I'm sorry it's been SO long since my last public entry. Lots of stuff has been going on a.k.a. rehearsals for "Leader of the Pack". Tonight is our last rehearsal without an audience. Wednesday and Thursday we have preview performances for charity. I could try to elaborate on everything that's been going on with the show and in my life in general, but that would take forever. i am going to try very hard to keep this more updated, but I'm not going to make any promises.

Yet again I have fallen back into the pit of never ever writing in here. I really do try to keep up with it, but I never feel inspired to write anymore, or I feel inspired to write, but it's stuff that I could only make as a private entry and that sort of defeats the purpose of having this diary. Life isn't as bad as it could be, not at all really. In fact, sometimes I find myself being truly happy. Thank God I'm in "Leader of the Pack" this summer, I'm so thrilled, but we've only had one rehearsal. I'm sure once we start rehearsing a lot I'll be happier. This past weekend I competed with Broadway Bound in the Encore Dance Competition. For Shannon and me's tap duet we got 1st, for my musical theatre solo I got 1st, for our musical theatre group number we got 1st and 1st overall, for our lyrical group number we got 1st, and for my vocal solo I got 2nd. It was pretty fun, but VERY exhausting. School is getting harder and harder to enjoy simply because it feels like we're so close to summer yet so far. I think I have senioritis even though I'm only a sophomore. I can't believe I'll be a junior soon, though. My love life, if that's really what you want to call it, is pretty non existant. I do like someone new. Yeah, got over the other one, but it doesn't appear that the new guy is in to me either. I know, SHOCKING...not. Friends are good. I still miss Molly a lot. I really wish she could come home more often. I feel like God keeps taking my friends with me, it's starting to make me think that I need to put a wall around my heart so I don't get too close to anyone. I've become good friends with Anastacia and I adore her, but of course she graduates in two weeks. She's going to USC, but she'll be in college so...yeah. We'll see. I think that is about it! Ciao!

Well, hmm. i don't really have anything to write about now that I've started this entry. Life is pretty blah right now. School sucks...a lot. I find out on Friday a/b "Leader of the Pack". AAAH! I REALLY hope I get in. What if I don't? booo. Well, I really have nothing to say...ciao.

Mondays are just so much fun, don't you agree? There's nothing better than school and knowing that you have the WHOLE freaking week ahead of you. Woo hoo....not! After school, I went to Hooligan's with Shannon ,Evans, Wes, and Halfie. Then, I got my car washed..yay! It smells clean and looks pretty now. I had a voice lesson w/ Lou. We worked on my competition piece, "Cabaret", today. I loove singing that song because it really is one of the best songs to sing, in my opinion. Then, I went to dinner w/ Wes and Anastacia. It was pretty fun. Tomorrow, I have school, Hooligans, Broadway Bound, etc. I'm also getting a new phone, YAY!

I have really become slack with my diary writing, not just online, but w/ my real, private diary. I have to start up again because it's really important to me to document everything that's going on in my life. School is going okay, I guess. I get through the days somehow even though it's TORTURE. My grades weren't too great 3rd quarter, so I'm trying a little bit ahrder this quarter. Friendships are great! I'm so glad I've made so many great friends through...welll...Hooligans haha. It's so great to have friends from other schools. School friends are great too of course. Theatre stuff is okay. I find out on Friday whether or not I got into "Leader of the Pack" at Workshop. So, please pray for me. Boys...are boys. I'm going to NYC on the 9th w/ Broadway Bound. SQUEE. I promise to try to write everyday!!

So..I'm really sorry I barely ever write. I keep trying to, then I get distracted or decide tehre's nothing to write about. so yeah. I could write about millions of things, but it would take a long time so I'll just write about the opening of Footloose. Cast B's opening night was Friday night. The performance went very well. I felt good about my performance. Lots of people that I know were there. Ms.Skees even brought me flowers which was really nice. Since "Children's Letters to God" closed, I've been dying to perform in front of an audience again and as we sang the opening song I felt that energy that only live theatre can give me. It's such an amazing feeling. Everytime I do it all I can think is "this is what I'm supposed to do forever". After the show, we went over to Nathalie's for pizza and s'mores. It was fun. Yesterday(Saturday), I went to lunch with Shannon which was fun. We just talked a lot. Then, I sold tickets for Footloose. I felt dumb because I had to use a calculator hahaha. For the show, I just hung out backstage and attempted to do my physics take home test. After the show, we all went over to Mclean's. His green house thingy is really awesome. It was fun to hang out with the cast. I'm going to miss them a lot. So, today is the last show. I hate closing shows. It's the worse thing for me because it means I have awhile until I'll be onstage again, but it also means I won't be spending so much time with all of these great people. I'll still see Shannon a lot, but who knows how much I'll see everyone else. It sucks. Well, I need to go get ready for the show. So...bye.

