

it's about the e-mail. i don't know what they're going to do yet, but it's something. biology eoct tomorrow, so i hope i'll do well. which is why i can't type much. i might go see 'stick it' on friday before i go to the volleyball picnic. i'm not going to the sand tournament. it's from 10 to 6 and i need to study and read my book for biology. my dad wants me to spend the night friday, but i don't know if i have time. on saturday, my mom has a ga state picnic that i'm going to part of (12-4). i want to see him, but it will be easier when eoct's are over. i must study. a couple people said they liked my shirt today. :)

haha! emily, em and addie went skinny-dipping at addie's pool on saturday night at about 10:15, making me the only person who hasn't. we're probably going to go this summer again, and i will have had the experience by the beginning of tenth grade. i felt good at school today, in sync with everyone. hopefully the thing with me and addie was a 'just-one-of-those-days' things. i think addie and emily are planning something though. when i walked up to them at the movie theater, they were talking about a red- mean and blue- cause guilt. i didn't hear the whole coded conversation, but sandra said that they were going to do it to me. i mentioned it in a note i wrote. now the question is, is it about the first class e-mail and is sandra in on it. i'm hoping to know soon. yesterday i went to my cousin's baby shower. i got to play with ryan, now six months and the twins, sarah and caroline, who are about three, i guess. ryan is only 14 pounds, so you can carry him around and play with him and your arms don't get tired. the twins were fun to play with too and they're getting so big! stephanies due in about four weeks, i think. lucy will be here before we know it. i should be studying for my biology eoct, so i need to do that. good night, me!

today emily, em, erik, sandra, addie, addie s. joya, eryn, patrick and i all went to see 'take the lead'. it's strange, because it seems that addie and i haven't been clicking right lately. sandra and i, on the other hand, seem to be growing closer than we were before. i know andrea will always be her best friend, but i'm glad that we're getting together more than we used to. i digress. the movie was good. antonio banderas is pretty good looking and it was a feel good kinda movie. that movie and 'shall we dance' both make me want to take a ballroom dancing class. that's what i want to do when i get a steady boyfriend; take ballroom dancing classes. during the movie addie would say something to me, patrick, emily or sandra, but she would say it loudly. i would shh her, but then she would say it louder. i think it bothered me more than anyone. i'm one of those people who don't appreciate it when people talk in movies and i didn't want to ruin the movie for anyone. after the movie, most everyone was getting together at addie's for pizza. sandra told me about it and i couldn't go anyways, but i felt kinda hurt that i hadn't been told. i don't believe that it was intentional, but being left out has and probably will always be a sore spot or a paranoia. just because of middle school and my whole history with them. em called earlier that day, while my mom and i were at the gym, and she was probably going to tell me that, but i don't know. addie and i had never been particularly close. i've never really had a best friend out of the group, although most of them have had or still have one. addie was closer to me than alot of them for a time and i feel farther from her than ever. 'particularly close' means best friends, we were closer though. oh well, i shouldn't dwell. i know i can be annoying, but it still isn't fun (andrea at lunch and the exasperated 'good grief', but i got above 100 on biology, now didn't i?). some days i feel completely out of sync, and others completely in. i'll just leave it at that. mom and i went to monterey for dinner which was good. i need to be studying now, so good night moon. good night.

well. i haven't been on in forever. i just remembered i had an online diary, so i thought i'd visit. hopefully i'll be going with a bunch of people to see 'take the lead' tomorrow and i have my cousin's baby shower on sunday. as this is for me to have when i'm older, i guess i'll go ahead and be comprehensive. on may 31st, i believe, at about 10:30, kathryn, sabrina, bethany and maggie were riding together in kathryn's little red car (it was the last day of school). they were speeding and turned a corner and hit a light post. kathryn died on april 4. maggie wasn't hurt badly physically. bethany is doing alot better than at first. sabrina broke part of her leg and jaw. andrea and i went to the soccer game dedicated in her memory on friday. it was really fun to watch. sabrina was released from the hospital the previous day and came for part of the game. we tied with druid hills 1-1. virginia was there and got to play alot. she's really good! i'm kinda worried about her though. alot of the girls at druid hills seem to drink. their attitudes about drinking, drugs and sex aren't what i view as the best, and i'm worried that she'll be influenced by them. i'm not as worried about ariel when it comes to that, but i miss them both. andy and i gave her math to study! hopefully she won't keep it as long as she did last time. after that we went to em's party. we missed the easter egg hunt, but had a mini one the next day. we watched high school musical which was awesome! it's one of those cheesy disney movies, but it was better than most and you can't help but love it. we then stayed up until four talking and did a fair amount of crying as well. we got four hours of sleep, because we got up at eight so we could go to a walk for kathryn. it was a beautiful day and there were alot of people there. teachers from kittredge were there and i know her mom and sister were too. erik and micheal walked with us, so em and erik got some quality time together :). sunday was easter and i had to be at church at 7:30. we sang and i really enjoyed the services. the whole family, except susu, got together for brunch after church. i got see katherine and had a great time. and i got to have chocolate!!! it felt more like summer than any other weekend. my mom and i pulled weeds for 2 and a half hours and then i watched my three hour block of television. i'll try to keep this up-to-date, so i can look back later and look at what my life was like. i need to clean my room now, so i'll write more later. auf wiedersehen!

