If I could play an instrument or i would record this song/poem that I wrote, thx to scenextragedy who insprired me...Here goes: ...why do i feel this way? i blush when u speak to me im nervous when u smile uncomfortable but yet.. the most comfortable place to b is were i am, wit u y do i feel this way? those actions r revealing... they r symptoms of shame love isnt sumthing like that its beautiful but yet deadly... but definately not shameful. CHORUS: ur making me so self conscious! y do u hurt me so much? i blame u 4 my sadness y do i love u so much? i thank u 4 my happiness what should i do? those are my unspoken words the ones i carry everywhere deep in my soul, my heart like a beautiful burden... that i charish wit my all what should i do? they explain evrything the things i cant say... the courage is not there which keeps u unaware of all the loving care. its waitting for u... im addicted to this drug that is u, my love. ur name is evrywhere disapointement is when ur not here. ur leaving me disoriented. CHORUS: and ur making me so self conscious! y do u hurt me so much? i blame u 4 my sadness y do i love u so much? i thank u 4 my happiness!! y do u hurt me so much? i blame u 4 my sadness y do i love u so much? i thank u 4 my happiness y does it hurt so? now i am all drained and filled wit ur essence im drowning in my melancholy as i read our unwritten chapter the chapter of the impossible.. y oh f***ing y!!!??! ur my only key to happiness like a knot in my heart controling evry inch of me finding new ways 2 kill me ...y does it hurt so? im am helpless and weak i became attentive of ur joys as a way to keep... ...im 6 feet underground, as i see u kiss my rival... ♥HATEFUL LOVE!♥