So I am actually really glad Molly gave my ticket to the OAR concert away. Yeah, I wanted to see the concert, but I had a WONDERFUL night. I ended up going over to Shannon's. At first I was nervous, but I ended up having a lot of fun. I am pretty jealous of all of them though because they have such a fun, crazy group. It ended up being me, shannon, lauren, lauren's boyfriend, evans, bradley, bradley's boyfriend, mclean, wes, richard, sarah, sean, and halfie was there for like two seconds. We talked awhile then we watched "The Recruit". It confused me, but it was still pretty good. it's funny how I was SO pissed a/b the whole concert thing, and now I am SO thankful that I didn't go. YAY.

Okay, so yet again I haven't written in ages. I really don't know where to begin. Um..Molly Kent is in town this weekend. She came in on Thursday. It's been really great to be with her again. I thought that it might have been awkward to hang out with her since we haven't seen eachother since January 2nd, but since we have talked on the phone so much since she's left, it wasn't different at all. Boys still suck a lot. Footloose is going pretty well. I've really enjoyed befriending a lot of the cast members, and look forward to getting closer to them. I auditioned for Camelot at Town Theatre, and didn't get in, but I'm really okay with it. i was upset for like two days, and now I'm completely over it which is good. How long can I stress about that? I mean seriously, that's what my career is about. Rejection. I just hate the fact that rejection is also big in many other areas of my life.

Sorry, I haven't written a public entry in awhile. I've either been busy, lazy, or too annoyed/angry/sad/whatever to write an entry. Basically I've had to deal w/ high school shit that really sucks. I'm happy at dance, and at Footloose rehearsal, and when I'm on the phone with Molly Kent, and some other times. But school sucks. Oh well, I don't have TOO much longer until I graduation...just 2 years and the rest of this year. Okay, so that is awhile haha. Oh well, I'll try to write entries more often. Sorry again.

"This ain't new not to me. This ain't uncharted territory not to me. Got my eyes opened wide. It ain't often this girl swallows her pride. Well thanks for the ride. I gotta leave and live my life alone. I don't need a man to face the unknown. It's time to slip on my highest heals and lift my head above this back breaking, heart aching, forsaken love. I wanna make like this day never happened. I wanna make like this pain I feel is gone. I'm gonna make myself strong. and move away from what's wrong. I'm gonna make like a nail and press on. I rejoin the human race. With a passion and grace. And I'm proud to be the woman I am... Tomorrow is a place where I want to belong. I will make like a nail. Please pray I don't fail. I will make like a nail and press on. I will press on.

It's seems although I'm now 16, I have somehow reversed back to age 13, but only in certain ways. Now that I am madly in "like" with that boy that bess has so aptly nicknamed "Blue Sky"(BS for short), I have gone back to listening to cheesy pop songs about crushes, I'm now constantly daydreaming, and I'm smiling a lot more than usual. I'm really happy with my life right now. I've got this guy that I might just have a chance with, I'm doing okay in school, Footloose is loads of fun, I'm working out and eating a LITTLE bit healthier, etc. The only things that could make it better would be if Molly could come home and if I was prettier. Otherwise, I'm a happy girl. The only bad thing about my new love interest is that I can't seem to focus on anything but him. I'm daydreaming nonstop and planning conversations in my head. I haven't been this much in "like" since like 7th grade. hehe.

Blaaah. This weekend is blah. I don't know what else to say honestly. Friday-school sucked as usual. After that, I had ballet which was okay. Then, I went to the mall with my sister and bought a shirt, belt, and jewelry. That night, I went to the Heathwood/CN basketball game. I stayed for like one quarter than left and went to D's with Molly L and Meg. It was pretty fun. Then, we got Starbucks. Today I went to Urban Nirvana. I got a facial, hydrotherapy, and a hot stone massage. YAY. Then, I had rehearsal. It was alright. After that, I went to Shannon's bday party for a little bit. After I took Harry home, I went to see Tristan and Isolde with Kelley. The movie was really good, but it somehow left me feeling even more single that usual. Then, we went to see Fridays. Fun fun fun. Tomorrow I have rehearsal then lyrical. What a thrilling life I live.