it certainly has been awhile, huh? hmmm... i don't even know what to say. volleyball was alot of fun and our varsity may make state! i really hope so, because that would be really exciting. our last day of b-ball try-outs for the week were today and our last day in all is monday. if i don't make it i won't be as disappointed as i would have last year because then i'll get to do club volleyball. i should really try to come by more, but oh well. no time really and my internet's been down for a while. i at least got a 25 on my german quiz today! everyone failed though, so i didn't feel too bad. and for halloween, as it's coming up soon, i need to find someone to come with me trick-or-treating. i don't feel too old, although i'm sure i'll get comments like last year. homecoming was awesome! that's all i'll say for now but i'll try to write about it later. if i don't write again til Christmas, Merry Christmas!

wow. it's been a while. quick update. we had county. we were bad. 5th or something. 5th in both relays. 18th in free. 6th in breast. the only thing that changed was med relay. from 8th to 5th. volleyball tournament mon. through today. we went 7 and 9. not horrible considering we had two 9th graders (me and my friend) and only 7 people in all. it was fun. i'll write more later. a promise to myself. i got to call someone now. ttyl. that was strange. i don't abbreviate like that usually. later.

last semester g.s- 84 science- 97 german- 98 l.a.- 84 math- 99 forgot strings pe- 100 this semester g.s- 77 science- 120 german- 93 l.a.- 85 math- 92 didn't ask strings art- 100

Your instinct has its advantages all the time... This is freaky as anything...DO NOT CHEAT (You'll will kick yourself later) I was a little skeptical trying this, but if you follow the instructions to the "t" you'll be surprised!!!! All of my answers were accurate. We'll see tomorrow if the wish comes true. I'll let you know. Take 3 minutes and try this...it will freak you out! The person who sent it to me said her wish came true 10 minutes after they read the mail. BUT NO CHEATING! This game has a funny/spooky outcome. Don't read ahead...just do it in order! It takes about three minutes...it's worth a try :) First..get a pen and paper. When you actually choose names, make sure it's people you actually know and go with your first instinct. Scroll down one line at a time...and don't read ahead or you'll ruin it! 1. First, write the numbers 1 through 11 in a column. 2. Then, beside numbers 1 and 2, write down any two numbers you want. 3. Beside the 3 and 7, write down the names of members of the opposite sex. NO LOOKING AHEAD...OR IT WON"T TURN OUT RIGHT! 4. Write anyone's name (like friends or family....) in the 4th, 5th, and 6th spots. 5. Write down four song titles in 8,9,10, and 11. GO WITH YOUR INSTINCT PEOPLE!!!! 6. Finally, make a wish. And now the key for the game..... 1. You must tell (the number in space 2) people about this game. 2. The person in space 3 is the one that you love. 3. The person in 7 is one you like but can't work out. 4. You care most about the person you put in 4. 5. The person you name in number 5 is the one who knows you very well. 6. The person you name in 6 is your lucky star. 7. The song in 8 is the song that matches with the person in number 3. 8. The title in 9 is the song for the person in 7. 9. The tenth space is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind. 10. and 11 is the song telling you how you feel about life NOW...post this bulletin (dont reply) within the hour... IF you do.. your wish will come true... If you don't it will become the opposite u must post this in another room in 3 hours!!!! GOOD LUCK note: remind emily to do her little thingy when at her house.

no more school. i'm just glad i don't have to do work any more. keila and i wore our hearts on out sleeves today, but no one got it. we got these little painted heart pins in art so i was excited and said, "i'm gonna where my heart on my sleeve." keila got it so we wore our hearts on our sleeves. unfortunately, however, no one else got it or thought that it was funny. we did at least. were amused by it that is. on the horizon- cousin's graduation tommorow. hehehe, it'll be fun. probably won't see much of her, but i like going down there. books- still working on it. i went to school with one book and came back with four. two from fei-fei and one from ginny, all mine in reality. tv- carter left. the last original cast member. well, susan was on it from the begining, but she took a little hiatus there in the middle so she wasn't on it the whole time. season finales are this week! stories- i read addie and virginia's story. it was pretty good, i enjoyed it. this little four year old. i guess i shouldn't say. after all, it's not my story to tell other- we played cards again today. spoons and sniper. our last ever lunch with all of us there probably.

