ok so its july 3rd, liek two days b4 furman. usually at this time im like SOOO excited to go that i can hardly wait.. but not this year... wow, i really don't want to go to. and thats sad b/c i really usually love furman. like now nobody from my grade is going & i dont have a roomate anymore. im like really scared about it. i hate being in situations where theres nobody i kno really really good, because it makes me really uncomfortable. plus i dont wanna stay in a room by myself. walk to breakfast & everything by myself. have no1 to hang out with during breaks. i seriously might cry.. id rather just not go now, but i have to since we payed $500 for it... but omg i am like so nervous about it. ahhhhhh. i dont even wanna go :( okkk, now i that i got that out, i decided im just gonna suck it up. i mean there will be cardinal newman ppl there, its not like ill be alone. i'll just have to make the best of it. i need to get over my shyness anyways so hopefully this will help. im gonna make the best of it & have a good time. ok i feel better now :)