I'm sorry I haven't written for what seems like ages. I don't really know where my last entry stopped, so I'm unsure of where to begin. I guess I'll just start with yesterday since it was, well it was supposed to be so special. My 16th Birthday. As many of the adults have said "sweet sixteen and never been kissed". Well, I have been kissed, but the only time it wasn't a dare was when both of us were under deep alcohol influence.So..thanks to the adults for pretty much rubbing it in that no, I've never REALLY been kissed. Anyway, my 16th bday wasn't horrible nor was it amazing. Most of my friends had warned me that I would be dissapointed, and I was. For some reason, I expected to wake up and suddenly look better and feel better and just be a different person, so it was pretty disapointing to realize that I am exactly the same, just a year older. Everyone at school wished me a happy bday, and I got little cards from Sam, Ashlee, and Calle. And Calle brought me a cookie cake that we ate in Physics. For lunch, my parents took me out for Hooligans. Then, I went back to school. After school, I didn't do anything really. That night, I went to dinner at the Melting Pot with my parents. Then, I had Footloose rehearsal. Woo hoo. We met our director, Alexis Casonavis. He seems to know a lot a/b theatre which is good. Today was blah. I slept in and didn't go to school until 4th period. I brought a cake for lunch. After school, I went to get my glasses and to the DMV for a waiver form. After that, I had Broadway Bound. It was alright. Now, I'm here. Yay. I'll try to keep up better with writing. Bye!

It's funny how the last time I wrote about rejection and such and now I prove my theory...I was rejected and I don't care. I had forced myself to like someone because I was bored. Because I was tired of not liking someone. So...I am back to the start. Well sort of. I do like someone, but..it's someone that I've had feelings for before. Oh and there is another guy that is new, but yeah. So..what's been up with me? I don't know what day of the week I wrote my last entry, but I'm just going to start with Friday. School was boring as usual. Afterwards, I skipped ballet and went to Columbiana with Kelley. It was pretty fun. Then, I had my eyebrows done. That night, I went to see "Crowns" at Trustus with Harry. It was pretty good, not really my kind of show, but I appreciated it. Someone got drunk during the first act and threw up. EEEWW. On Saturday, I had Footloose rehearsal. It was alright. Then, I went to see "The Family Stone" with Kelley, Molly L., Meg, Sam, and Calle. The movie was cute and sad. After that, we went to dinner at Moe's then dessert at the Nestle place. Fun stuff. Today, I had Footloose rehearsal. It was pretty fun because we played a lot of acting games. After that I had lyrical. It was alright. Tomorrow, I'm meeting Lou for coffee then going to her house for an hour long voice lesson then lunch with Molly L. Then, I have to do my drama project. UGH. Then, Footloose rehearsal. I'm sooo glad I don't have school tomorrow.

Why do we waste our time on things that aren't good for us? Some people waste their time getting high or drunk. Others waste their time playing video games or surfing the internet. Then there's me...wasting my time on a boy that probably won't ever like me. Why do we set ourselves up for rejection? It's what we do. But the thing is, I don't know if I am or not at the moment. For the first time since I can remember, I haven't told the guy I like that I like him. I want to. Not because I think it will have a positive effect, but simply because I HATE not knowing. I hate waiting. I hate the beginning of relationships, why can't we just skip to the good part? I guess I'm just proving the theory that Americans want what they want there and then right. Oh well, I don't mind admitting I like instant gratification, duh, I do musical theatre! All and all today was a shitty day, and I don't feel like writing all about it. But, I did have an okay Footloose rehearsal. Bess if you're reading this, HEY!