forgot the list: on the horizon- shhhhh... it's a secret books- second helpings and soon the sisterhood of the traveling pants. tv/movies- sisterhood of the traveling pants, crash, and season finale of all my shows! house was soooo good on tuesday. i'll actually do a quote from memory: "God gave us beer because he wanted us to have fun," ben franklin. i don't know if that's right but it's the best i could do from memory. i'll check later to see if it is.

well, i have the first two sentances of my story. i don't have an anything for this one, but whatever. we have one more day of school left! thank you God! finals so far: g.s.- 77, oh yeah (i didn't study cause i had a 108.5 in his class and i still passed). math- 92 german- 93 science- 120, the highest grade possible with extra credit. tommorow i've got art, lang arts and strings. ginny's writing a story, it's political. she's only got about the first chapter, but it's really good. well-writen and interesting. i'm looking forward to seeing how it goes. we got to play bullshit again at lunch today. after german too because we had almost two hours after the finals ended to do whatever. so we looked at the room from different perspectives (as if we were the teacher, or a poster, or a different student) and played cards. we got pizza for lunch and everyone was there but andy. oh! i found out some interesting information when i went to pick up my portrait. several of us hated em last year. apparently she was mean to andy, but she doesn't remember that and neither do i. so i was thinking did i just not pick up on it? on the bus i was trying to remember last year and i really can't. i don't remember who was in my classes. all that i remember is basketball and mr. streich's class. and a few specific events. not much though. hmmm... maybe the aliens came and did experiments on me and sent a decoy in my place. it wouldn't be hard to trick them, especially if it was aliens. i remember 6th better than 7th grade, so that must be it. it was the aliens.

poem of the day "fall" from "sloppy firsts" by megan mcafferty Fall We are Adam and Eve born out of chaos called creation Ribbing me gave you life yet you forget there will always be be a part of me in you yes I taunted and tempted you with my forbidden fruit does that make me the serpent too? Believe what you will but if I am exiled alone I know we will be together again someday naked without shame in paradise My thanks to you for being in on my sin

nothing at all happened today. yay! i have tons of homework so i should be going soon. gotta suprise party on sun. but shhh, it's a suprise. hmmm... we'll be playing cards tomorrow at lunch, hopefully spoons and i've got my first final. on the horizon- suprise party. i'm not very happy today. woo hoo. school- almost over, 3 DAYS. books- second helpings, pretty good. tv- too much. crossing jordan was really good last night though, i hope macy doesn't leave. they left open the door for many possibilities. so long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, adieu.

my poem/thought/topic/message/quote of the day. from "the perks of being a wallflower" by stephen chobsky. pg. 70-72 i can't do it cause the lines will get messed up but everyone should read it. the book. i'll do one next time. it's called fall from another book. i tried. well, i know where it is at least. toodle-loo!

lalalalala! wow, nothing is really going on. i wanna do something on friday, but i don't know what and most of my friends are already doing something i.e. graduation. i'm going to my cousins on saturday but their brothers are on friday and they have all of their parties and stuff over the weekend. i'll probably go home and sleep. i'm finally done with my portrait in art but now we've started imaginary birds that we had to make up. i swear i will never finish. i am the slowest person there. we're supposed to have some kind of pattern on them and i realized mine doesn't really have a pattern. so i asked ms. diggs if this would count off and she says "no, yours is okay, it's a random pattern." that is now my favorite oxy-moron. i'll write about the weekend later. i don't have time now. what's goin' on: on the horizon- blissful nothingness. i'm going to some bball and vball camps but that's about it. resolutions- i will stay up and sleep late over the summer. i will pick a science fair topic. i will run on the mornings after the nights i do not stay up late. books- on second helpings now. sloppy firsts was hilarious! i loved it. movies/tv- saw monster in law on friday and despite negative reviews, i thought it was good. i plan on seeing the sisterhood of the traveling pants once i've read the book with em prob. since most of my shows end next week:desp housewives, l&O: svu, grey's anatomy etc. i will officially adopt the closer, the 4400 and strong medicine as my shows for the summer. hehehe, i have an idea for a story i'll be writing. i'll probably post it by couple of pages.

