i'm gonna go feed the cats and watch manny putting a rose on maritza's (cruz's) grave one more time and probably cry about it. it wasn't supposed to go like that though. cruz and manny were supposed to be in anti-crime and on the streets still. she was supposed get better. find someone. be happy. manny was supposed to tell her what he thouhgt and she would be able to open up to him. she would go to church again. she used to. god, i'm making myself sad and it's just a damn show. but she wasn't supposed to die. i would have rathered anyone else died and would have had varying degrees of sadness. but not her. their boss, sasha, ty anyone but her. bosco. she kissed bosco right before she died. at least she did. and if she had to die i'd have wanted her to go out like that i guess. she took as many of them with her as she could and i'm sure she was happy about that. cleaning up the streets. didn't agree with her, but loved it anyway. and she'll see her sister. that's good. it was the first show that i've had die on me. i've started shows after they were already gone but i've never had one die. there's this one with sam from west wing but that only lasted a season so i didn't really know the characters. i've only watched the last two seasons of third watch. well, part of the one before this one and then this one but i had watched the reruns on ae for a while so i knew the characters. loved them. faith was my favorite before cruz came along. i loved ty and sasha too. and grace, carlos, doc, bobby, jimmy, kim, holly, emily, finney and bosco and sully. they were cool man. i loved them all and any i didn't mention. it feels like i've watched since the beginning. it's so sad. i realize that it's just a show but i'll still say goodbye to camelot. on the corner of king and arthur. where heroes went and prepared to battle evil. i loved all of you on third watch. acting was great, if only there were one more season. loved you maritza cruz. i hope you're happy, and with you're sister again. loved you third watch. goodbye camelot.