Well, since I've gotten back from New York City, nothing good has happened, yet somehow plenty of crappy stuff managed to slip it's way in. On Monday, I drove over to Calle's house to say the final goodbye to Molly Kent before she moved. We just sat around and talked for awhile. When it was finally time to say goodbye, I don't think I understood what was happening. I didn't cry when I hugged her goodbye. I saved that for the drive home. After I left Calle's house, I went D's for lunch with Lauren Thaxton, Kelley, and Meg. I didn't get to talk much. Tuesday, I had to return to school which sucks. That day was fine as was Wednesday, when I started liking a guy that you wouldn't expect me to like, but yeah. Thursday brought extreme unhappiness to my day, as did Friday. After ballet on Friday, I came home and locked my door and put on pajamas and put on my itune on shuffle and turned it up loud and got under my comforter and just layed there for an hour and thought about everything. Then, I slept until 8:30. I woke up and ate dinner then just hung out by myself for the rest of the night. Saturday was much better. Hannah and I drove up to Charlotte to see the "Little Women" tour . The drive up there was a lot of fun, we listened to Rent and sang really loud. The show was disapointing. I mean it was good, but it wasn't Broadway. Seeing it without Sutton Foster just sorta ruined it haha. Maureen Mcgovern was amazing though. On the way home, we listened to Little Women and sang even louder than we sang to Rent. Today(Sunday) was nothing special. I bought a new hair dryer. And went to lyrical. and now I'm here. Well, bye.