lizzie brought wine to school today. not purposely of course. she had a capri-sun fruit punch thing and apparently it fermented and became wine. it was hilarious. they sit at the table next to ours so we passed it around and smelled it/ had a sip and the consensus was that it was wine. she showed it to cope, but cope told her to pour it out. i was for a time, however, highly amused. nothing really happened today. i dunno. i did almost finish my portrait though. finally! i just have the background and my shirt left, both of which will be purple. keila and i also discussed cussing. i'm not really certain why cuss words are bad, except that adults tell us they are. so i think they're bad i guess. i don't know what i think. except i don't cuss, partially because i think it's crude language and i have no reason to. people should have other means of expressing themselves not by cussing. it also kind of takes away from the word. kind of like i resolved to stop using the word unique so much because when overused it doesn't mean as much. if you call alot of things unique, it becomes pretty much normal and takes away from it. when you cuss all of the time then when you're really angry at something you have to string together a long strand of cuss words. it's not really expressing anything and it takes away from the true meaning of the word. i only really cuss in speech for some reason. thought i would mention that for some reason. that's my thought of the day. what is going on: tv- elvis books- sloppy firsts, sounds kind of weird, and it is, but it's really good. now- nothing, i'm bored which is why i'm here. resolutions- keep writing. maybe i'll have a topic or something that i have to write about. i don't know. today's was cussing. there you go. friends- no news. andy was absent again.

8 DAYS, 8 DAYS!!! yes, only 8 more days of school. thank the lord for that. i've actually started getting tired when i don't get enough sleep. now there's an odd concept for you. mrs. chenny is finally back after being out forever with bronchitis. i have to do my journal entries soon or i'll get into trouble. well, not really, but i won't get a good grade on them. the math test was really easy today. i should have gotten a good grade on it. emy-lou was getting a bunch of teeth pulled today so she had to get laughing gas. hahahahaha!! andy is apparently mad at s because (this is the suspected reason) of patrick. my take is that she feels kind of left out because she's used to having her all to herself. that sounds very possesive, but it's just a big change for her. now i'll set up categories and write in them: on the horizon- hmmm... i might be going to the movies with katie and addie this weekend. what else... well, we get out of school and i'll probably go to a few volleyball camps over the summer. and probably try out for jv. books- i'm on my 9th or 10th patricia cornwell book. 8th or 9th kay scarpetta one. jaclyn moriarty's the year of secret assignments was hilarious. i loved it! tv- tonight house and l&o: svu is on and new. yay! i'll probably watch some of my elvis movie tonight too. medium was good last night. i'm still sad about third watch. i will never see a new episode again. i best get going. my resolution, however, is to write in this thing more regularly. i need to go to the bathroom now. and don't worry, i won't fall in.

i'm gonna go feed the cats and watch manny putting a rose on maritza's (cruz's) grave one more time and probably cry about it. it wasn't supposed to go like that though. cruz and manny were supposed to be in anti-crime and on the streets still. she was supposed get better. find someone. be happy. manny was supposed to tell her what he thouhgt and she would be able to open up to him. she would go to church again. she used to. god, i'm making myself sad and it's just a damn show. but she wasn't supposed to die. i would have rathered anyone else died and would have had varying degrees of sadness. but not her. their boss, sasha, ty anyone but her. bosco. she kissed bosco right before she died. at least she did. and if she had to die i'd have wanted her to go out like that i guess. she took as many of them with her as she could and i'm sure she was happy about that. cleaning up the streets. didn't agree with her, but loved it anyway. and she'll see her sister. that's good. it was the first show that i've had die on me. i've started shows after they were already gone but i've never had one die. there's this one with sam from west wing but that only lasted a season so i didn't really know the characters. i've only watched the last two seasons of third watch. well, part of the one before this one and then this one but i had watched the reruns on ae for a while so i knew the characters. loved them. faith was my favorite before cruz came along. i loved ty and sasha too. and grace, carlos, doc, bobby, jimmy, kim, holly, emily, finney and bosco and sully. they were cool man. i loved them all and any i didn't mention. it feels like i've watched since the beginning. it's so sad. i realize that it's just a show but i'll still say goodbye to camelot. on the corner of king and arthur. where heroes went and prepared to battle evil. i loved all of you on third watch. acting was great, if only there were one more season. loved you maritza cruz. i hope you're happy, and with you're sister again. loved you third watch. goodbye camelot.

well,on a happier note the dance was alot of fun. we danced some talked some didn't eat much. sandy and patrick danced together naturally and i danced with brian and clay because i felt like dancing with someone. the song since you've been gone will forever make me want to dance. all the girls dresses were really pretty too and the only one of us who couldn't come was em because she had a dance rehearsal or something along those lines. we also decided that we would now start charging 5 bucks a picture what with all the pictures the parents took last night and the night before (honors night) we could make a fortune.