careful: cautiously attentive. to: the knot in my heart. from: thybroken a door shutting evrything my cursed being is... afraid, confused and martyred the core of my soul is broken ashamed of what i've become who have i become? what will i become? so many questions left unanswered i've been this way for so long dark, hateful created by sorrow. im afraid of recovery i want to leave this place this devilish place i've created but hesitant to leave a procedure that got created for the wish of not coming back. im careful procrastinator at heart postponing emotions as a way to protect thee from the hurtful realm called reality of pain. listening to the warnings that might not exist... these annoying warnings that keeps me from living a joyful life, a constant reminder of the past that has now become the horrendous present looking now as the future, is there hope left? im careful, but hopeful? mixed emotion dont help family dont offer help friends cant help i cant help myself but to cry, cry, cry inside the tears that once showed aren't able to reach the top just like me... drowning in the depth of my sorrow. drowing tears, please bring me comfort... in this needy time of self search. unable to surface i grew hate for everything... and everyone, im confused and unreachable, but mostly i am careful. ******** i know it sux but im not feeling well lately and umm yeah to help this knot leave...when its gonna be gone ill be back to normal; dark.