This is one of my favorite and least favorite types of entries to write. I get to write about my favorite place in the world and all of the fun things I did there, but I also have to remind myself I am no longer there, plus there is so much to say this entry is just very time consuming, but worth it. To make this easier, I am going to separate each day into it's own entry. That way you can read it easier and I won't get carpel tunnel. So shall we embark on the journey that is New York City?: Day One(December 27,2005)- At exactly 4:08 a.m. I woke up to my ipod playing "Taylor the Latte Boy" on the new speakers/alarm I got for Christmas. It wasn't really a good song to wake up because it isn't jumpy, but oh well. I looked outside to see it was still pitch black. Wow. So, I took a shower and got presentable, and did some last minute packing. Then, my dad drove my mom and me to the airport. We listened to "The Full Monty" on the way there. My dad thought it was the funniest music he had ever heard..okay I know that's not very interesting, but I want to include the details of this trip. So, of course the moment we arrived at the airport they announced our plane had been delayed to 8:30. Which means I could have slept like an extra 2 hours. Oh well. Giulia and I got on her laptop for awhile while we waited then just hung out and read magazines and stuff. Waiting at the airport is never very much fun. Finally, it was time to board the plane. Usually, I start freaking out at that point, but since the doctor prescribed me some relaxing pills for airplane rides, I was fine. The plane ride there was actually the smoothest flight I have ever been on. There was like zero turbulence. As I looked out the window and saw the skyscrapers and the Statue of Liberty I knew where I was...I was home. The chaos of getting our luggage and a cab wasn't much fun, but who ever said that part was fun anyway? Once we started getting near Midtown I got more and more excited. I pointed out the Wicked posters. The Hairspray posters. Anything that signified where we were headed. When we got to the hotel(Milford Plaza on 45th street). We went up to our room and put all of our baggage in it. Then, we headed to Roxy Deli for food. I love that place. I got one of the best chicken salad sandwiches I have EVER had. Then we split a slice of Chocolate Cappucino cheesecake. It wasn't as good as it sounded haha. After lunch, we walked around Times Square. First stop was Sephora where I bought some Chance by Chanel, some really good smelling perfume(its really sweet), Frederic Fekkai shampoo for brunettes that smells delicious, Frederic Fekkai conditioner, Clinique Happy shampoo, some lip balm, and some hair mist. I LOVE SEPHORA. Honestly, if I could I would by one of everything there. Then, we went to Virgin Records. One of my other favorite places in the world...Hello, they have a huge Broadway section. So I got a bunch of Broadway cast recordings and yet again spent too much money. After that, my mom went back to the hotel to nap while Giulia and I just walked around NYC by ourselves! I was really surprised my mom let us do that, but no complaints here. I loved it. After that I introduced Giulia to one of my other favorites: Broadway New York, the theatre themed souveneir shop inside the Marriot Marquis. While in there I called Sam and talked to him for a bit which was nice. I got him some stuff, and myself some stuff. and some gifts. Once we finished there, Giulia and I saw a psychic shop place and we just had to go in there. For ten dollars each "Rosemarie" read our faces(sorta like a palm reading). According to this woman, I will marry at age 24, have 4 kids..2 boys and 2 girls, I'm mature for my age, I don't communicate enough with my family, and I WILL BE ON BROADWAY EVENTUALLY. haha I doubt any of that was true, but we're going to pretend it is, okay? Then, we just walked around more, and got our pictures taken with some random firemen(they were pretty cute). Once we finished all of that stuff, we headed to the hotel to get ready for Avenue Q. Avenue Q was sooo HILARIOUS. It wasn't the best show I've ever seen by any means, but it was so much fun. Although I did have a large woman next to me who kinda bulged over into my seat too which made it an unpleasent situation, but still enjoyable. Afterwards, we stood outside at the stage door. The cast was really quick which I appreciated because I was cold and exhausted. My favorites: Mary Faber(Kate Monster) and Barrett Foa(Princeton). Mary because it was only her 2nd night and it appeared she had been in it for a month. and she was adorable. and sweet. Barrett because have ya seen him? HOT. Then, we ate at the Celebrity Deli. We sat in the window and Mary Faber walked right by. Yes, I should have followed her right. lol. After we ate, we went up to the room and I pretty much passed out. Day Two(December 28,2005)- First, we took Giulia to an optomotrist to get glasses. That's when we met Fran. She worked there, but she used to be a dancer. I liked her ebcause she was a normal human being yet somehow a lot cooler than anyone that lives in Columbia just because she lived in NYC. Then, we headed to the Celebrity Deli for lunch. It was alright. Cat's friend, Donna Marie Asbury(from the Chicago ensemble) to tell us that if we didn't already have tickets to Chicago to go see Chita Rivera's show, but we did have tickets. SHE SAID MY NAME IN THE MESSAGE! Our tickets for Chicago were great, front row center. It was really cool. It was sorta awkward though when one of the actors would stare us down for a long time. haha. Afterwards, we waited at the stage door and met some of the cast, including Tony award winning Debra Monk(Mama Morton). She recognized us from the front row(as did everyone else we met from the cast) and told Giulia good job for being such a reponsive audience member. p.s. Giulia is the loudest laugher in the universe. After that, we went to dinner at Maxie's. I had a very dissapointing chicken salad sandwich. Bah. Then, we saw Sweet Charity. Wow, Christina Applegate really has improved since I saw the show for the first time. Like I really did like her, no she isn't the best singer, dancer, or actress, but she is a really great Charity. Now, I'm sorta sad the show is closing. Oh well. We waited at the stage door afterwards. The stage door guy, Neal, was hilarious. When a random ensemble member came out he would yell "CLEAR!" and it was one of the ensemble girl's birthdays so he brought her out and told everyone to wish her a happy birthday which was cute. Christina Applegate was sick, but she still signed all the autographs. We were about to leave when I saw Dylis Croman(I really liked her hair and wanted to get her autograph) standing on the outskirts talking to what appeared to be relatives. One of her "relatives" took a picture of her giving an autograph which was cute, and we got a picture with her. We also got Neal to autograph our playbills. He wrote "Neal" with a heart at the end of his name haha. Ah, I love New Yorkers. Then, we ate dessert at you guessed it...the Celebrity Deli. I had really yummy chocolate layer cake though so no complaints. Day Three(December 29,2005)- Unfortunatly, Giulia and I slept in way too late and I ended up paying for it in one of the worse ways possible. We headed to Rent. The first act was SO amazing. Honestly, I still like the movie and everything, but seeing it onstage was just so much better. It was so fun. Espessially when Maureen said "moo with me" and a bunch of