Well, this is strange I have only ever had a diary once in my life. That of course was what, like 10 years ago. This is going to be strange having everyone being able to read my thoughts but oh well. This is just something to do... Kay well today was just like any other day in this summer holiday thing we are given for attenting school fer like what 9 months? well whatever it was boring, the only different thing this week is that im at my aunts and uncles cuz my parents decided to go away or what not so whatever. fuck so ive decided with all this shit with dylan, im just gonna let it blow over...i dont give a fuck anymore about how shitty he treated me or anything because now that i told our friends about his shitty attittude towards me he starts up with all this i told him i found better shit! which i would like to clear up right now!...i texted him and said i met a nice guy who was perfectly good looking who was asking me fer my number and shyt but i couldnt do anything with him(like give him my number) cuz i felt to bad like i was doing dylan wrong or something and cuz i still want him back. i unno i did end up giving it too him but i still havent done shyt all with him he called me like 20 times and even after andrea basically told him to fuck off hes still callen but there u fucking go thjats what i said...not once did i say id found better....didnt that kinda mean he was better...but whatever fuck. sometimes i just wanna take back that i broke up with him but then again hed prolly still be treating me like shyt and i just couldnt take it i cried all the time. i trusted him with alot of shyt and cared about him so much then when we break up he pulls this "i didnt give a shyt anyways thing" i dont know i like to think that i didnt waste my time and it was a "learning expierence" as my bro would say but when he said that he really hurt me. So i dotn know i could of or couldnt of wasted my time all i really know is im done with the fighting and shyt dylans a good guy just wasnt all that great of a boyfriend. well its been almost two weeks since our break up and i want him to know that im over all the drama and shyt that came with the break up! Now just to figure out a way to tell someone i care so fucking much about that i still wanna be friends after a pretty hectic breakup...