people(including us) moooed. haha. If you haven't heard/seen Rent you are probably very confused by the previous sentence haha. One bad thing was my stomach hurt the whole time, and by intermission i was really sick and the abthroom line was impossible. We had no choice. So Giulia stayed and my mom took me back to the hotel. As we walked down 41st street I realized I was missing the second act of RENT. I wasn't going to see so much. And I cried. I didn't try to hide it. I cried as I walked the streets of NYC, not loud sobbing or anything. Just quiet, tears running down my face crying. I looked up and saw someone....MICHELLE KITTRELL. I met her when she was in the All Shook Up ensemble, and now she's in Hairspray. There she was bobbing along in sweat clothes, a ponytail, barely any makeup. She gave me an odd look because 1.I was still crying and 2. I was staring at her. I didn't realize it was her though until she passed us and I was about to turn around and ask for a picture because barely anyone was on the sidewalk and stuff, but I was too sick. So, after I felt better, we headed back to the theatre to get Giulia. She had gotten some of the cast to sign my playbill which was so sweet because I didn't even ask. Fortunatly not everoyne had come out yet so I did get to get a picture with the guy that played Mark. Yay. After that, we went to pick up her glasses. We got Fran to take a picture with us and I could tell her made her day. Then, we ate at the Brazil Cafe on 48th which was yummy. I got fettucini alfredo. and fried bananas which were interesting. Once we got dressed up and stuff, we went to see Light in the Piazza. We had front row center and they were amazing seats. I mean seriously, amazing. The show is just SO beatiful. Seriously. The new Clara, Katie Clarke, was SO good. She's only 21. Victoria Clark was still AMAZING. At the stage door, the cast was very nice. Katie Clarke told us we were beautiful which I found humorous because if you ever see her you'll see that she is one of the most georgous people in the world. Victoria Clark noticed us from the front row and thanked us for waiting for her to come out. She wished us good luck with our theatre careers too which was cool. Day Four(December 30,2005)- First, Giulia and I took a note to Cat's friend who's in Chitty Chitty Bang Bang. We got to put it on a bulletin board haha. Then, we tried to go into Madama Tussaud's wax museum, but we didnt have time before out next show so we didn't. After walking around forever, we went to see Wicked. Our seats were okay, partial view, but close. The show was good, not the best out of the 3 times I've seen it though haha. Afterwards, we waited forever at the stage door. When we asked one ensemble girl for her autograph she actually said "I didn't play anyone important" haha. Then, a really cute girl with a really squeaky baby voice came out and told me "i'm signing next to the monkeys because I was a monkey". haha. It was adorable. Finally, Shoshana Bean(Elphaba) came out. She was quick and quiet. For some reason I thought she would be more exciting and loud haha. Megan Hilty(Galinda) didn't come out which was disapointing because I like her a lot. She was really nice the first tiem I met her. After that, I took a nap. Then we went to see The 25th Annual Putnam County Spelling Bee. Our seats were front row, but it was a really cool theatre so basically if i crossed my legs, my feet would be on the stage. The cast was SO AMAZING. They all had such great characters and such. The show was just brilliant and hilarious. I didn't want it to end. We waited in the lobby(they do that instead of the stage door for some reason). I almost didn't get to meet Celia Keenan-Bolger(Olive), who was the one I was DYING to meet. She started to walk out and i was like "noooo". So I followed her outside and got her. She's really short, but she was nice. She told Giulia she liked her laugh haha. Once we finished there, we went to Ellen's Stardust Diner. I love that place. The food is just okay, but the waitstaff sings. Their all aspriing performers so their cool. After we ate, we went back to the hotel and slept. Day Five(December 31, 2005)- Giulia and my mom went to Chinatown during the morning while I just stayed at the hotel because I felt sick again. My mom got me two neat chinese style diaries and a fake Chanel purse that I adore. Then, we went to lunch at Sardi's. I had to leave mid-lunch because I felt sick which was sad. But, as I walked down the street some random guys came up to ask me if I lived in the city, I lied and said "yes" and they asked for a good place to eat. Once I finished telling them, they told me I was the nicest New Yorker they had met since tehy got there which made me extremely happy. Walking alone in the city made me so happy. I felt at home. I was at home. Then, my mom attempted to go to Starbuck's but we couldn't find one that was open and we got stuck in all the New Year's Eve sidewalk traffic. We had to walk so much more than we should have and even had to get our bags checked at one point. The policemen are extremely unfriendly on New Years Eve. Just to warn you. Finally, we got back to the hotel. We went to see Spamalot. Our seats were okay. The show was great. The new Lady of the Lake, Lauren Kennedy, is AWESOME. She seriously kicked ass. The cast didn't do the stage door thing that night, understandably. So, we headed to Bond 45, the restaurant we had reservations at. We had to stand and wait to be seated FOREVER. I really liked the restaiurant though. They had a 1930s theme so the waitresses were all dressed in flappers dresses and stuff. They also served me champagne which I really liked!! I ended up drinking 2 of my own glasses plus my mom's. So yeah. I was a happy girl on new years eve. Since our restaurant was in Times Square, we ran outside a few mintues before midnight. It was all very exciting and surreal. And there it was. It was so beautiful.. As we counted down, I saw all of these people I didn't know and yet here I was celebrating with them. It was cool. We couldn't see the ball drop, but confetti flew down on us all. It didn't stop for like an hour. It was so exciting. As Giulia talked to some Polish guy, I stared up at the confetti pouring down, and listened to Frank Sinatra's "New York, New York" blare through Times Square and I wished that every moment of my life could feel like that. For those few moments I knew for a fact that everything will be okay. I don't know how an old song and confetti made me realize all of that, but it did and I'm not complaining. Once we finished outside, we went back in and ate dessert and talked to our aspiring actor waiter about celebrities that eat there and such. Finally, at one we left and went back to the hotel. Day Five(January 1, 2005)- My least favorite day of the trip.. The day I was taken from my natural habitat. We didn't do anything worth writing about except leave. As we drove away, I looked out of the back of the taxi and watched as the skyscrapers and such got smaller and smaller. I wanted to jump out of the cab and stay, but life doesn't work that way unfortunatly. I just have to wait for that great day until I can go back there for good. New Years Resolutions: 1. Lose atleast 20 pounds by the end of the year 2. Get a GOOD boyfriend by the end of the year 3. Get better grades 4. Work harder on my acting, dancing, and singing. Don't forget to check out my pictures from the trip at: http://loriwheat.myphotoalbum.com/view_album.php?set_albumName=album16

Hey everyone! I'm finished packing for NYC and I'm soo ready to go like right this second. Today, I woke up and went to Hooligans for lunch with Meg, Molly K, Kat, Kelley, Sam, and Sarah. It was pretty fun. Then, we came back to my place and watched the slideshow Sarah made for Molly. It was REALLY good and I hope Sarah makes me a copy. It was sweet. Then, Kat, Kelley, Molly K, and me went to the coinstar machine so Kelley could get some cash. After that, we went to my house to get some coins. I went to the coinstar machine and got 64 dollars. After that, we went to Hobby Lobby and I got a frame thingy for my wall and a bunch of scrapbooking stuff. We bought some 2006 glasses and wore them to get a drink from Chick-Fil-A. Once we were finished there, we came back to my house to get MORE money. We went to Wal-Mart and got cartridges for my printer. Then, we went to Sam Goody's where Kelley got "The Breakfast Club" and I got the On The Record cast recording. So what are my plans now? Well, I plan on watching tv for a bit. Then trying to sleep. Then waking up at 4 a.m. to shower and get ready. We're leaving the house at 5:30. Our plane leaves at 6:53 a.m. and we're supposed to get to NYC at 8:53 a.m. YAAAY! I am soo excited. Here's a picture from today:

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanakuh, Happy Kwanzaa, whatever blows your skirt up! My Christmas was pretty good. Let's rewind to Christmas Eve: During the day, I didn't do anything particularly special. I basically just sat around the house. My mom let me open one present, and I got pink Uggs! Their uber cute! That evening, we went to church. Leslie had to leave in the beginning because Will was misbehaving so Kelley came and sat with my mom, me, and Kim. Their were triplets in front of us! They were so cute! After that, we went to the Grantz's for the annual christmas eve party. I left after a few minutes with my sisters, Will, and my brother in law. We headed to Camden. Once in Camden, I sat in the den and watched tv with Pat(my brother in law) for a long time. Then went to bed. I woke up at 7ish this morning and went downstairs. I got a stereo thingy for my ipod, money, cds, clothes, etc. The usual, pretty much. After opening presents, I went back to bed until it was time to eat. After eating, we stuck around for awhile then finally left. Now, I'm buying some cds on itunes and importing some cds onto my ipod. woo hoo. Happy Holidays!!

We had a goodbye party for Molly at my house tonight. I realized awhile back I would miss her once she left, but now that it's actually coming closer and closer I really miss her. We played a joke on her and put condoms all over her car, and she gave me these slippers i wanted and a framed picture of us and a really sweet/sad letter, i gave her a scrapbook. I already miss her. Tonight was probably my last time seeing her for a really long time. I know we'll talk like EVERYDAY online/on the phone, but it won't be the same. She's one of my only friends that actually listens to me when I talk about theatre, and didn't make fun of my crush on Sam, etc. She means so much to me. I wish it was someone else moving instead of her...